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~ sep 3 ~
Hello everyone! how are you? well, today i went to one class at school! drama! then to the dentist for a filling! half of my mouth is frozen! ahhh! so, i don't feel much up for writing, got cramps..(that time..) and i feel sick and tired, so i'm gonna go! later all!
~sep 14~ hello all! i don't have much good to say..i feel like crap...not that way, but...well, i was supposed to go out tonight,..but my friend never called me back. i'm so stressed out! i mean, i love my school and all, but i miss my friends in calgary so much that there's a big gap in my heart...
Yesterday, i went to *paula's locker and she goes "what are u doing for lunch?" (it was lunchtime) and i'm like i dunno...and i ask her, and she goes "oh, me jan* and anik are going to my house, then downtown" and i'm like, cool. and we meet up with them, and then i'm finally like "can i come?" and there's a hesitated..ok. Here's the thing: I was hanging out alot with this girl from drama that they don't like much, because we had to work on our little skit for open house(where everyone comes to the school, like parents and that..) so i couldn't spend alot of my lunches with them, so i think they were gettin a lil upset, but my drama teacher wanted us to be perfect! we had to sing and everything, so we had to practice our shyness! anyways, we go to lunch..then when were buying out burgers, jan asks paula if she'll have enough money for the night..they were going somewhere?! well, i wasn't invited, so i didn't want to say anything! but i knew... then, the next day at work anik says "oh it was so fun last night at the sandpits! me and paula had to wait for tia to come back cuz there wasn't enough room in her car! that was scary! but it was great" aha! i knew it! they didn't invite me...well, ok, i'll live! oh well! but it kinda hurt.. so then, tonight, anik called me after work and asked if i wanted to go to this guy's house from work who was having a party at his house and i said ok, then she said she'd call me back. so i did my makeup, changed my outfit a gazillion times! she phoned, said they weren't going, but that we would drive around and maybe go for coffee..well ok! sounds better anyway... so she said she'd call back after she phoned another guy that we were gonna go with...so i waited, tried on a couple other outfits..(lol!) until i was satisfied, and sat down to wait for the call...it was getting late..we talked at like 9:20, and it was getting to be 10!what's going on? so whatever...i started watching a tv movie..then my parents came home(they were out having dinner with some people, then went to the lounge after) my mom was surprised i was still home! so was i... it was 10:45. why didn't i call her back you ask? well, maybe she didn't want me to..i just give up. now it's 11:20 and i'm writing this...gawsh...im a lil pissed... God i wish i was still in calgary...i had the best friends in the world...friends who thought if i wasn't there it wouldn't be as fun...now THOSE are friends...
why'd i have to move??? gosh, i'm starting to cry...im so pathetic...ugh! anyways, i just thought i'd write and tell everyone how my wonderful life in calgary is going!(not!) my mom told me how her and dave want to move back to calgary! why'd we move here in the first place? my god! why do this to me? i've started grade 12 and they want to move me friggin again? i mean cool, i'd get to grad with my friends, but jeesh! why didn't we stay there in the first place? life's so screwed up, i'm sad, stressed, confused...just...i dunno...
anyways, i'm gonna go..i'll talk to you all later...night.
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