Crystal

I'll tap you on your shoulder to let you know it's okay. I'll pull your body closer, a hug should be that way. I'll give your cheek a soft kiss so you know you've been missed

I'll smile while you embrace me for each other we've been longing to see I've missed you, my shadow

Thank you for being there.

Talk to you later

~Angel~

Crystal R. Vertz

Alone in the darkness, I sit and weep

Crying in the night, a lost sheep

I feel so alone in this tiny space

So alone in this miserable place

Need a soul to hold onto

Need a soul to belong to

Pain is a normal occurrence

Nothing for assurance

A cry in the dark is rarely heard

Pain is felt, no need for words

Crystal R. Vertz ~ October 7, 2002

Angel's Hand of Friendship

Hello There Nice Person

Did Anyone Ever Tell You,

Just How Special You Are, The Light that You Emit

Might even Light a Star. Did Anyone Ever Tell You

How Important You Make Others Feel. Somebody out here is Smiling

About Love that is so Real.

Did Anyone Ever Tell You Many Times, When

They were Sad, Your E-mail made Them Smile a bit, In Fact It made Them

Glad For the Time You Spend Sending Things And Sharing whatever You

Find. There are No Words to Thank You.  But Somebody, Thinks You're Fine

Did Anyone Ever Tell You,  Just How Much They Love You

Well, My Dearest " Online " Friend, Today I am Telling You I believe that

without a friend you are missing out on a lot!!!

Don't be confused by friends and acquaintances, there is a difference!

Have a nice day, and I'm glad we are friends!!!

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There was this little girl sitting by herself in the park. Everyone passed by her and never stopped to see why she looked so sad. Dressed in a worn pink dress, barefoot and dirty, the girl just sat and watched the people go by.

She never tried to speak. She never said a word.

Many people passed by her, but no one would stop. The next day I decided to go back to the park in curiosity to see if the little girl would still be there. Yes, she was there, right in the very spot where she was yesterday, and still with the same sad look in her eyes.

Today I was to make my own move and walk over to the little girl. For as we all know, a park full of strange people is not a place for young children to play alone. As I got closer I could see the back of the little girl's dress. It was grotesquely shaped. I figured that was the reason  people just passed by and made no effort to speak to her.

Deformities are a low blow to our society and, heaven forbid if you make a step toward assisting someone who is different. As I got closer, the little girl lowered her eyes slightly to avoid my intent stare. As I approached her, I could see the shape of her back more
clearly. She was grotesquely shaped in a humped over form.

I smiled to let her know it was OK; I was there to help, to talk. I sat down beside her and opened with a simple, "Hello"; The little girl acted shocked , and stammered a "hi"; after a long stare into my eyes. I smiled and she shyly smiled back. We talked until darkness fell and the park was completely empty. I asked the girl why she was so sad. The little girl looked at me with a sad face said, "Because, I'm different" . I immediately said, "That you are!", and smiled. The little girl acted even sadder and said, "I know." "Little girl," I said, "you remind me of an angel, sweet and innocent."

She looked at me and smiled, then slowly she got to her feet and said, "Really?" "Yes, you're like a little Guardian Angel sent to watch over all people walking by." She nodded her head yes, and smiled. With that she opened the back of her pink dress and allowed her wings to spread, then she said "I am. I'm your Guardian Angel," with a twinkle in her eye. I was speechless -- sure I was seeing things. She said, "For once you thought of someone other than yourself. My job here is done" .

I got to my feet and said, "Wait, why did no one stop to help an angel ?" She looked at me, smiled, and said, "Your the only one that could see me," and then she was gone. And with that, my life was changed dramatically.

So, when you think you're all you have, remember,

your angel is always watching over you.

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i am lost in my aloneness in the world that hates me and all i love

no one wishes my life from my past

they only wish my spirit dead and my body back for the m to toy with

i have tried to move on with some of my past

i have tired for some time now

i wish i had life to put the good in

i wish i could get rid of the bad that slices across my neck

i am slowly wasting away inside

few people care...why should they?

i'm no good to anybody, aren't i?

i'm just a slut to my new love, aren't i?

not to me

i love him with much of what i have

i wish to be with him for the life that was screwed up before

i want happiness for just a day, care-free and full of love

but not possible in my environment

there are always raiders trying to kill that spirit, that one soul

it's working...i hope they are happy

i could have been something great with the time i was not

they tore me down when i could have made myself better

but getting out to do so is no option to them

oh sweet death!...delight thyself in my existence!

do away with all that kills me

do away with all that pains me

do your worst to do your best

i wish love for what i have now

will the raiders leave me?

will i live in peace?

no one knows...but my defenses are down and my heart is bleeding

Crystal R. Vertz