Sometimes when I play alone,
I am startled to see how alone I am
To others it seems as tho by choice
By choice...no this is not by choice
The friendships seem as hopeless as our race
Another microcosm of miscommunication
My consciousness stabbed with observations
A mind that shuts the doors on complications
Don't you see? Is my logic that far removed from yours?
My efforts gained me nothing that lasted
Perhaps that is why I make no effort now
My sympathy still finds its way to you
Most of the time, it's against my will
Does it seem that I no longer care about anything?
I DON'T WANT to CARE about anything...but still i do
...and that is why I feel so drained
I see a world that could thrive without any struggle
I see a world that would thrive if we simultaneously awoke
I see that world mauled and defeated by every human trait
It all seems to come back to this lack of trust...
We can't trust each other...I'm afraid to trust at all anymore
Faith is the downfall of every fool
But how many times have I tripled my defenses
These defenses were worthless...it crumbled again
Conflicting emotions, a friend's unclear motives, I'm hiding again
So I run, but not like a coward, like a survivor
Better to do it now while I have a semblance of motivation
If my presence cannot be confirmed, finally I am free
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