Release The Strength
(12th May 2002)
It doesn’t seem to be
That you can really see, a we
For not tomorrow, yet the other
But in the future to come your way
I’ve spoken out well written
How I feel inside, it’s there
Been said, but the reply
Was dull, like not noticed
You said that you like it
That you speak so true
But maybe what I see
Isn’t in your view
I understand taking it all
One step at a time, though
For me I see it and try to live it
If the other can’t do the same
Then I’m left to wonder, what’s the game
The game is not alive, not to be seen
Cos we need not to play this life game
It’s all acted upon our feelings
Reaching out to grab what’s there
What’s real and what we can feel
If what I see is not to be
Then I’ll wait for that day to plea
I pray to lord above
To bring me hope and holiness
From all in which I must treasure
I just hope it brings me pleasure
My life has been a bumpy toll
I’ve fondled across all my old dolls
Ive seen the hard times hit me up
I’ve struggled through and came out top
Now I feel what I want to be real
My feelings towards fellas, just ain’t the same
Im sick of those lil flings, all those stupid one night things
Everything and bitchin wit chicks over that guy
Connect with someone so I don’t have to fight
To show what I think is right or wrong
I have my feelings, you have your’s
They could connect, or they could distract
Im sick of letting it all out, and having it laughed at
Played with, fooled with, tumbled upon
I say how I feel, is that so wrong
I try to always come out strong
Sometimes Im depressed that it’s not alright
That he don’t feel the same, no no
But someday I hope that how I feel
He can feel back, cos Im going to stay on track
And keep this feeling that I feel real
Strong and true, happy and glad
To be who I am, and speak how I feel
I don’t like to just be with someone
For the moment, I use to just do it
To feel my emptiness fulfilled
Though these days, I just want to be free
Free from all those jokes, and flings
Try to come out bright and cherry
Maybe someday, somehow, sometime
He’ll be able to come back and say
I do love you, Cara, I always will
I can see us forever more, not just now
But for evermore, I mean that too
It’ll make my day, but til then
I’ll just sit back and release the strength
To be me, not anyone else, but me.
