First and foremost I want to thank my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ for making me the person I am today and person I will become tomorrow.

I grew up as Jehovah Witness. The whole time I went to there services I would fear for my life and I ask Jesus where are you? I knew he was somewhere but not in that place. I would pray the whole service for Jesus to be with me. In the mean time I did everything they told me I tried to be the best person I could. I even suffered what I feel now where panic attacks as a child from the fear that the world was going to end and I had no idea if I would survive or be "destroyed". Many nights I would awake and begin running down the steps out the front door and down street trying to escape what I felt was eternal doom although they did not teach or believe in Hell. I have no proof these panic attacks but it was something and out of my behavior at the age of 6 I discovered I had Epilepsy. Any way I still felt obligated to the Witnesses and my family (my whole family almost was members). So I tried to be the best until I discovered other Witnesses were doing the things I wanted to do. Mostly just wanted to be a kid and have a little fun. And not fear for my life. So I joined the band and several other things that were not permitted as Witnesses. I even went to a friends church and that is a big no no... As I reached adulthood I was doing whatever I wanted when ever I wanted to do it...So as a result I became pregnant. And then in my lonely hours after I had my son and was confined in the house. And all the drinking buddies and so called friends I had were no where to be found. Sitting all by self in a darkened room I cried out to God. "Help me" My life became more and more lonely. Until it was just me and my son no friends at all. I started watching Christian television and reading my bible as my body would shake with fear. (since I was reading from a NIV version and not a Jehovah Witness bible. The fear almost overcame me. But I kept on reading and reading even when I would hear in the back of mind "that is not true" I kept on reading. Until I heard "this is true" And I knew in my heart it was true. The preacher on the TV was saying "you need Jesus in your life. Without him you are on your way straight to HELL." And then he said "all you have to do is ask him in your life and you can spend eternity in heaven with him". And began to speak about how God could change my life. And since I felt my life was at the bottom of the barrel and I need God. I wanted him to help me. So I prayed and I accepted Jesus in my life.
About 3 years later my dad became ill and was close to death. One night my 3 year old son looked at me and said "mommy we hav ta go ask papap if he want Jesus in his heart". I looked at this little child and stared in amazement...and then said let's go! So we headed to the nursing home and my son walked up to his papap and said "do you want Jesus in you heart". My dying father looked at me and in a small voice almost unable to speak said "what did he say". So I repeated what my son said and I asked the question this time and my dad said yes. So I prayed with him and when I finished praying a small tear trickled down my fathers then blind eyes. As I weeped with him I rejoiced inside of his new found home in heaven with Jesus Christ. The ride home was the most powerful ride of my life as I discovered that out of my sin God made triumph And thanks to that precious little 3 year old I had bore out of wedlock and out of my selfish pleasures...my life Was turned around for good and saved me and my fathers life. Amen!

Romans 8:28... "And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose".

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