It's a contradictory destruction of a shattered dream
Kick me while I'm down seems to be the world's new theme
False acusations from an unwanted scene
A barage of rejection from an army of the perfect scheme

Once strong conceit crushed under a meglomanic boot
Preasure to change inundates my conciousness, confusion quickly follows suit
Savage aggression directed toward a seeminly prodigous soul
Everyones in on the destruction both friends and foe

Reserved feelings indigenous to the darkness of my head
They swell up and spread into the light of things I wish I'd said
Congruency attacks my identity while its hammered into the ground
Once more my thoughts are being drown in the ocean of blearing sound

Bless my soul so I may not burn so badly in the depths of hell
I've revealed my sickness to you, will you promise never to tell?
Will someone be there to pick me up when I'm laying beaten on the ground?
Is there a perfect person on this earth who is just waiting to be found?

Sanctify my consiounce so I might be free from irrelevant hate
Depression and independence coexistant only to seal my deminishing fate
Caution thrown caprisiously into the wind never to be thought of again
Drag myself out of the shambles, this is where my life really begins

Suspicious stares cast from miles away
under cover of darkness is when reality comes to play
Set my mind free with a wink and a smile
Dare me to walk a reserved step I'll run the suicide mile

Tell me things I never ever desired to hear
Watch me climb the highest building and stand face to face with my fear
From here I will raise the stakes and dare the devil to dance
Insisting he takes the first step, now is when I take the ultimate chance

Whirling and twirling on the top of the world
Destroying my demons with a whimsical sword
From here to eternity the battle wages on
From now until forever, my God is gone

Morbid opinions reflected toward opposites of appearance
Absolutely no pitty for those suffering from self reverance
Speaking in your dead language, hint at what you want me to know
I will still remain tranquil, oblivious to your elaborate inuendo

Ignite my fuse, stand back, and watch me explode
Watch the fire in my eyes, burning bright, extend into the unknown
Singe all of those who dare to come near the blinding light
Destroying the ambition of all of those looking for a fight

A mysterious gaze from behind my iron vail
Search for to many answers at once you will most certainly fail
We will construct a society of impenatrable order
We hold no intuition to the unknown and never cross over my border

A vortex of interweaving thoughts colliding in the dark
Collecting in my hand through my fingers they all break out
Another new day with the same old notions
Another new way to express my same undieng devotion

This blood in my hand shows not my inability to die
But animates my roller coaster life and my fear of living the lie
Its not weather I'm dead on the floor or forever high
But why I'm not doing the other and why I'm not on the other side

What I need is something to break my brain
I'm so very tired of trying so hard all in vain
So very tired of running against the grain
Please will someone, someday, somehow relieve my pain

The esence of my selfishness is distorting my true light
And I refuse to give my reputation to greed without a fight
No one has ever seemed to read my label correctly
Everyone I know bent on my demise but not directly

Bloody are the fists of fury clearing the way for a more humbel man
A misanthropic little boy crawling to oblivion as fast as he possibly can
Bound and blind we stumble through the forest of corruption
Careening down the highway of life oblivious to all destruction

You ask me why I am who I am, I say why not?
Please tell me why we get older then I will cut this emense knot
A populace plauged by simplicity it seems natural to rebel
But why the renegades are the minority is not so incomprehendable

Nihilism, anarchy and a thousand more selfish creations
Theifs, racists and the damn liars all out looking for salvation
A heart with no God is atleast true to itself
A heart condemned to the one above must obey or face hell

Sensibility can only be measured one line at a time
Never in one place never on one plane is the structure of this rhyme
Never trust your infinate ability to asume the preacher
Maybe it is this time you underestimate the power of this creature

Is it really over or does it somehow linger on
Will it still be swimming in your mind once the reality is gone
Why have you gone so far just to abandone what you don't know
Will you remember my face after it is my turn to go?