February 2003
2/27/03
Today was another tiring day, but I don't think I'm as tired as I was yesterday even though I didn't get as much sleep last night. Oh well, things are weird like that. So work was really boring. I sat around and shelved some books as well. I don't think I have to work over break now so that's cool. So anyways, psych wasn't too bad. Lunch after that was pretty cool. I sat with Keith and some people he knew from his dorm. We found what looked to be a pubic hair in the napkins. Keith asked these two girls behind us what they thought, but they thought it was just a regular hair. Oh well, it was pretty funny. We blamed it on the little midget who cleans the tables and stuff. So after that I went back to work which wasn't too exciting. Then after that I went up to the second floor of the library to write my little paper for appl of micro. It wasn't too hard. I did it in about an hour, but I was talking to people at the same time. So I sat around bored, then in my state of boredom decided I was going to finally update my site some. I've decided to try and make a theme surrounding the Transformers. I have big plans which with probablly crash and burn, but oh well. I don't really care all that much. So maybe Dusty can help me out with a few things since he devotes so much time to websites and stuff and I spend too much time with C++ which doesn't help me out at all when dealing with HTML. So anyways, soccer wasn't too bad tonight. I think I actually played pretty decent for once. My passing was on mostly and that always makes me happy because I enjoy making good passes. Well I don't knwo what else to say. I was told Nichole is all serious about this stuff today. That's sort of funny. Or not, I'll let whoever is reading this to decide for themselves...night
2/26/03
Today was really tiring I think. I woke up not really that early to go to school. I went there to find that my Humanities class was cancelled again, so that sucked, but that means that I'll prolly not have the test now on Friday which is good then I guess. So I just went to my mom's office and sat around till 10 when I had my programming test. I'm not sure how I did on it because there were like 20 true/false questions and I really hate true/false. So I'm hoping I did good at least because if not then that will suck being that it's a class in my major and all. So anyways after that I came back and went to Subway and got my mom a sub as well. It wasn't too bad. I studied for my french test till 1 rolled around and I had to go to appl of micro which was really boring like always. And then off to french were I took my test which was really easy. But then again I really hate tests even if I can do good on them. So then I waited around an hour till it was time for my mom to leave work and I left with her. I spent most of my night sitting around. I should have done homework, but I just wasn't in the mood for it. I guess I'll work on it tomorrow with all my free time that I'll have. Oh, just to add, I guess I must be really cool since tonight Tyler's sister messaged me instead of me messaging her. Well I only did twice before, but I just thought I'd add that for anyone who's reading. I must be interesting or something, or not. Oh well, I'm so damn tired...night
2/25/03
So the past two days have been fairly boring. Not too much of interest has really happened. Monday it snowed pretty bad and my Humanities class was cancelled. So that was cool I guess. So the rest of the day was pretty uneventful. The highlight of my day was just messing around talking to Justin. Other than that I really didn't do anything. I came home and sat around mostly when I should have been studying for my tests tomorrow. So today was about the same. Work was pretty boring this morning. I sat around at the desk and at the art gallery. Psychology class wasn't that eventful either. I got my test back. I got a 94% on it so that's pretty good I guess. Lunch wasn't too bad either. I need to start drinking cappucino more because it's really good. So anyways work was really boring. Shelf reading always sux so I didn't have a very good time there. Anyways, I came home and studied some and got some stuff done. I talked to Tyler's sister Nichole and I've decided to steal her away from Keith just for fun since he doesn't want to get shot down by a 14 year old. So I've decided it won't hurt me to get shot down by a 14 year old. I can take it like a champ. I think, or maybe she'll really like me and then, ummm, well I don't know. Nevermind. Well I have nothing left to say...night
2/23/03
So this weekend wasn't too bad. Friday night I ended up chillin' at Tyler's house after work. I don't know how long I was there. Maybe 3-4 hours. We kept messing around with his sister, well me and Jimmy because we're gay and hopeless. So anyways, Me, Keith, Jimmy, Betsey, Keith, Tyler and Dusty all went to see Old Skool. It was a pretty funny movie so I was pleased with the money that I spent on it. I spent money on popcorn too and got a cd, but Dusty stole it from me. So anyways, after the movie we went to Eat n Park where we met up with Jen. It was cool because my whole meal was free. I have no clue why. Either the waiter was gay and gave me and Keith free meals, or he did something bad to the food. I'm not sure which. So that was Friday. Saturday was a different story. I sat around most of the morning doing nothing. Then I called Jon to see if he could buy me some stuff which he did. So I went to New Bethlehem to get it. Then I headed back out to my church to clean. Shoveling the sidewalk sucked because it was pretty much all ice and so my hands were sore by the time I was done doing that. So anyways, after that it was off to Keith's to have a fun time which I say I did. Bacardi makes for good times. It was funny when Dusty got there because somehow he locked his keys in his car while it was still running. So me being the nice guy that I am, let him borrow my car to drive it out to Shippenville to get his spare key, but hey, I got a full tank of gas so I'm not complaining at all. It's pretty sweet. So I guess I had a fun time last night even though towards the end of the night I felt sort of lonely so in hopes to make myself feel better I slept on the little landing between the rooms where Betsey and Jimmy were sleeping and in the other room where Jen and Tyler were sleeping. Yeah, that sounds really gay, but what do you expect from a drunk fool like me. Yeah, but alcohol is bad. That's all I have to say about that. And today was pretty boring. The highlight of the day was watching X-Men tonight. So that's about it. I'm headed out...night
2/20/03
So today was pretty crappy. I had to get up early to go to work, but luckily I got to watch the art gallery this morning which gave me time to study for my psych test. So anways, work was boring as always. I didn't find anything to really do other than study, so that sucked. So anyways the test was sort of rough in that some of the answers to some of the questions seemed to be very similar. So that's what made it tough I guess. I guess he told my mom that I did pretty good on it so that's good at least. I guess depending on what he means by pretty good. So anyways, after the test I went to lunch at McDonalds since Keith wasn't done with his test by the time I was. I didn't feel like waiting around and I didn't feel like eating Chandler food today. So I went there then came back and sat around in my mom's office till it was time to go to work. I had to shelf read there which sucked plus I had to do it with a girl who never works but it actually turned out to be pretty good I guess. When we were shelf reading her friends came down looking for books. It was funny because he asked for help finding the one book and she couldn't find it so he came to me and I went and found it really quick. So he said something to the effect of, "I'm going to be racist now. I hate black people." So it was funny since he was black, so he was all happy and he just kept making fun of the girl and saying how white people can do all this stuff better. So it was pretty funny. Then they were looking for children's books that were multicultural and tehy found the magic school bus and the one kid said it wasn't multicultural. The one who was talking to me earlier said that it was because he pointed to the picture and said that there was a black kid on the bus. So that was alright. So after work I headed down to Becker to finish up my program that's due tomorrow. I spent about 2 hours down there talking to people and stuff. Then I headed over to Keith's dorm where we sat around. Tyler came over shortly then left at 5 to see Jen. It was funny at school today because bomb threats were called into 4 different buildings so they were all shut down. Just a little hilarious because I'm sure it was just kids trying to get out of class. So anyways, soccer tonight was oh k. I don't think I played very well, but I guess it's oh k. But this one girl kept saying stuff about Keith while he was playing and we were on the sidelines. I told him about it so I don't know what he thought. Oh well, it seems like some good news. Well that's all I have to say...night
2/18/03
So today was sort of crappy in a way. I had to get up early for work and that's never good. I was in sort of a bad mood then too, so that doesn't help out much either. But it was alright I guess. I got my pysch stuff done in the time at work so that's good. I was going over today and it didn't seem to hard to be able to remember that stuff, but who knows. I guess I'll have to wait and see how it goes on Thursday for the test. So anyways, I went to lunch with Keith at the dining hall which wasn't too bad. What sucked today though was that I stayed up there to go to soccer and they didn't even have it. So I'm really dissappointed with that. So I guess they're having it Thursday, but it sux that I didn't know ahead of time that they didn't have it tonight. So anyways, I went to Wal-mart to look for some deodorant and to see if they had any good video games worth buying which they didn't. They didn't have the deodorant I wanted either which sucked. So I have to suffice with this other stuff that smells alright I guess. It's not really that great smelling, so I'm sort of pissed off about that. They didn't have any DVD's that I wanted either. I've comee to the conclusion that Wal-mart sux a lot. I should have just went to K-mart. They prolly would have had what I was looking for. Stupid Wal-mart. So anyways, I came home and had some supper and now I've started to dl a lot of music by Finch. I just got done dl a whole bunch of stuff by David Gray. Once I'm done Im dl stuff from Thursday to hopefully make either an entire Finch cd and an entrie Thursday cd or do a mix of those two bands. I'll have to see how much I can put on each cd. Well I have nothing else to say...night
2/17/03
So today was pretty boring again. I really don't have that much excitement in my life, but I'm not really expecting there to be. So anyways, the weather was pretty crappy today. The roads were really bad going to school this morning. My mom and dad made us take the Durango so that we would be sure to make it to school today. My mom just stayed home because she has a little cold. So anyways, I got there and found that my first class, Humanities, was cancelled. So I went down to Becker then went to the secretary's office, Nancy, to talk to her about jobs and scholarships. I guess I was pretty lucky because I didn't even have to ask about a job. She asked me, so that was pretty easy. So now I will be working in there starting April 7th. I guess I'll keep working in the library until the end of the semester. Then I'll start working in her office during the summer. So that should be pretty good. I'm hoping it is anyway. I think it should be a little more fun that working in the library. I wonder if they'll be mad that I'm leaving since most of the workers in the library suck. I don't know. I'll have to see. So anyways, I had my programming class. We didn't do too much in there. Then I headed off downtown to eat at PennDragon with Keith and Nicole. It wasn't too bad. So that was alright, but we left and I headed my seperate way while Keith and Nicole went back to his dormroom and I ended up sitting at the library. So that was pretty boring. I checked earlier and saw my appl of micro class was cancelled so I sat around at the library till 2 rolled around and I went to french where I found that I didn't do as bad on my quiz as I thought. I ended up with an 88% and plus since everyone did horrible on that part she's letting us retake that part and just adding it to what we had on that part, so in essence we can get bonus points. So that's good. So anyways, I came home and worked on my psychology stuff and then sat around for the rest of the night. Just another average day for just another average Joe...night
2/16/03
So this weekend hasn't been too bad I guess. Friday I went to the CL girls basketball game. It wasn't too bad. Keith and I went for the JV game then Mole came later for the varsity game. It was fun because we just sat around and talked and made fun of stuff. So we had a pretty good time. Then after the game Keith, Nicole, Mole, Amanda, and I all went to eat at Eat n Park. I ate my belgian waffle like I said I was going to and it was pretty good. I really like waffles a lot. So it was a pretty good night I'd say. Yesterday I sat around mostly in the morning. In the afternoon my dad and I changed the oil in my car. It really sux changing the oil whenever it's freezing cold outside. But I got by. It really wasn't too bad I guess since we brought my car into the garage, a place my car never spends time in for very long. So then after that I got ready and went to clean the church. I fially got paid for shoveling the sidewalk for the past month so that's pretty cool. It's an extra $20 for me to spend. So I'm happy about that. So after cleaning the church I headed out to Nicole's house where I found her, Keith, Tyler, and Jen. We sat around watching Gladiator which sort of got boring because I have it here and I watched it a lot before. So then Jimmy showed up who then had to leave pretty directly to go find Betsey who got lost coming to Nicole's. So then they finally got back and we just sat around talking and stuff. So eventually Jimmy and Betsey left and Tyler and Jen as well. Then Amanda, Casey and another Tyler showed up and then we sat around watching A Muppets Christmas Carol. Eventually Amanda, Casey, and Tyler left and Keith followed them soon after. I finished watching the movie then headed home. So it was an alright weekend. Well I'm going...later
2/12/03
The past two days have been pretty boring. Nothing has really happened which is a big downer. My life is back to being mostly boring. I think maybe I just feel lost still, like I don't know where to go with my life at the moment. I feel like I want to keep living in the past and since I know I can't do that then I feel the way I do. I just miss my friends and feeling safe and secure in a life where I knew what to do. Now I'm growing up and having to make more and more decisions that will affect my life in the future. So I feel really alone to tell the truth. I think maybe that life isn't what it really was meant to be for me. It's like what my life should be is hidden from me and I'm left with this life that is far from what I ever wanted or expected. I feel that everyone else is on there way to finding what they want, and I'm getting left so far behind. I don't want that. I want to have fun, I want to be part of something fun, I want to be able to see my life in a good light rather than this dull boring one that I have now. I don't know what to do about it, but it's the way it is right now. I feel like I can't change it either, and I hate that about myself. I'm not this amazing person who can just go out and meet people and friends. It's not who I am, and it's not something I feel that I can change about myself. It drives me crazy knowing that, but it's who I am. I'm stubborn and because of that I don't change. I won't change. Maybe this is what's meant for me. I don't know. I can't handle much of anything right now. That's all too obvious. I wish it weren't though...night
2/10/03
So I guess today was an alright day. Nothing really happened at all. I can't really think of that much stuff that happened today that even stood out. I guess I sort of had fun when I was in my mom's office just messing around talking to this Justin kid. He's pretty cool and funny. So I guess that was an alright time. I ate lunch at Subway today. It was a pretty good sub. The sweet onion chicken one. I don't know how to spell the last word so I'm not trying. Other than that I don't know. Nothing really happened. I realize that I waste too much time watching movies and playing video games anymore. I have stuff to read and yet I just let it go and didn't get to read too much of it. So that sort of sux that it's like that. There's a bonus programming assignment to do, stuff to read for appl of micro for a test wednesday, and stuff to read for programming. So I guess I'm sort of behind in a way. So I'm not very happy with myself for doing that. Oh well, I'm sure it won't change very much with me. That's just how I do things I guess. So I guess I'm gonna go now since I have nothing to add...night
2/09/03
So last night was an interesting night for the most part. I went to Tyler's house to spend the night and have a little party. So that was a pretty good time. Well it was mostly. So there were 9 of us there in the end I guess, well 11 if you count Tyler's sister and her friend. So anyways it was me, Tyler, Jen, Jimmy, Betsey, Keith, Andy, Dusty, and Nicole. We had our alcohol, Bacardi 151, Capt Morgans Spiced rum and cherry pucker. So I guess you could say that I finally got drunk. It's been such a long time since I've actually done that, so it felt good to be able to just kick back and have fun with my friends. So I was all happy about that. I think I need to do that more often. So I guess Nicole and I sort of sorted things out between us, so I don't know how things will go from here, but I guess I finally figured out why I have been feeling the way I have. So I guess it was good to get that out. The bad part of the night was Dusty who decided he wanted to drive home so we all had to run outside to make sure he didn't drive away. So that was exciting. So I hope that that happens again sometime because it was really enjoyable. So anyways, today Keith and I went bowling with my church out at Ragelys. It was a pretty good time. I bowled over 100 each game which is weird for me becasue I usually don't do that good each time. I think I got a 101, 128 and then we had to leave when I had a 109 on the 8th frame. So I was surprised with that. So now I'm really tired because sleeping on concrete isn't very comfortable, nor is it comfortable to sleep in the cold because people take all the blanket. Well I'm going...night
2/07/03
So today was mostly boring. I had to get up to go take my Humanities test which wasn't too bad. There were a few tricky questions, but for the most part, the test was pretty easy. So then I had to go to Becker lab to print out my program which didn't take very long at all. So then I did that. After I went to the bank to cash my check and then stopped at Wendy's and got some food to go. So then off to appl of micro which was pretty boring. Then french where we got yelled at again. It was worse this time though because she was actually yelling at us. So that sort of sucked. So then I went to mess around at the library computer lab where this girl just asked me if I knew how to do this one thing in Word, which I didn't. But do I look like a person who knows things about computers?? I mean, this has happened before, so it's like I look like some kind of computer nerd. So that sux. I don't like that at all. So anyways, after work I came home and got ready for the Honin' concert tonight. It wasn't too bad. A bunch of people came from NC: Jimmy, Tyler, Ben, and Andy, then Betsey, Keith, and Amanda. Mike B was there too which was cool cause I haven't talked to him for awhile. So the concert was fair I guess. It wasn't the best because the place was sort of crappy and the sound wasn't that great in the place either. So I had a pretty good time for the most part just messing around talking and stuff with people. Well I have nothing to say really...night
2/06/03
So today was boring for the most part. Since my class was cancelled today I decided not to go to work, so I just called that off. I wasn't planning on heading up there today, but somehow I eventually decided that I was going to go up to play soccer tonight. So anyway, I sat around most of the day watching tv and playing video games. Pretty boring times at my house when I do that which is pretty much what I always do. So I made myself a pizza during the middle of the afternoon, and then went to clean the church. That was pretty boring and didn't take too long at all. Maybe like an hour and twenty minutes or around there somewhere. So just as I was about done at the church it started to snow and the sidewalk got covered but I was stopping to shovel it off because it would have been pointless. So then I headed to Clarion and went to Keith's dorm where we sat around till Pansy came and we went to the rec center to play. Tonight wasn't too bad although now I'm really sore and tired. But anyways, I stated off a little sluggish, but eventually I think I did pretty damn good for myself. I think I impressed some of the guys there. So that was pretty cool. Maybe I'll find some people to hang out with there. I guess I'll have to see. So I didn't figure out this stupid thing for my programming class. I guess I'll have to try and figure it out tomorrow and if not then I have till 5 to ask her what to do. I have a Humanities test too, but I think it should be pretty easy. I'm hoping it is. Well I'm gonna go...night
2/04/03
So to catch up, yesterday was pretty much boring. Nothing of importance really happened so that was that. So today was a little bit better. I only had my one psych class today and work wasn't too bad because I got to work by myself and with people who I actually talk to compared to most other Tuesdays. So that was good. I ate lunch with Keith which is always cool. Then at 6 I went over to the rec center to play some indoor soccer. Keith didn't go because his parents were up and he went to supper with them and Mole didn't show up either. I'm not sure why, but he didn't. But it's cool. I still had a good time for the most part. I really didn't talk to anyone that much. I did for a little bit, but nothing really in depth at all. I really don't remember anyone's names except the one girl who introduced herself first. Her name was Sam. So anyways, I pretty much sucked at first which wasn't good. I guess towards the end I was doing a little bit better, but I'm completely out of shape which isn't cool at all. I'll have to do something about that I'm sure. So they play again Thursday, but I won't be there because my class is cancelled and I won't be up there. I'd like to go just to get to know people, but I'll be home that day. So that sort of sux a lot. But anyways, during the time playing I managed to reinjure my wrist that I injured during the spring season. I got tripped and when I fell I broke my fall with my right hand and jammed my wrist. So now it hurts and it sux a lot. So anyways, I wasn't that impressed with many of the players. There were two guys that I thought were pretty good, and then one girl who was really impressed me. So I need to play a lot better because I sucked tonight although I scored the first goal of the game. Oh well, something I'll have to work on. I hate not playing well, but I'll have to deal withit now and get better. I guess I haven't played for awhile now either so I'm sure that didn't help. Well I'm going...night
2/02/03
So last night I sat around. I sat around all day which wasn't much fun at all. I think around 9 Betsey, Nicole, and Claire showed up at my house. So I wasn't expecting them because I got a call earlier from Tyler saying that they were going to Meridiths, so I guess it was sort of a surprise but not that much since I knew they might show up. But I didn't go to church this morning and if I would have know I wasn't going I would have went bowling with Tyler, Jimmy, and Jen if they were still going to do that. Oh well. That's how things go. So today I went to Nicole's house since I didn't want to sit at home all day and no one else said anything about doing anything. So I went over there. We sat around and watched tv till I said about going to the movies. So we went there and watched Darkness Falls. It was a pretty stupid movie. It was so cheesy and was completely unrealistic. I mean, this stupid town must sell the worst batteries in the world to have their flashlights go out every 5 minutes. And then I'm glad all their emergency lights only work for like 2 hours and then suddenly go out. Here's a suggestion, don't go watch that movie. So anyways then we came back and sat around some more. I played Nicole's brother in FIFA 2003 where I completely destroyed him. So that was funny. Then we went upstairs and just talked while we practiced chipping golf balls. So that was that. Not that great of a day, but it gave me something to do. Well I'm going...night
