I am.

I am a woman who is more then capable of handling myself as a person, and whatever life throws at me. If it appears that I may not be, it is a choice I make. Not wanting is not the same thing as being unable. I will not attempt to list attributes that make me a person, a friend, a lover, a submissive, or whatever other label you want to attach. I may be all those, but not necessarily to all. However, first and foremost, I am my own person with my own set of values and principles.

I am a strong person. That strength may come in many forms but it is always present. If it appears that I’m not, it is a choice I make. Strength can be found in a form of conviction also, good or bad. At times, I can be too strong and that is when I need to give it away and find balance. And there are other times my strength is not applied evenly or where it is needed most. That is when I need a guide to help me focus and direct that strength to where it is most appropriate. It is not a weakness to seek a guide or to give strength away to the one worthy of it, because in that, it becomes honed and not destructive to self, or others.

I am intelligent. I am capable of tapping into every subject while I contribute to it, learn from it, or simply listen to other perspectives with intense curiosity. If it appears that I’m not, it is a choice I make. Factors that play a role, while not mutually exclusive, are: lack of interest, loss of focus, preoccupation with matters that carry more intrinsic value for me, or as simple as my own perception that what I’m hearing or dealing with is, for lack of better word, worthless and a waste of time. Intellect knows when to shut up and listen. And one can learn much in silence and through observation. I am not afraid to admit that I don’t know something and curiously explore the possibilities. I do not believe that one person knows it all and apply critical thinking. This means that I do not readily accept everything handed to me and will ask questions. All this is done with intent to expand my own knowledge not hamper it. Others have the same choice and opportunities. While I may not always agree with something, there is always something to learn, even if it means digging into every nook and cranny to find it.

I am empathetic. While I cannot always precisely know another’s state, it doesn’t mean I do not relate to it through similar experiences. If it appears that I’m not, it’s a choice I make. At times, while I understand the situation all too well, I also understand that it is not up to me to determine what others need to do to resolve it. Empathy knows where the other person is coming from and respect is allowing that person to make their own choices. Growth, for others, will not occur from my resolutions, nor will growth take place for me while I live my life according to someone else’s views. I have no desire in being someone else’s puppet and live with their fears and insecurities, nor would I ever want a puppet to live out, or defend, my own shortcomings.

I am free. I recognize the rules and the laws in place and follow them to the best of my abilities. If it appears that I don’t, it’s a choice I make. Rules and laws are not universal and do not necessarily apply to all nor are recognized by all. Governments or Gods do not govern my own rules and choices either, but instead they have granted me the ability to govern my own. I exercise that right and live with my choices, along with any consequences they may bring. I do not ask for permission, approval, or forgiveness. I allow others their freedoms and hope that others permit themselves to grant me the same liberty.

I am a submissive woman. And if it appears that I’m not, it is a choice that I make. All that I am, I choose to share with another that I deem worthy. My strength, my intellect, my empathy, my heart, my submission, is given freely. And it is done so in trust and faith for the One who is in charge and respects all that I am, or am not. I am independent, although at times I do depend. My dependence is not viewed as a fault or weakness, but simply as a need and readiness for new lessons. I have learned, and am always learning to own my choices, and let others own theirs. And at times the temptation to make things “right” is strong, but I must resist for who am I to determine another’s fate. I can only be in charge of my own. I do not ask others to change for me and should I ever feel that urge, I simply remember how hard it is to change myself.

I choose confidence and self-esteem instead of ego and popularity.
I choose understanding instead of ignorance.
I choose forgiveness instead of resentment.
I choose caring instead of disdain.

I am a submissive woman and I will not allow something that matters most, be at mercy of something, or someone, that matters least.