Where to start? Seems a lifetime since I have written, perhaps it has been. Much has happend since the day I last penned in these pages. I have taken to drawing mostly and used this book for nothing other than a storage place for my drawings and compositions. I regret not spilling my heart here and I also regret that I did not write down some very memmorable and enjoyable times. I spent much time with D'Ellis and some other dear friends for that matter, Aram, Tek, Aeron, Angus....All of which I can call friends no more. They are all dead. Tek is the only one who still breaths but he will never live in my heart. It is by his hand that Aeron perished. He had him put to death...well he tried. Since then Aeron was captured by the Rose and I fear that he is dead, I would have heard from him otherwise. D'Ellis...now that happend before this...during the liberation of Edilar. It was so long ago I feel like I'm betraying the memmory just writing it down like this but some record is better than none no? Anyways, the Fellowship of the Hawk resurfaced from the Deep Dark with an army behind us. We battled Morlans forces and one. The losses were many and they included our leader and my love. He was vaporized, just gone like that. I've spoken to him since then, it cost all I had but it was worth my life just to hear his voice again. He sounds so lost. What more can be said about him? I am at a loss for words. Every day I think about him but every day I try not to. I don't know weather to move on with my life or fight to bring him to this world. He said he just wanted to be with me....words that ring in my mind. That is all I want, to be with him, and I fear that I will never have it. I will search now, secretly for a way to bring him back. I will search untill I join him, one way or the other.
My thoughts stray, I should tell you of the story and not clowd it with my emotional interjections. Well I was at home and I was with my friends. We stayed at the Navelorn with the Norben Brotherhood as they try to rebuild what the war destroyed. I spent some time with Kral, he grew sicker with each day passing and I saught to ease his pain by singing to him and just visiting with him. Kral gave me a letter one night from Gallon. Like the fool I am I was eager to read it. I left Kral for the night and opend it right there in the hallway. I blinked and was outside in the clearing that D'Ellis and I always met at. He was there, at least I thought it was him, it looked so much like his hands....but it wasn't. It was an Illithid. The most horrid creatures I wish never to see one again...it took me under its spell by some strange invasion through my nose and into my head. It was the worst pain I have ever physically felt. I spent the next few days with my body following it, doing its every command while I sat inside my mind and screamed silently for help. Aeron and the others rescued me and we went back to Navelorn. Kral ended up passing away while in the care of my companions, something that even to this day confuses me. He didn't die like any other man, he still walks but he is not alive....well atleast last I saw him it was so. He left some of us messages. Mine appoligized for giving me the note from Gallon. Kral didn't know what it would do of course. He said he has 'Taken care' of Gallon and the he wrenched an appoligy for me from him. Kral said that all my worries were gone but that he could not protect me once I left Edilar. I'm not sure what that means....is Gallon dead or not?
Well I have bigger problems now....Gallon alive or not has no interest in me now.
Believe it or not I am not in the circus. Yes me...
I'm with Jelek again, I caught up with him in Coops and he's offered to help me find some way to bring back D'Ellis. Oh there I go again with my rediculous talk....do you think it possible or am I just living in the past? Well anyways Jelek and I have joined the circus we even have an act together...yes I know Jelek and preforming don't sound like they belong together but he's grown since you've heard of him last and he's really quite the young man. He saved my life more times than I can count. Thats how we got to the circus, we decided to take some time off from adventuring....its to dangerous. He just saved me from slavers in Ruch. We were attacked in the night while looking for information on some foul elixer...Aram was killed at my side. I was surrounded by Orcs what could I do but give myself in? I dropped my sword, my precious sword as I was drug over poor Arams lifeless body. I should have been able to save him but the sleep in me was fighting from within as I was being attacked and it was all to much. I was taken to Rat and held up in a pen for a while until Jelek and Verin came and rescued me. What a suprise.
Verin is recouperating in an NOA hospital while Jelek and I tour the country. We are going to set off soon I hope. We just passed our auditions today.
I am looking foreward to some relaxing days here as a preformer. I would give much to see no blood shead for the rest of my days but as my Lunar Bow sits becide me and reminds me of my past I can not deny my warrior ways. What every comes my way I will deal with reguardless I always have. Wish me luck my friend, wish me luck.
