lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: huh
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: dont openly cruficy yourself
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: well talk here
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: like i said i dont know both
sides
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: ok sorry
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: but i dotn hate you
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: welcome back
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: sorry about that what did u
say
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: thanks
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM
(11:17:06 AM): huh
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx (11:17:10 AM): dont openly cruficy
yourself
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx (11:17:22 AM): well talk here
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx (11:17:36 AM): like i said i dont
know both sides
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM (11:17:38 AM): ok sorry
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx (11:17:43 AM): but i dotn hate you
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM signed off at 11:18:38 AM.
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: well thats good
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: why so down though..is it cuz of
travs ..actions?
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: yeah and just regret and
wishing i wasnt so stupid
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: what do you mean?
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: im the type of person that
as soon as i have ANY doubt of anything i have to
get out of the situation
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: aaand i got kind of afraid
for trav to come here and i dont even know why
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: i know
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: i told him that
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: yeah what did he say
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: but i have ot make 1 thing clear
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: i dont necessarily help the
situation
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: because i see everything
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: huh
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: when he originally told me
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: you had doubts and wasnt sure
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: i tried ot convince him it was
okay..but at the same time brace him for whatever
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: so
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: yeah i did tell him you were
getting cold feet
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: but i also told him you may have
someone else
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: he wanted explanations
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: ok..
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: i didnt have any so i gave him
the possibilities
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: and if that pushed him
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: then maybe i should be sorry
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: i dont think it did but its
cool...
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: its really not that i actually
dont even know why i told him there was someone
else
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: are you sure?
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: its just these 2 guys here
like me and i hung out with them
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: i swear to god i didnt
TOUCH them
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: you told him there was someone
else?
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: i didnt kiss them
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: yes
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: because i couldnt think of
another way to scare him off ya know cause i was
afraid...because i have no other reasons why i
should have broken up with him...i love him so
much and you know that as much as i do brian
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: i did too
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: and i know you are on here
every night
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: so i couldnt figure out how you
could "cheat"
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: cuz you are here
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: not out and what not
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: yeah and i was on here
because of travis
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: i guess my question is
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: cause i wanted to talk to
him
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: do you still love him?
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: yes i love him so much
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: last night i called him
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: drunk
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: because i wanted to tell
him how sorry i was and how much i love him
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: not the smartest thing mind you
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: not drunk
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: i know!
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: just tiupsy
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: granted you love him
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: and i drank cause i was
upset
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: but dont do it when your
drinking
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: fuck i was crying to my
friend dana about it lol
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: im a guy and if my g/f called me
drunk id take a little offense to it
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: aww
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: i know but i get emotional
when i drink
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: *nods*
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: i just dont know why i did it
brian
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: and i cant take it back, he
hates me now
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: are you so sure about that...
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: yeah :-\ he acts it
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: dont mistake pain..for hatred
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: i never ever meant to hurt
him it hurts me so bad at the thought that i hurt
him
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: i know katie
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: i just dont know what i can
do
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: one last question
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: ok
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: just cuz i have a nosey side to
me
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: do you want ot be with him?
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: more than anything
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: :-(
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: very well then
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: thats all i wanted ot know
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: oh
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: lol..and with that
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: hes still coming down
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: would you meet up with him?
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: i know but he doesnt know
if he wants to see me
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: yes
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: *nods*
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: do you 2 talk much?
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: not anymore..
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: or has it just dropped off?
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: :-(
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: okay
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: *sigh* i just dunno what i
can do brian
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: i made the biggest mistake
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: what mistake was that?
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: pushing him away?
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: breaking up with him
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: yea
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: i love him
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: *nods*
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: i know
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: i can tell
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: :-( yeah
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: hmm
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: other than that anything new?
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: *starts small talk*
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: sorry if i seem nosey
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: i just wanted to know what was
going on
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: nope going to the beach
tomorrow and going out to a club tonight if my
mom stops being anal about it
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: knowing 1 side isnt kool
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: its cool
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: okay
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: yup
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: oOo @ beach
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: wheres the closest beach to
you?
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: hhe :-) yeah i get to go
see my family
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: ocean city NJ
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: lol
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: thats far i think
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: not from my house
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: i got there all the time
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: kool
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: my whole moms side of the
family lives there
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: and im so close to them
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: i hate this thing lol
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: welcome back
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: hehe
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: thanks
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: yuppers
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: everyone like hates OC NJ
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: ive never been there
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: aww i <3 it
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: they just say
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: that theres nothin there
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: lol
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: best beaches have nothing on
them
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: yeah but i dont even like
the beach that much
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: i hate sand
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: i love the boardwalk
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: lol
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: im about to make a website
out of this convo and show trav
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: loljk
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: lol thats funny
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: do it
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: it might fix a lot of things
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: okay
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: i hope
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: or he'd be like katie go to
hell
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: but only if you want them fixed
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: i do
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: do i just save this IM and
then uplaod it on like angelfire
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: want me to do it for you?
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: alright lol
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: i have a site and space
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: thanks hun
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: no probs
xSkRYpT Kl33n3Rx: ill have it up with in the hour
lwAnNaLiCkEmiNeM: alright
