My recent trip back to Hong Kong at the end of December 1999, have taught me something new in my life... Although, I can only spent little time in Hong Kong, I am sure I will remember this short trip forever in my life... It is very hard to put in words what I've picked up... but I am sure for those friends who are close to me will understand what's going on with me...

Every year I will find a chance to go back to Hong Kong for once. Everytime I will stay for at least one month... but this year, I was only allowed a few days... Life is like that, when you wanna to stay longer, you can't... When you wanna to leave a place, you must stay there longer... Maybe I am asking too much... but I am sure everyone will have some sort of feeling similar to me in their life....

Basically, after this trip I finally figured out what I wanna to do in the next 5 years... I think I am more clearer with what I want in life... Maybe to some people the question about their future is not an important matter at this moment... but to me, it means everything!!! Why?? Because I used to be like that... and this is really me... I used to be a person that wants to know what I will do next in every aspect.... I've lost that sense in the past 5 years... Now I am regaining my strength... I really hope I can be who I was before...

I am very glad that there are 2 very important people in Hong Kong that affected me with my thinking... Thus, helping me to build up my confident again... Who are they?? hehe... Not going to tell you! Only they need to know who they are...

I am glad that after 3 and half years, I've finally finished my studies in USyd... Time has gone by so quickly... I remember how dislike I was with USyd when I started first year... Mainly because I was so lonely and that, I have to study some compulsory subjects that I dislike so much... Even til today, I can say that I still don't find Economics interesting... Glad that I've survived... and hopefully, these nightmares of demand and supply, interest rate or exchange rate, Philips curve or IS-LM curves, monetary or fiscal policies, etc.. etc... will never come back to me again!!!

What's ahead of me?? I am not so sure... But I do have some pictures in my mind what I will like to see in my future... As for short term, of coz, I wanna to finish M.Com at UNSW asap... I wanna to look for work to gain some work experiences... As for long term, I just wanna to be stable with my life... that is, having a stable income and making people around me happy.. I wanna my parents to be happy and don't have to worry about me...

Besides that, there are many many things I still wanna to do with my life... I wanna to travel around and see other places... I wanna to make my living environment more comfortable... I wanna to meet more variety of people and become their friends... of coz, at the same time, remaining in contact with my existing good friends... Also, I still carry hopes that one day, I will meet the right guy that share the same direction and goal with me...

There are many unhappiness in my past.. Although I cannot change the past, I have confident that if I do what is right now, there should be some positive impact to my future... Relationships, I cannot take control... so why not spend more time and effort on things that I can get more control over... such as work and study... No one will know how much effort you spend in a relationship.. However, if you do study hard or work hard, more people will see that...

Rather or not, my plans and goals will become reality in the future, I do not know... However, I only wanna to do things now that I will not regret later... After all, learnt to be good to yourself... cherish everyone, everything and every opportunities you have... as I always say, the sun will not shine on you everyday and you never know when the sky will start to rain... embrace everything you have and do everything with conscience...

If you do not try, you will have nothing... However, if you do try, you might have a chance to succeed... Although, some people do fail in their attempts, at least they have the courage to give it a go... It is not the results that really counts, it is the experience and the process that's more important... Isn't life meant to be like that??