Bring me hurt
written by G.Smith, Nov. 1994, copyright 1995
Bring me your flesh and blood don't bring me your disease.
Break me with your distrust, I'll lay your soul to waste
Bring me your hurt & pain I'll give you what you lust
Fuck me with your complaints, I'll turn you into dust.
Bring me your skin tonight, my hate is yours to take
Scream all you fucking want and feel your body ache
I want I need to feel you up inside your sweat
Give everything you want, I'll take all I can get
Now don't it make you feel better?
Scream if you want more
I don't want to hurt you
Just hold your breath and bleed
Bring me your hurt, bring me your fears, bring me your pain
Bring all you fucking want, I have no soul to save
I want, I need to feel you up inside your flesh
No one will take you now, I've drained you to your death.
It makes you feel better
Drags you down
I've already got you
took you
drained you
Emptied your life...
love...
blood...
Soul cries out!
Anna
written by G.Smith, Sept.1994, copyright 1995
I know a place, locked doors, windows & gates
White tiles and gray... desparing scenery
Makes no sounds at all
locked away just like a doll.
Anna woke today
Rubs her eyes is so afraid
And she wonders why she stays
With the other kids in the mental wing
Poor Anna, sits and waits.
Slave to the bore
Pills...they just bring me more
Ears hear no sounds, memories just bring
be down
And I see them with toys
Parents with girls and boys
Sleepy they read
Promised to visit me
Repeating in my memory
Anna loves to wave
Watches them most everyday
And she wonder when she'll play with the
other kids
But she thinks of better days
If she could she'd run away
But she screams aloud and says
"I'm not like the other kids"
In the mental wing, for Anna sits and
waits
I know a place
Young girl, tears on her face
Saddened it's strange
She makes no sounds at all...
Anna sleeps today
Cradles up and slips away
And Iwonder what she takes to reduce the
pain
And her memories of Anna...slowly fade
Buried in the sand
written by G.Smith, Nov. 1993, copyright
1995
All the memories, dreams & kisses
I would bury in the sand
While the ebbing waves of emotion
Forever slipping thru my hands
Plastic faces, letters and pictures
A diamond taken from her hand
She was the one I was going to marry
But said I would'nt understand.
I would take these things and put them in
a box
Make a wish to set it free and drop it in
the dust
And all the things from you that I had
come across
Are just the pieces of my heart.
All the children, lovers and familys with
their castles on the sand
And all my memories buried in their
basements
Strangest treasures `neath the land
Perfumed letters written with devotion
Signed from where we used to meet
Filled with promises never meant for
keeping...
I would take these things and put them in
a box
Make a wish and set it free and drop it in
the dust
And all the things from you that I had
come across
Are just the pieces of a life that I have
lost
And I am certain that our love has come to
end
Life with you meant more to me, more than
just a friend
I loved you once but now I know that I
could love again
It's just the pieces of my heart
Before they fall apart
...All the memories, the dreams and wishes
that I had buried in the sand.
Until the day, she would un-earth them
Would forever remain there...
The Scent of death
written by G.Smith, Sept. 1995, copyright
1995
I have this life
The one they gave me
It brings me sorrow
brings me joy.
This life it lives
In death it breathes
It kisses the air
Caresses my soul
Fills my nose
with it's sweet intoxication
Removal
written by G.Smith, Jan. 1995, copyright
1995
Cut my hands - I don't feel you any longer
Darken my eyes - I don't see you anymore
Scar my face - No kisses fall upon them
Tear my vein - Erase the memories that let
you in
Smash your face - Your infection never
leaves me
Fear your name - I hear it everywhere
Speak no more - I lay my shit upon you
Clouds my brain - It echoes through the
hole that let you in
Bleed my skin - The disease begins to
leave me
Torturing - My body now be still
Erase me - Then never to remember
Removing - It breeds within the hole that
let you in
If I can't feel your heart again
Then I don't want to feel mine any longer
Let the killing begin
Scrape the memories inside my head
To remove you from me erase everything
That still belongs to me.
Why is it that we always say
That this will be the last time we will
fall
Trust no-one
And never love again
When the truth is that the myth of love
Trips us time and time again
Could it be that you could fall so far
That no-one
No matter how strong their love
Could pull you back up again
Being left to float endlessly
In a Black
Pit
Of despair
BiG PiG
written by G.Smith, Dec. 1996, copyright 1997
Big pig fucking pig - Look like shit you
make me sick
You had it all or at least you thought so
Big stinking smelly pig - stuck in the
middle of your little fit
Misery seems to fit you well
You look so alive or at least I thought so
So dumb ya don't even know you're here
Why'z that you look at your reflection
Trying to find the answer
Big Pig little pig - they left you in and
left you skinless
Prick the needle beg for more
Big piggy, lonely piggy broken down and
feeling dizzy
What was it that you came here for
You think you know what you're after
Tell me what is it that you'd like
You cannot live without your addiction
Sink your teeth in and bite
Please don't look so unattentive
You see the worst is yet to come
I know you'll fuck everything up and
piss of everyone.
Big Pig fucking pig look like shit you
make me sick
You lost it all and then you fell
Big pig, little piggy broken full of stink
and sweat
Your little piggy seems to treat you well
Little pigs never believe in heaven
Crawling further `cross the floor
You think you're gonna live forever
But hoping that you don't
Big pig fucking pig, thought I loved you,
well
...maybe I did.
Tied up in Daisies
written by G.Smith, Jan.1997, copyright 1997
In my life of nothing and wanting nothing
more
I cannot think to raise my eyes to
anything at all
A sad thing to offer, shameful if best
Something to be understood, but wanting
nothing less
And I know it should be something that I
never should have missed
It dies in me
My suffering is too quick to notice new
life that grows in me
You moved it deep inside of me, certain
and pure
And left me here wondering why you wanted
me at all
And Iknow it should be something that I
never had before
Tied up in Daisies
In my life there's nothing I've ever
wanted more
To taste you, to offer anything at all
Don't die in me
My suffering won't leave me...don't leave
me
Inside my hands are shaking, my eyes drawn
back in fear
To break me open and notice the blame of
the wound you cut in here
And I know it feels like nothing that
you've ever felt before
Tied up in Daisies
If my life is nothing, than I want nothing
more
Take me inside you, trace flowers on your
soul.
I want to make you something, you've never
seen before
Open up your heart and tie yourself up in
me more
And now I'm something that I know you
should've never had before.
Tied up in Daisies
I Empty
written by G.Smith, Apr. 1996, copyright
1997
1-2-3-4 Sick of waiting anymore
5-6 going higher, getting colder feed the
fire.
Will you take me incompletly, need to
taste you bitter sweet
I have wounds that I can show you, kiss
you sting you fuck you take you
I will work to break you slowly, I will
haunt you without fear
Mine is gold and pure as snow but dipped
in blood of virgin's tears
I cannot be shared, I will not be saved
It is here that I'll hurt you, it is here
that I'm safe
No touch is ignored, no sex too strong
I. . . I am one
7-8-9-10 Breathe deep here we go again
Ticking tocking muscles aching, pumping
blood flows the infecting
Like a lump inside your throat, it pricks
your thumbs when you're alone
Infect the wound where angels clean, make
you cum and make you scream
So spread your mind I'll fuck what's
inside, dive in deep where demons hide
Hurt you deep my love is numb
I. . . I am one
In this place, my insane grace
I alone - a tattered face
Hide alone in the cold
The only soul you've ever known
I will catch you when you run, I will hurt
you in the end
When you find you hate like I
Trust in me to feel empty.
Don't cover your eyes now baby, you're so
cold... a blown mind away
Soul Hunger
written by G.Smith,Feb.1996, copyright 1997
When you smile a violet grows beneath me
When you rhyme I lose the words to say
When I go I say I'll never leave you
When I die I'll meet you on the way
When you rise your body moves beside me
When it's night I need to hear you say
When I show you everything I'm thinking
When you write it takes the pain away.
I know what soul hunger is
Craves a million miles away
I know what heartache says
Take me back to yesterday
When you cry a violet dies inside me
When it's time I'll find the words to say
When I know you'll say I've always loved
you
When I wake I'll be back yesterday
Starving sorrow let me sleep
Carve tomorrow let me weep
Pain is knocking let me sleep
Rain is knocking let me weep
...but will this hunger ever fade
Falling from the moon
written by G.smith, July 1996, copyright 1997
Make a wish upon a star
Dare to tell your dreams to the one who's
wrapped up in your arms
And I want to know who we are
Sell your soul so simply, would you sell
your soul to change the world?
And I want to tell her everything
What oceans mean to me
What things I fear to see.
And she looks up into my eyes
But I lost her in the moment as a shooting
star goes flying by...
So we look out at the moon
Wandering fish is not my own
I count the stars up in the sky
And she just watches them die.
Tattoo my love upon your heart
Trace it with your finger everytime the
memories fall apart
Tonight would'nt be so very hard
To say you're not afraid, even though it
means you really are
And she won't tell me anything
No stories does she bring
No sound is happening
Replace my vacant home up in the sky
For no fish swims alone and falling stars
can only burn and die
So we look out at the moon, wandering fish
is not my own
I count the stars up in the sky, and she
just watches them die.
Tattooed her love upon my heart
Stung me with kisses, I'm afraid to let it
fall apart
And I want to wash her wings in kisses of
smoke and sing
But I can't remember how it goes
The story or the song I used to know
To hear what we want
Excuses and denial
No cut heals slower
There is evil in this presence...
Burn
written by G.Smith, Sept. 1996, copyright
1997
First taste is all it takes to burn out
all the lies
Scraped skin from within, so now sick
inside
I'm not one to lose control, but my
insides are coming apart
I don't know what else to do, but let this
fucking burning start.
Worn out, no doubt I want to dissappear
My words, your skin, is no longer here
Don't send me, don't save me, can't you
see inside I'm breaking
It burns me, breeeds within me, this child
inside is suffocating.
How does it feel? - Do you want control?
H ow should it feel? - I think you want to
know
You used me up, was not enough, see how
this world has fucked me up.
So abused, nothing to lose, so tired and
sick of being used
I've lost my way, can't stand to stay, now
that every color has turned gray
Broken and sore, what am I waiting for,
don't wanna feel this fucking feeling no more
How does it feel? - I've lost control
Nothing is real - And I don't wanna know
You raped me, thrown, forgot me, left me
here to die alone
Break me, shake me, don't you wake me, I
think it's much worse than before
I'm not one to piss out my feelings, but
this is the kind that hurts the most
Outside I am cracked and peeling and
inside I'm feeling ten times worse.
How does it feel? - There's no control
Nothing is real - And I'm letting go
Been here before, many times and more,
don't know why I bothered to leave here for
It's not a wish, can't deal with it, I'm
always falling into the same old shit
Sick of lying, broke down trying, I just
can't stand to think anymore
Scabbed and bleeding, what I'm needing,
something strong to numb the feeling.
That's how it feels - With no control
Nothing is real - And I've let go.
Arena
written by G.Smith, Feb.1995, copyright 1995
And she walks by the edge
She sees them in her eyes
Pushes off and then...slowly glides
Poised and confident
She bows to her friend
Smiles so heavenly, I'd understand
And for all the world to see
She makes no mistakes
And I watch her in...Arena.
She knows no enemy
She dances for the kill
Says remember me... and I will.
Sleeping like ghosts
written by K.Bird,G.Smith, June1996,
copyright 1997
I cry out in the silence, in the darkness
no-one's there
Something keeps haunting me, put my
fingers to the air.
I'd touch you if I could feel you, with my
hand I'd make a wave
Knee to knee, anyone inside, touch me now
and close your eyes
No more living day by day, it's hard for
me
Look into my soul, maybe then you'd
realise and see it's me.
Insense scent, candles glow, place my
shadows on the wall
Entity embracing me, I trust won't let me
fall
You feel me, see thru me, look deep into
my soul
You're there inside, if you want to hide
It's time we said goodbye.
No more living day by day, it's hard for
me
Look into my soul, maybe then you'd
realise and see it's me.
The power of dreams, how easy it seems
that they can ruin the perfect, the perfect
in me
No more will I hide, take me deep down
inside
Strip away all your fear, and you'l see &
say to me
It's perfect to me.
Life ends so easily and silence comes so
fast
My need to live has abadoned me to quick
to make me last
In life I will forever sleep, in dreams I
will awake
My perfect side no longer hides, in death
I am alive.
but you sleep like a ghost with me
(all songs are copyright 1995, 1997)
