11/18/99
I've had this web site for over a year now and think it's time for an update on the "me" page. I'm a woman who also happens to be a wife, mother, and grandmother. I'd like to be a writer someday. I'm trying to develop web sites. I love books, music, and computers. I play the guitar. And I've been under treatment for depression for eight years.
As much as I'd like to forget that last part, it's impossible. It colors all my perceptions and actions. I think I will probably need treatment for this condition the rest of my life. That's okay, as long as I can function and remember to enjoy the day-to-day blessings I receive.
My greatest blessing has always been my family. I grew up with parents who loved and nurtured me. When I became an adult, I realized they were two of my best friends. I miss them very much. Joe, my husband, has seen me through the worst (and also the best, I hope.) He never fails to amaze me with his gift for unconditional love. Heather, our daughter, shines with a radiance the sun can't match. She is fearlessly raising her daughter, Lauren (our granddaughter), a beautiful, gifted, and compassionate child. Marilyn, my sister, provides me with support and understanding that I can't even express. She laughs and cries with me as no one else can. Bill, my brother, is the most incredibly optimistic person I've ever met. I kid him about it mercilessly, telling him he lives in "Billyland" but in reality, just talking to him helps me realize that there are great and wonderful things in our lives, if only we would recognize and accept them.
Marilyn and Bill have lovely families of their own who I'd list name by name (& adjective by adjective) but I'm getting weary! If you'd like to know more, visit [Gilligan's Island].
Other blessings in my life include Growlf, my silly, silly dog and Sheba, my cat who I seriously believe may be an angel sent to help me deal with some of life's problems.
My favorite places include my home on Beau St. Washington, PA, the Outer Banks of North Carolina, and Majorsville (a tiny little place, near the Pennsylvania/West Virginia border, that reminds me of [Innisfree].)
I've had some great friends over the years. Melinda and Marta whom I've known since I was a toddler are my oldest friends. Chet whom I met over the internet is my newest. In between are so many-- some I still see regularly and some I've lost touch with along the way: Debbie, Dennis, Annie, Artie, Sue, Tony, Jeni. They've all influenced my life to one degree or another.
I guess I struggle with stupid questions and problems I invent for myself. I'm never really certain how I feel about God but I say prayers all the time, just in case. I believe in man/woman's innate goodness but I ache from banging up against dark images in my dreams. I am consumed with worry about wasting my life but often make it a self-fulfilling prophecy by wasting so much time worrying about it. I think I'm here to learn and to love. Thanks for reading about me.
