I stepped out of the bathroom, looking both ways down the hallway to make sure there was no one around. I crept slowly to the kitchen, and went straight to the cabinet that held the medicine. I started searching through it, knocking other things out of my way.
Epsom salt, I read the box label. I grabbed the box, and set it on the kitchen counter. I almost gagged at the thought of it, but knew I had to do it. I pulled a glass from the cupboard, and filled it with water. I then dumped some of the epsom salt into it, and mixed it until the salt was dissolved.
I lifted the glass to my mouth. I closed my eyes, and started pouring the water/epsom salt down my throat. I kept it up, until the glass was empty, and then gagged when I pulled the cup away from my mouth. It took all I had not to throw up what I had just drank. I put the glass in the sink, and the epsom salt back into the cupboard.
An hour later, I was on the toilet cleaning myself out. It was such a release. It made me feel so much lighter, and made my stomach emptier it seemed like. I washed my hands before returning to the outside world.
"You wanna go to a party, Tay?" Isaac asked, creeping up behind me. I turned around. Alcohol, drugs? I nodded my head.
I cringed at the loud music from the stereo the house had blaring. All I wanted was something to drink, and maybe something to make me feel better about myself. I crept through the crowd, trying to avoid as many people as I could. I grabbed a bottle of liquor, and took a big swig of it.
I was handed a bottle of pills. I opened it up, and inside were an assortment of red and black pills. I took two of the red pills, and wandered up the stairs. I took another gulp of the alochol, and my vision became blurred.
Before I could stop her, a girl was dragging me into a room, and locking the door behind her. She took me to the bed, where I plopped down, taking another drink of the bottle of alcohol. She pressed her lips hard against mine, her hands wandering on my chest.
She took the bottle of alcohol from my hand, and then started unbuttoning her shirt. I watched her, my vision getting blurry, and then clear. I could see her mouth moving, but not hearing any words. She took her shirt completely off, then pulled mine over my head.
She pushed me back on the bed, then strattled my hips, leaning down to kiss my lips. Then she started kissing my neck, then down more, and soon she was unbuttoning my pants with her teeth. I could feel myself getting excited, wishing it would just go away. It was just so big, and awful.
"You're so...big," I heard her whisper, her breath feeling warm against my body.
"Oh my gosh," I stood up, making her fall off the bed. I pulled my pants from my ankles, up to my waist, and grabbed the bottle of alcohol before dashing out of the room. I tried to think gross thoughts, wanting it to go away.
.falling.
.home.
