There's no business like...
Mood:  energetic
Now Playing: Authority Song by Jimmy Eat World
I must say, I haven't had this much fun in quite some time. Mrs. Crowe (a.k.a. Guido) called and asked Deb and I to help out with stage crew for the musical. It's wonderful. It's so hard not being out there performing but still being that close.

The cast is wonderful. They get so much better every night that I know they'll blow me away by closing night. I've really enjoyed working with them these past few nights.

After doing all this, it makes me really want to get involved with theater again. Maybe I'll try and squeeze in an acting class or two while at Temple. I want to be in a musical again.

Well, if anyone still reads this, come see Beauty and the Beast at AP!

Peace

ello
Now Playing: Hallelujah by Jeff Buckley
Been a long time...

I forgot I had this until Heather mentioned it, which is snazzy just in the fact that I haven't heard from Heather in forever. Gotta love reconnecting with the Disney crew. Ah...Florida...

So we all said goodbye to Smurf on Saturday. I'm not sure why she enlisted in the Army, but I hope she doesn't get called over to Iraq and if she does I hope she stays safe. It was sad saying goodbye, especially since I haven't been spending anywhere close to enough time with her and Rachael. During the party, Rachael, Eric Enderle, Matt Witzel, and I all went to Montgomery Park. That was old school. We are all very easily amused lol

I have an ipod now. It's so handy.

This apartment is a nightmare! It's basically been unliveable for a month and a half now with all the construction going on downstairs and up here, and now because they fucked up our electricity (no lights since last Friday) and there's a huge mouse problem. We're thinking about withholding rent because this shit is ridiculous. I can't wait to move into a new place in August.

I got accepted to Temple as a Film and Media Arts major which is wonderful. I'm looking forward to being back in school, this semester off has sucked.

I love this song.

Well, I'm off to bed. I work tomorrow and I am beat. Perhaps I'll update this more often.

Peace

Splendid
Mood:  cool
Now Playing: Killing Me Softly as covered by the Fugees
So yeah, Meghan and I are back together. Sucka.

We went to Joclyn's last night, it was a blast. They moved karaoke to Sunday nights, which is when Meghan's coworkers all go. So we hung out with them, and they are some cool people, and sang some tunes. Team Cool tore it up singing "Picture" by Kid Rock & Sheryl Crow. Then it was Meghan featuring Pat on the Fugees' version of "Killing Me Softly." I said "one time" and "two times, two times." It was awesome. So now, a list.

SONGS I'VE SANG AT KARAOKE

"I'll Be There" with Mare
"You're The One That I Want" with Suz & Jenwerts
"Crash Into Me" with Eric in the most horrible travesty done to music in its history
"What I Got"
"Cruisin" with Meghan
"Livin On A Prayer" with Jake, Jesse, Steve, Adam, and probably more people
"Friends In Low Places" with Meghan, Steve, and basically the entire bar
"Picture" with Meghan
"Killing Me Softly" with Meghan

So far, my favorites are "Killing Me Softly" and "Friends In Low Places." That was a blast.

It was a good weekend all around. Eagles win, Nittany Lions win, Flyers win, everybody wins! WHOO!

We had Camp-In training this weekend as well which is always insanely fun.

I have slept 12 out of the last 72 hours. One of those hours was definitely smack in the middle of my second class today. I was so out of it, I'm not sure if I slept through the whole class, or dozed between two classes (they're in the same room) and woke up thinking it was the end of class and not the beginning. I'm not sure. Either way, I'm going to apologize to the prof, because I really enjoy that class.

Ha, last night was badass. After work, I got Meghan and then Heather, and we went to the bar. Closed it down, then went to Tom Jones. I dropped them both off, then came home, got a shower, ate breakfast and went to class. This shit is bananas.

Rule.

Colorgenics strikes again
Now Playing: Somebody Told Me by the Killers
You are longing for some love and affection at this time - not that you have been deprived of tender loving care - but there are times when everyone needs to try something new or to go 'somewhere' else to perhaps experience that little extra 'understanding'.

The way things are you are under considerable stress and you feel that there is little hope of matters righting themselves. Everyone about you seems to aggravate the problem even more. You feel that at this time you need to be alone and you are right - move back and give yourself a chance to breathe.

You are not an argumentative sort of person and 'rather than fight - you'd switch' (an old cigarette ad cliche). But when you try to assert yourself - as sometimes you may try to do - you meet with so much resistance and effrontery that manifests itself so obviously that you become hurt, indignant and resentful. So in order to have peace and quiet you tend to become inhibited. You keep it all to yourself but deep down, you 'feel' and 'hurt' a lot.

You pretend that you are a carefree individual and that nothing really bothers you - that you are so self-sufficient that whatever problems beset you they simply flow off you as water flows off a ducks back. You are experiencing considerable stress, trying to conceal yourself from the rest of the world. In actual fact - deep down, you are not at all happy. You feel lonely and you need someone with whom you can 'Let your hair down' and share your hopes, dreams and high standards. You are imposing unnecessary self restraint on yourself. You would like to demonstrate the unique quality of your character to all and sundry.

Sometimes one fears that its not worth formulating new ideas and projects because whatever you seem to have done in the past has never worked out and you are tired of, as they say, banging your head against a brick wall. No one seems to care. So now you are trying to get away from it all by withdrawing into a 'fantasy land' but unfortunately 'fantasy land' is just that and sooner or later you will have to return to reality so why delay the inevitable? When you do return, you will find that the situation is not as tough as perhaps you thought it was.

i listen to this song a lot
Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: You've Got To Hide Your Love Away
sometimes i think there must be a god because i am truly blessed to have the friends i do, either that or i'm just very lucky to be surrounded by these amazing people during these unlucky times, either way, thank you

a mess a mess a big mess
Mood:  blue
Now Playing: You've Got To Hide Your Love Away covered by Eddie Vedder
So...a lot of shit's goin on these days, and to make a long story short I'm a wreck because I got too many emotions goin on at once. I sound like a freakin girl for saying that and I hate that I'm writing it here but it feels like no one wants to talk about it so this seems to be the only way to let people know what's going on.

I've mentioned that my Granddad has cancer. Apparently it's a lot worse than anyone originally thought, and I feel like each day's news contradicts the day before but the one consistency is that things seem to be worsening. Yesterday my parents were talking about his "wishes," you know, like final wishes and shit. My Dad, my uncles, and my Granddad planted two trees in a park yesterday where he's going to spread his ashes. Stuff like that, it gives me the chills thinking about it.

Also yesterday, I saw my cousin Jackie and my Aunt Amy. I've missed the hell out of them, I haven't seen or talked to them in 2 years because of some stupid family shit. It was wonderful to see them again, and I now that I have their contact info I'm looking forward to spending more time with them. I'm trying to get up to Dorney Park this week or next to hang out with Jackie. I also wanna get to a movie at the Ritz, I just found out Fran works there.

Before I knew about all of this, my mind was consumed with girls of course. So after everything came up, I feel guilty for even worrying about my personal life when all these other things are going on, yet I still feel it would be nice to have someone there for me through this time.

So basically, the sadness, guilt, longing, and happiness that have been going on are messing me up, mostly the sadness I guess. I do my best not to show it in front of anyone, because as hard as it might be for me, it's even harder for my parents, especially my Dad. So yeah, everything's a mess right now.

So there's that. And here's things that need to happen soon. A movie at the Ritz (with dinner at Lamberti's - hooray for being classy!), Dorney Park, and more hanging out in general.

Saw Mare, Jen, Ray, Mrs. Mulato and the Barbines recently, and that was awesome. Saw Laura that night too, and a shitload of AP people. Good times.

Anyway, as for stuff to do. I really wanna go to the Ritz this week, like Wednesday or Thursday night. The movies are great, I haven't seen a bad one there yet. I wanna see Crash before it leaves theatres. And Lamberti's, or whatever it's called now, has wonderful food and it's right there. So let's do this. Please.

As for Dorney, I wanna drive up to Allentown, get Jackie, and go over there one afternoon next week. It'll be fun.

If I haven't told you about the Great Music Exchange, it's awesome. Make a mix, and send it to someone. Theme it or just put a bunch of stuff they might've not heard on it. It's a great deal. I've gotten some awesome mixes since we started last month, and I can honestly say the last mixtape I made is the best one I've ever done. So get on that.

blah blah blah
Now Playing: You've Got To Hide Your Love Away covered by Pearl Jam
well shit. i feel old, i cant think of any other way to put it. just stressed out a bit i suppose.

i am very glad i'm home right now.

i start work tomorrow, i'm kinda looking forward to it and dreading it at the same time. i'm mainly just hoping i dont screw up lol, i'm not sure what i remember.

i wanna do something this weekend, those few nights going out with the crew were awesome, i could use some more of that.

oh, and conservatives are absolutely ridiculous, at the risk of overusing the word "ridiculous."

i need white ladders by david gray, i think that's the album's name.

well well well
Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: Sunshower by Chris Cornell
Dios mio.

Well, in case I haven't written this yet, I'm home, and it's wonderful. I am beyond happy to be here. I got to surprise Meghan, Bill, Bonnie, and Jake with my return on the day I got back, which was the 6th. It was awesome. Jake, Meghan, Rachel, and Gina all came over to watch Phantom of the Opera the other night which was sweet. We acted like we always do. Yesterday Jake, Bill, and Meghan were on hand as we went to Italian Delight, South Street, and Tom Jones Diner, where we were joined by Bonnie. We ended the night on the swings at the park near Bonnie. It doesn't get much better than that my friends.

As far as the previously mentioned family news goes, things aren't looking so grand.

I'm hoping to get down the shore soon. That'll be a good time.

I start back up at Applebee's on Thursday. I hope it's not busy so I can ease back into things. I am really enjoying my current laziness, I haven't gone this long without work or school since the summer of 2000.

Pink Floyd is friggin awesome, been listening to them a lot since Live 8. Them, the Beatles, and Green Day. I've been listening to all three more since the show.

I am at a crossroads. Yep. Not sure which way I'm headed just yet.

Which reminds me of school. I need to work harder at that stuff. Bring the GPA up a bit, it's at 3.0 right now and I know I can do better. Gotta narrow down a major too. RTF is looking nice, I've never seen myself as an office type, so I think this will be a snazzy direction. We'll see. There's always the (very slim) hope that I'll get out of Rowan before graduation, but who knows.

Well, that about wraps it up for now, I'm gonna get around to unpacking and watching a movie.

Live 8 and surprises
Mood:  crushed out
Now Playing: Tell Me Why by Annie Lennox
What a week.

Last week family was down in Disney. It was wonderful. We all had a great time and it was just so awesome seeing them all here in Disney World, reminded me of how good this place can be.

I've been spending a few days with my grandparents on the Gulf coast. It's awesome. We went to the Dali museum, but havent gotten any beach time in because there's a red tide. That means there's some bacteria in the water killing all of the fish. There are dead fish everywhere, including sharks and stingrays, and it reeks.

I'll be back to work soon enough, working hard for the money.

Live 8 was incredible today. God, i wish i couldve been there. I hope a DVD comes out soon, the performances were simply amazing.

And now, for the downer. My Granddad has beaten two forms of cancer, and one of them seems to be coming back. So he went to the ER where some piece of shit doctor without running enough tests to make a significant diagnosis told him he's dying. So now, even though his ostrecian (sp?), a more qualified doctor, told him its likely beatable, he's all messed up over what the first guy said. He's lost like 20 pounds, his eatings messed up, and to me it sounds like hes loosing his will to live and just writing that kills me. This came out of nowhere and here i am a thousand miles away with only half a clue of what's going on because i'm not getting all the info. My dad sounds like a wreck on the phone, and it just sucks so bad. I don;t know what to do and i hope these tests theyve been running this week come back with good news and get things back to normal, at least to a degree.

With all that being said, its kinda sucky these days i guess. Even my closer friends from down here are either home or not around. I miss the hell out of you guys at home. I hope the surprise I have planned will work out, and hopefully you'll enjoy it. After thinking of ways to work it out, i'm even excited for when you guys get it lol

Apparently Bill lives in Collingdale. I am very out of the loop. Looking forward to rejoining said loop.

Also looking forward to the continuation of the team cool movie marathon. Lord of the Rings, Love Actually, Garden State, Live Aid, Monty Python, Lion King, it'll be a grand old time.

Well. I'm gona get back to the IM and then get some shut-eye.

thoughts and whatnot
Mood:  lazy
Now Playing: Warning by Incubus
It's too fucking hot to do anything these days. I picked up my check and cashed it today but it's just too damned hot to go to a park or whatever. I might still go to PI tonight, it's been a long time.

Things definitely went downhill after Jim, Josh, Tara, and CJ left. These kids are all amazing, and I miss them like crazy. We had good times.

There are still some good times, Courtney's still here, and Krystle and Steph are two snazzy girls, definitely a blast. It would've been awesome if these two were around when the spares were still here.

I can not wait to get home. I miss my family, my friends, my room, my car and GOOD EATIN! Back at home we just don't realize how good we have it. Food in the Philly area is just top notch. Down here, not so much.

This song is fucking A.

I'm having a party on Thursday, as in not today but a week from today. My food shopping this week consists of chips, dip, liqiour, and beer. Gotta love the college life. I suppose that's the biggest advantage of coming down here, I actually get to experience the so-called college lifestyle. I must say, I fit it quite well. Although with that being said, I haven't been drunk in about a month.

I'm bummed about missing Live 8, DMB, and all the other crazy cool concerts going on back home while I'm down here. I sold my DMB ticket for Tampa because if I were to go, I'd have to rent a car. Not exactly affordable or easy to come by in Orlando in July. So no summer concerts for me this year. Luckily I got in that totally sweet OAR and Marc Broussard jam at Universal.

I have broken almost every rule that Disney lays in front of us for the college program. All I need to do now is get in a fight and I'm all set lol. I kinda like how my crew down here brings out the rebel in me.

Speaking of being a dork, I saw Batman Begins last night. 'Twas awesome. Seriously. It's the best Batman movie by far, and I like Christian Bale as Batman. The film was very well written and shot and the ending makes me look forward to a new franchise of Bat-films. Now I just need to see Crash.

I would just like to re-emphasize that I have been around some very good people down here. Everyone brings something different to the table, so to speak, and it provides for a really fun and interesting crowd. I can not wait until I see them all again. I'm already missing the ones who are still here.

This week, some of my family is coming down which is way sweet. After they leave, I'm gonna go stay with my grandparents for a spell and for a little R&R. A quick little vacation on the west coast never hurt anyone ;o)

If anyone from home reads this, we are so going bowling when I get back.

Alrighty, I think that's a fair-sized update for a blog that nobody sees so I'm gonna go eat some food and jam out.