Natalie
The long day slowly comes to an end
Natalie our horse pants on the way home
She's tired for she's carried us all day
We rode her out into the pasture and gully
We let her just graze while we lay on the ground
Hand in hand, heart in heart, soul in soul
Time flies by so quickly we hardly notice a thing
Except for our loves for one and other
That's never been missed and will always be the same
We just lay together in the deep grass
Talking about such superficial things
Because our souls connect so deeply there's no need for words
Natalie lies down beside her little colt
She missed him being away from him all day
Just like we miss each other when life pulls us apart
She starts to clean him and groom him with her mouth
So we decide to imitate them a little bit
So we lay down together and stroke and kiss each other
We spend all night in the barn with Natalie and her colt
When we awake in the morning we feel revived in every way
We had the most innocent yet intimate night of our lives
I pick straw from your long hair as we slowly start to head to the house
As we're leaving the barn I look back at Natalie for a second
She was still lying with her colt, she was completely contempt though
And it's at that time I treasure every single passing moment with you
For every kiss, ever hug, and every word shows how you love me
And I we then leave to enjoy every second of our life together

Blissful Presence
You turn the lights off and we lay together
You were always the mysterious one
Your long hair and beautiful body hid you
You let me know what you wanted me to know
I love you yet I have no words to say it
And you love me, but are too afraid to try to say it
We're afraid of how those words will touch us
For they only come from the heart and go to it
Deeply and sweetly with no re-demonstration needed
Yet no one can ever understand what we feel for each other
Not even we truly comprehend what we feel
Our beautiful youth is just another odd interfering source
However, when we hold hands, we hold out hearts
We speak amazingly deeply without a word said
We touch each other with a violent streak of love
Yet we don't touch each other any differently physically
Our minds get lost in the fog of everyday life
Yet our hearts still beat strongly looking for each other
Even when alone it's as if I feel your blissful presence with me
And when we're together I feel as weak as a little colt
But I also feel safe as if a mare is keeping close watch for me
Slowly and steadily I come to love you more and more
And as the light is turned back on I see all of you for who you really are

Dewberry
The sun casts down on us and warms our faces
My nose feels like my heart when you hug me
You roll onto your side and gaze longingly at me
Your eyes say more then your mouth ever has
That little sparkle, that funky little flare
You don't say a word, yet I know how you love me
You then snuggle up closer to me
Your long hair blows around in the soft wind
You place your head on my chest and grab my hand
Ever so lovingly and ever so lusciously
I run my free fingers through your hair for a while
I then find your other hand and slowly and softly kiss it
I smell that beautiful dewberry fragrance you like to hide
As we lay there we simply remember other fond times
You think back to the time we first kissed
You remember how great it felt, how free you were
Then you remember me holding you for the first time
How safe and secure you felt and how vulnerable you were
How you held me then like you hold me now
You feel your heart grow a little larger, a little warmer
And you lean up and softly yet passionately kiss me
You then lay your head down on my chest again
And you fall asleep dreaming of what the future holds for us

End Means
I can feel your arms around me while Natalie carries us
She's carrying us deep into the frozen wasteland
Yet I feel as warm as if we were in the tropics
The strength of Natalie's legs and back astound me
She's carried us for so many miles
Her power and endurance can only be compared to your love
For even at the most volatile moments
You've stick with me and your joyful spirit is so contagious
In my darkest moments, when I was closest to death
Your loving hand, hear and soul pulled me back to you
You kissed my wounds better without saying or doing a thing
We come up to a small stream and let Natalie have a break
She is tired, yet she continues to heed us so whole-heartedly
We find a place to lay down in the scarce grass
We gaze out at the snow-covered mountains
Their vastness and glory belittle us in physicality
Their amazing massive curves and peaks capture our imaginations
We hold hands like we imagine the glaciers did for millions of years
Natalie finished drinking from the stream and grazing
So we slowly re-mount our gallant steed
Hand in hand, heart in heart, we continue on our methodical quest
We don't know what we're looking for, nor where to find it
But it's not important
For so long as we're together, all end means are justified

Last Kiss
Soft salty tears start to cover your face
Your heart feels like it's been split in half
You think back to the olden days
The days when your power was greater then the pain
You close your eye and try to remember why you fell in love
Why you would fall for such a fool hearty stubborn boob
You think back to all the night you'd spent together
How amazingly happy and at ease you were
How you love it when he just held you closely
And would softly kiss your neck and ears
Without the even slightest alternative intents
Yet you always doubted his true character and ideas
For everyone else before him wanted you for more then hugs
They wanted you to please them in every way they knew
Unfortunately they only knew about physical things
This guy was different, he wanted you to be happy first
So he'd hug you, kiss you and snuggle with you for your own benefits
He loved you in many ways more then he loved himself
He would hold you in his strong arms in front of fires
And his shoulder always welcomed your tears
His hand always seemed to be looking for your hand
Never for your breasts, even though that was his most cherished dream
You'd talk of the things you hoped the future held for you two
Yet those dreams never came true, and never will
For as much as you are alive… now he's not
And you kiss him one last time as he's lowered to his grave

Fateful Kiss
The anticipated day finally arrives
Many years of work about to pay off
You can picture her in that white dress
You can almost smell the bows of lilacs
You wonder what that kiss will be like
Will it be just another short loving burst
Or will it be like the very first time
When all shyly and timidly you first touched lips
Or will she truly show her undying love for you
Once again you picture her in your head
That long flowing hair, that bountiful bosom
And slowly you start to smile a bit
Then you think of your first child in her arms
How his sweetness and innocence matches her so well
Then you think about your honeymoon
How you'll bond so deeply in so many ways
And then you say a little prayer to God
Asking Him to make you feel the same then
As you feel now when she hugs you
For it's the smallest most innocent things you love
The way she holds your hand
And the way she holds you when she cries
And the way her eyes light up when she sees you smile
She loves you so much, just as you love her
So confidently yet nervously you take your place on the stage
And after that fateful and blissful kiss
It will be the beginning of the end of the beginning

Worthless Petty Trash
That soft kiss of yours awakes me once again
You slowly snuggle up a little closer to keep warm
Your sweet, innocent eye find mine and you smile
Those beautiful teeth shine though with a great radiance
Last night I never thought I could love you any more
Yet now, my hearts grown even more for you
You gently squeeze my hand a little
The skin on your fingers is softer then feather
And when they intertwine with my coarse fingers
I can feel your warm and amazing spirit emerging through them
I love you more and more with each moment
There's not another person who's kisses make my heart melt like yours do
When you wrap your long arms around me
When I feel as worthless as the petty trash on the street
You wrap your arms around me and make me feel like a new man
When I'm with you I never have to hide
For your honest forgiving and graceful nature
Allows one to be themselves with out a fear in their mind
For you never make unjust assumptions
Nor do you ask for more then you think you deserve
But you are worthy of the highest most magnificent praise
For you look past all my massive flaws and embrace me
And that strong blissful embrace makes me love you more and more
So hug me once again, but this time, don't let go

Black Curtain
Those soft warm hands of hers rub my back
I close my eyes in the thrill of total relaxation
I think back to the olden days of innocent bliss
I think of the first time her lips touched mine
I remember how my heart jumped, and was opened
The time when we first held hands comes to mind too
Those long narrow and ever so soft fingers
They found a way to intertwine with mine just right
Then how I kissed her hand, wrist and neck
I roll over and look deeply into her eyes
All the love that's in my heart shines though
I kiss you ever so softly and ever so slowly
I can feel the hair on my back tingling from excitement
Even though it's our millionth one
It's even more special then the first one either of us ever had
For I know you love me, as you know I love you
We then wraps our arms around each other firmly
Our eyes are fixed on each other eyes like they're fireworks
We get amazing glory just from that subconscious
We keep falling deeper and deeper into that un-relentable hole
That hole of the most infinite and intimate depth
I then think back to the night before my frightful misfortune
The night when that black curtain over my heart was lifted
The night in which the past became the past
And the future became a future

Rag Doll
The dark clouds bear their massive rains over head
The rain floods your lungs and you start to drown
Darkness is all around you, not a light to be found
The wind chills you right to the bone
The warm sweater you were wearing now pulls you down
The Gates of Heaven must have been opened wide
For you are now up to your waist in waters
Cold, bitter, unrelenting, ill fated
Those waters rape you of all your abilities
You can feel your heart contract and the love being evacuated
The once outstanding beauty you had is now gone
It's all turned to a fateful, cold-blooded blue
You close your eyes trying to block out the intense pain
But realizing you're failing miserably
So you try harder to rid yourself of this massive inconsistency
You can't feel your legs or arms any longer
The numbness there is a striking comparison to your heart
Your eyes swell shut and you start to lose hope
You know not why nor where from this rain came
Or at least your conscious won't admit to it
The pain becomes amazingly intense and you pass out
You have very vivid nightmares while gone
You see the world around you collapsing
All the people you've ever held remotely close perish
A long, suffering, agonizing death in front of your very eyes
You let the tears flow right from your heart
The emasculating torture seems to be so real
You cry out to God cursing him for His cruelty
You cry, and cry, and cry, and cry
You just close your eyes and cry yourself back to sleep
Slowly, a light approaches you and infiltrates your eyes
You open your eyes as much as possible to see this long lost treasure
But your eyes are all blurry from all the salt water
You're no longer standing in the water
You're merely another floating piece on the surface
Yet the light gets closer and closer to you
The light is coming from a little boat
A man gently and carefully removes you from the water
He wraps you with many towels to warm you back up
He washes out your eyes with pure spring water
And he keeps you close and holds you like a rag doll
Slowly you begin to see what is around you
Your eyes now are not so fluttered
You can feel your insides beginning to re-warm and expand
You can actually sense your heart's growing
And you look at the man who holds you ever so closely
You hold his hand and embrace him with all of your love
And then you kiss me

Time's Findings
I hold your hand tightly as you dismount Natalie
I'm careful not to let you fall
I hold you close and kiss you softly
When together we are as complete as the entire universe
Yet when separated, it's like you're dead
A slow remorseful tingling feeling possesses your heart
I love you, need you and want you, but don't have you
We find a place under a cherry tree to relax
I sit down first and let you fall onto my lap and hug me tight
You smile ever so sweetly and kiss me ever so softly
You rest your head on my shoulder and then close your eyes
I pick up your hand and kiss your ring
Then I think about the months that we were separated
How empty and utterly useless I felt
So I hug you tighter and tears fill my eyes
I think back to the nights I ran to the bottle for refuge
That sweet, savory flavor of rum filled my stomach
I remember how great I felt when I thought I didn't need you
The beauty of the drinking was of course destroyed in the morning
The hang over from the alcohol wasn't nearly as bad as the truth though
The truth being you moved on with out me
It wasn't until that I didn't think I needed you, that I truly did need you
And just when I needed you the most you returned
I kiss you very passionately for reviving my heart
I pick you up and then carry you back to Natalie
I gently set you back on her and then hop on myself
And we then continue on our mystical voyage
Where we'll end up… only our hearts and time will tell

Heaven At Brander
The lights are burred on that deep cold water
What was once a million miles away
Is less then the distance from my heart to my mouth
I hold your hands to keep mine warm
I rub your shoulders to put you at peace with yourself
Slowly, gently and softly I kiss your lips
That soft little satisfied sigh of yours afterwards makes me smile
The little waves on the water attract our attention
The lighthouse's reflection is ever so odd
It's warped and twisted appearance reminds us of other's loves
Or at least what we thought was love
I look deep into your eyes and start to tell you of my love for you
But after the second word you stop me and kiss me
You look deep into my eyes and I can tell you knew my words
For I can see in your eyes the same words
You squeeze my hand a little bit tighter and kiss my cheek
You turn your head ever so slightly and I see the moon in your eyes
The little sparkle in your eyes now is just amazing
You lay down on the bench with your head on my lap
I stroke your head and your long beautiful hair
Then I hold your hands, and just rest them on your belly
I bend down and kiss your cheek, then your ears, and your lips
Then we just look up into the sky at all the bright stars
And I think about how bright the night sky would be
If every kiss or every hug you gave me was a star
And it's then that I stop dreaming of Heaven and it's brightness
And realize I'm already there

Crumbs
Foolish games come to an end
You look up at me and smile a little
You're just so relaxed in my arms right now
And I am as well just holding you
You rest your head back down on my shoulder
You look like you're ready to fall asleep
I rub your back a little, and then your shoulder
That tense knot that was there before is now gone
Jewel's amazing and relaxing voice soothes us
I'm so warm and so comfortable with you on me
I never want to ever let you go
Go back to the hellish returns of other's music
Your long flowing hair covers my face
That sweet clean lingering smell captivates me
I run my fingers through your hair
You read my most intimate and loving thoughts
Then you simply smile, and squeeze my hand
For you know when I speak of you
And you know just how true and pure my thoughts are
So you appreciate them more then as if they were your own
A gift to the gifted, a penny to the rich man
That's what some would think about you're love
But to me, it's more like a crumb of bread to the homeless
A taste of what I've always wanted
And I picture you handing me one more crumb at a time
And one by one, I devour them always wanting more
You have me in your reach, under your control
For your love is the tastiest bread I've ever tasted
And I will always want one more crumb
But just one, so that way you can have me forever

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