My Thoughts
Friends to me are very special
they’re not just there, but they’re apart of me. I’d not know what I’d
do without them. Maybe I wouldn’t even be here today to write this. I have
great friends that surround me throughout thick and thin. I’m not the type to
just ‘hate’, but I know I am a bitch at times. But hey that’s life.
What does a ‘true friend’ mean to
me? A true friend is someone I can trust with my life. But then I thought about
things and there’s no one in the world that you could trust with your life. So
I’ve rounded it up and true friends; are there for me through thick and thin,
little or big, slim or wide. Every more I make is because of my friends. Someone
I can trust, talk to with any problems I may have, just to hang out and enjoy
myself.
One thing about friendship I just
don’t understand is betrayal. How could some one be so cruel and mean? But
some things just happen, maybe for the wrong reasons some even for the right
reasons. Most cases of betrayal are not meaning-full. Sudden moments move too
fast to even stop and think, “Am I betraying a friend?” so maybe I do
understand it, but just didn’t think about it. Though some people just think
it’s right to keep something from their good friends, think it’s right to
talk about their good friends, and even twist people’s words. How ever
there’s many people out there that live with doing it. To make friends for
them is to lie their way to people’s friendship, tell them all the goss they
found out people were saying about them and running back to tell them, or even
back stabbing someone just to get closer to a more popular person. To be, yes
there are more popular people in people’s eyes but what they don’t see is
the person within their selves. You don’t have to be popular to be loved, yeh
you make think you need to be popular to be noticed, but look around you, if you
got friends then you’re noticed. You don’t’ need to bring yourself to the
top just because all the other people are there. You are only you and that’s
all that counts.
All people are different in every
way, no one’s the same nor can we be two people. (Besides cross dresses, but
that’s another story, *laughs*, and I have nothing against people choosing
that path). Life wasn’t meant to be easy, as it would just be boring, not
having challenges to lie ahead of you, so why not let friends make and learn
from their mistakes? We as friends can lend advise but never can we force or
make the decision for them. We as a whole know what is right and what’s wrong
and it’s us as our own person to make and learn from our mistakes. Whether
it’s to be worth the risk of just because your friends do it. At the end of
the day, you’re, your own person.
I do believe that life has many
reasons to live. But most importantly are your friends and family. For me
without them, I’m a “NO BODY”. All my life I’ve often wondered why this?
Why that? Why just why? And sometimes there’s just no meaning or answer and
often there’s no accounting for it at all. If you believe in your self, you
can make things happen.
The hardest experience to go through
is having a close friend to you die, or family members. When you’ve spent
quality time building up a strong relationship between the both of you, you come
out strong, happy and all good emotions are filled. You share moments together
just hanging out, being idiots of your selves, doing stuff your age do, share
secrets, memories, laughter, tears of joy and sadness all mixed emotions are
combined to make you’s friends and family.
When the day comes, the news of your friend, former lover, family member has
died, committed suicide it’s then that your feelings really show. You’ll cry
and some even want to kill their selves because they don’t believe it’s
right for their friend etc to die. However it you choose to go about it that
way, you’re making a big mistake. Things like that just happen in life and you
shouldn’t blame yourself. If you were meant to die you wouldn’t be here
today. Think about the times you shared with them before they died, all the
memories you have. Those will stay with you and guide you through life.
Killing yourself is not the way to go
about it, this I know. You’ve got friends out there to help you, family too.
What pain would you put them through? They will be feeling how you are. Would
you want to put them all through the same pain you are in, or want to help them
through? No one should blame his or her self, unless you actually did force a
death upon someone.
Some people today take drugs, smoke
weed etc. That’s their decision we can only help them, we can’t make them
stop as it’s their life, but we can, not like the fact there doing so. I know
people, who do it all because they feel depressed and hurt, or they just feel
like it, or they feel good when they do it. What ever there excuse it, or rather
being; what ever makes them feel they should do it. There’s nothing anyone can
change about it. If they get caught, get fined, atleast you can say, ‘I told
you so.’ But still what would they prove? Nothing, and that’s the point.
Nothing you can do will change their mind unless it’s out of total in control
love. Not everyone agrees to what other people do, think or say, and that’s
the way life is.
I guess what I’m trying to say is, some things happen and there’s no reason nor can you explain. I believe I’d had a rough coupe of years and that it’s no one’s fault, but yet I wonder if it is. The pain people put you through over and over. Just what can you do? How can you change it? Can’t just give up on life, take chances in life, make moves, don’t leave it for another day, if you have something to say then say it, if you got something you want to ask, just ask. Life goes on and there’s no turning back so just look to the future and put the past behind you.
If you get stuck, you’ll always
have friends and family there for you. They’ll guide you through. Never will
you be on your own. Someone will always be there to offer help.
Never give up on hope and dreams. Live your life the way you choose and make it happen.
