Eilan's Journal
January 4, 2003:
Oh, the joy of exes.
I ran into Colin at the store today. We got to talking, and (surprise, surprise) ended up back at his place for coffee. But no, nothing happened. He tried, but I gave him the "just wanna be friends" speech, as if I hadn't gone there with him for that in the first place!
Very narrow escape to breaking New Year's resolution there. I don't want Colin and I to be an on-again off-again relationship any longer. The emotional turmoil is crap and I don't want it. I don't think I can even manage being friends with him. I'm such a damn slut when it comes to Colin. Well, no more! I refuse to be a fuckbuddy!
I'm sure my big brother is enjoying this immensely if he's reading this. Simmer down, Aidan, and stop being so damn protective.
I wish the attic was finished. Riona snores like a motherfucker!
I'm thinking that I'm gonna take at least 6 months just to be by myself and enjoy being single. Hmm..6 months. That's a long time to go without sex..lol. Maybe not. But I should at least spend SOME time without just bouncing into another rebound relationship. They all just end up being crap in the end.
Gonna run now. Literally. I've taken that up again because all that holiday food cause the butt to become a tish bit chunky. Bye.
January 8, 2003:
Remind me again...
WHY do I live with my siblings voluntarily? Ugh. Aidan is being a prick and Riona has been in the bathroom FOREVER. I think she may have died in there. I'm going to go pop a squat in the garden, I don't care what Allison says! It can't hurt the flowers if the damn things are all frozen.
K, I'm gonna go. Just needed to vent about lovely family situations.
January 13, 2003:
I'm such a fucking slut!
Okay, so, I didn't write about this the other day, but Colin brought me flowers shortly after our encounter in the store. He came into the bank today and was all flirty with one of the other tellers, so of course, like the irrational person I am, I got jealous.
Insane jealousy must have weakened my willpower, because when I ran into him (quite on accident, I'm sure *note sarcasm*) on my lunch break at the restaurant he knows I always go to, I ended up not eating much and spend the majority of the time making out with him in his car. Luckilly, I didn't have much time and we didn't go further than that, but I fear if he pops by sometime like he said he was going to do, I may not be able to resist the urge to fuck his said brains out.
I'm so ladylike, aren't I?
If only we could stop fighting, we'd have the perfect relationship. But maybe that constant tension between us is what makes the sex so good. I've often debated that.
More than the sex I think I miss the talks we used to have -- you know, in between arguments.
Anyway, I think I've written quite enough for one day.
January 18, 2003:
My big brother...
Is a big shmushy! Just read Caitie's journal and all I have to say to that is "AWWWWW!!!" I'm tempted to go downstairs and wake him up just to hug him and tell him so, but who knows what he and Haley could be doing in there, ewww!
We'll be posting the remodeling pics tomorrow, after I steal Colin's digital cam. Not really stealing, he said I could borrow it...we used it to take the pics for the first site, which we will be re-posting here.
OH by the way, RunTelDat sucks ASS, just in case anyone was thinking of seeing it. We watched it tonight, and he preached throughout most of the damn thing. Had a few funny parts, but they were far and few between. I'm going to bother a word from a new friend of mine here...blarg!
January 23, 2003:
Well, I lasted ALMOST a month!
New Year's resolution is officially broken. Am obviously a slut of the most horrid variety. Oh well, at least it was good. ;)
Here's my new tattoo. I close-upped so you all could see the detail and stuff...plus, like I'm really going to show me from the back so you can see my huge ass. I think not.
