The Newest Poems

Oh, I know this is all wrong
and that what I'm feeling
all these emotions I've got goin' on
are gonna mess up everything
I can't believe I've fallen for you
losing my mind to insanity
crashing to the ground is all I can do
how did you do this to me?
he's been hurt like this before
how could I bring it all back again?
your his best friend and whats more
he thought I was the one
caught in between the both of you
makes me wish that I were dead
how could I afford to lose
the two guys I could so easily wed
Curse this unloyal heart of mine
you've betrayed me for the last time
If you want me to decide
then its obvious I can't have either guy
(p.s. NO, Pearl Harbor the movie did NOT inspire this poem...)

You never listen to what I say
always twisting it to fit your ways
I must have fooled my soul
cause nothings changed at all
had to give you one more chance
to try and find a hope for our romance
well, dang, it was never there
so why do I still care?
laying awake in this puddle of mud
I always knew you were a piece of crud
hun, I need to get outta here
ain't nuthin left but tears

I'm so sorry I couldn't be what you needed
loved you for so long, hun
I've forgotten what it intreated
tried so hard to make it work
these cuts and gashes bled so deep
but I didn't have what it took
to make the glue of our love keep
too afraid to honestly give up
wanted so bad to try some more
neither of us could drink from the cup
so we continued to not acknowledge we'd been torn

I said I was sorry
but it wasn't enough
trying to not worry
this ain't too tough
they say time heals all wounds
I gave us tons
but the scars were just en-tombed
leaving me undone
couldn't think of a remedy
no, not quick enough for you
you became bitter towards me
and I didn't know what to do
Baby, I said I was sorry
but how could it be enough?
my ignorance has only left tragedy
and so the goings are rough
I'm sorry I couldn't help us
I've been feeling so worthless
you've been so far out of my touch
how did I start this mess???

Your so unreachable
so far from my heart
why do you cause me so much trouble?
we've been friends from the start
please tell me what to do
cus hun, I've gotta secret
I don't know what I'd do without you
but your actions just don't fit
Stop running away so fast
and tell me whats wrong
quit charging from your past
and let me in on whats going on
I'm getting sick of all this
so lets stop with the games
so far from happieness
cause all these fights are the same

I never do whats right
can't keep up with the crew
ain't got the heart to fight
and no caught up with whats new
I haven't seen the latest flick
never bought the coolest cd
didn't have what it took to hang with the clique
and couldn't attend to phattest parties
you made me feel outcast
but didn't destroy my hopes
because I like being last
in losing my life to a bunch of dopes
your reckless mind games
have not worked thier charms on me
cus while the police are writing down your names
I'll be driving by carefully

Took me way to long to realize
that I loved you all along
cause baby if you saw these tears I cry
you would have proven yourself wrong
Tried so hard to hold on to you
but your heart sped by so fast
wanted so badly to let you know the truth
but my fire wasn't big enough for your heart to catch
No one can hide from their past, baby
but it is possible to let go
hun, I know everythings been crazy
so if you need me, let me know
I've always been here for you
waiting patiently for my second chance
but you couldn't face me after what we went thru
and now you've got a guilty conscience
Sorry doesn't seem good enough
considering the pain I've put you through
If there were a few words that would be enough
I'd guess they'd be, I love you

Oh, I don't want to leave you
but your not giving me any other way
why do I keep biting my tongue on the truth
letting you continue slipping away?
I know your not treating me nice
but I just need to know why
how can I force myself to leave
never knowing if you wanted another try?
this relationship will die if I don't speak up
but how can I if your not gonna hear, babe
please listen and keep your heart unplugged
before everything we had goes down the drain

I'm ashamed of the way Ive acted
been so consumed by jealousy
its this infectious disease I've contracted
thats making me act all crazy
I can't tell you why
or even if it'll last long
cus this crazy lil thing is a surprise
turning my life into a song
been a secret for awhile
boy its driving me up the wall
rippin up floorboards, drywall and tile
trying to forget it all
I can't keep focused on one thing
all I want is to see you again
this songs makin it hard not to sing
lets make it a duet, please say you can

Slow down heart
your beating far too fast
don't let him rip you apart
like you had let the last
so much adrenaline in me
can't stop biting my nails
show me that your really mean
and save me the pain cus I'm frail
Oh, please don't put me through this again
I should have learned my lesson
just as I'm on the mend
I go and lose my mind again
lended my heart out to you
but you grinded it to the ground
nothing left to bruise
been ridden like a merry-go-round

If I had one more chance
to stop from losing you
baby, I wouldn't look back
because I've got much to lose
things will never be the same
but hun I'm alright with that
I stopped screaming out your name
and began finding my own instead
this relationship almost ruined me
but I found my own two feet
believe it or not baby
but there is life after defeat
you never treated me right
so I left you and moved on
oh now you can't sleep at night
wondering what went wrong
well honey I'm sorry your so lost
but this is how its gonna be
I'd feel bad for you almost
if this wasn't what you did to me

I was never enough for you
always found you looking for more
I know you gotta do what you gotta do
but you've got me on your lure
snagged restlessly on your hook
I've been trying to get away
the lines bobbin' but you never look
am I ever gonna make your boat sway?
you tease me, letting me up for air
dangling me at the end of your pole
but then you just drop me back down there
letting the hook drag open the hole
with all my might I try to break through
sick and tired of these games
but somehow I keep swimming back to you
making this bleeding heart feel even more lame
please release me of your spell
I'm under and I can't breathe til I'm gone
its beggining to feel like a jail
so boy, unhook me and let me swim on

I know how you are
and I know this isn't you
but drive away in that car
and never tell me the truth
your so far away
but I don't think far enough
because if you stayed
you know things would be tough
why didn't you tell me how you felt?
you made me out to be the fool
tipped over my world began to tilt
all because I thought I was your jewel
But I can't forgive you now
the pains numbed over the scar
you never let this relationship grow
and now look at where we are?
how can I move on without you?
this situations left me so cold
the thing is that I'm so blue
I've rejected the thought to mold