Miriam

Little baby, my sweet little baby
How we all miss you so.
You came here for a purpose
A purpose we don't know.

Could it be that Jesus sent you here
To remind us of his love?
Could it be that you were just born
With a destiny "short-fated" from above?

But now you sleep in angels' arms
As Jesus tucks you in.
Just remember dear sweet Miriam, love,
That our hearts you surely did win.

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When I was 19 weeks pregnant with my first baby, we went in for an ultrasound. That was when they discovered that our baby had cysts on her kidneys and that there was no amniotic fluid. We were referred to a fetal medicine specialist. He diagnosed our baby as having multicystic kidneys. He told us that the thing that concerned him most was not the kidneys, but the lack of amniotic fluid. Without it, he said that the lungs would probably not develop properly and because of that our baby would only live for 10 to 30 minutes after she was born. He then told us that we needed to decide whether or not we wanted to terminate the pregnancy. My husband thought that terminating the pregnancy would be easier to handle; but I knew that if I did that I would always regret it. We had to give our little baby a chance at life. So we continued on with the pregnancy, cherishing every day that we had with our little girl. On December 17,1998, Miriam Sophia was born, she was beautiful; but unfortunately, the problems with her kidneys and lungs were as bad as the doctors had predicted. She died about an hour after delivery as my husband and I held her in our arms. We miss our daughter; and although we were able to hold her in our arms for only a short time, we will hold her in our hearts forever.