*Nirvana:Beautiful Rage*

I don't want this to be another one of those lyric, tab, discography pages. There's enough of them already. I'm making this page for all of those people out there who are missing Kurt as much as I am. I hate it when parents/teachers/etc. think of him as nothing more than another suicidal death rocker. Saying that Kurt was just another heroin addict, suicide quitter is like saying that John Lennon was nothing more than another pothead. I wish that they could see that Kurt wasn't just some freaky guy that we think is cool be cause he's upsetting to parents. Kurt screamed what we felt. Nirvana is what it's like to have all your pain and angst and all those "screw this!" feelings channeled out through the raw vocal chords of one tortured soul. (i.e.~Kurt) My friend wrote me a note one day that said this: "Help. I miss Kurt. He spoke of alienation and ridicule. He seems like the only one who really understands what I'm going through right now." Some emotions are just to deep rooted to be expressed in anything but loud power chords and deep throaty screams. Kurt didn't want to be a spokeperson for millions of deppressed, angst ridden, screaming fans, but it was just something that he couldn't help. We can relate to him, if no one else. You can be feeling like no one understands and everyone is an asshole, and then you can crank up Heart-Shaped Box. You can hear every note, with sorrow dripping off of it, pouring out of your speakers. Then you can say, "There. There is someone who knows what it's like." Kurt could take any feelling, refine it down to it's purest emotional form, and project it from deep in his chest out to an arena of people. Nirvana is pure sorrow in some songs, or pure loneliness, or pure rage. He took it to the highest level, Nirvana, and I don't thimk he ever even realized what he was to so many people. We all miss you, Kurt. Rest in peace at last. Quotes from Kurt: "Even if you have a cold still, you can cough on me again. I still haven't had my fufill." -I Hate Myself and I Want to Die "God is Gay" -Stay Away "Skin the sun, Fall asleep, Wish away-the soul is cheap. Lessons learned, Wish me luck. Soothe the burn, Wake me up." -Dumb "Who will be the king and queen of all of the outcasted teens?" -original lyrics to Smells Like Teen Spirit "Ummmmmmm, lies again." -Pen Cap Chew "I love you for what I am not." -Radio Friendly Unit Shifter "Look on the Bright Side of Suicide." -Milk It "What the meaning of love? It's a crime if anything." -AeroZeppelin Even in His Youth Even in his youth he was nothing. Kept his body clean, going nowhere Daddy was ashamed he was something Smeared the family name, he was nothing. Leave the check when you are through I've got nothing left to prove If I die before I wake, I hope I don't come back a slave. Here's some unrelated stuff about Me: My name is Rachel. I'm an outcast in a little Hickville town in Pennsylvania. When I'm not attending the living Hell that is Montrose High School, I'm playing my Fender, or drawing. I draw, paint, sculpt-you name it. In metal shop everyone else is measuring horsepower and welding. I'm the one in the corner making scupltures out of the scrap metal and avidly reading Slyvia Plath and Leonard Cohen's poetry. If anyone's curious, I have chopped off, half shaved, green hair, green eyes, and black toe nail polish. I customarily wear jeans that I have "modified", T-shirts, flannel, GI joes on necklaces, plastic beads, and other things you can find in a local Salvation Army or the dumpsters. Some other bands I like are L7, Hole, Smashing Pumpkins, Rage Against the Machine, The Doors, and Black Sabbath. Nirvana is my favorite by far, though. If you want to tell me how much this page sux or share our feelings on Kurt, my e-mail address is at the bottom of this page. Peace, Love, and Empathy-Kurt Cobain Never let him fade away.

Email: ral@epix.net