the feeling you get when someone says a word
a single word that can change everything
can hurt so deeply
it sits in your chest
the deafening silence waiting to explode
and you keep it there for a very time
knowing that your mistake has caused this barrier to build up
and knowing that only the other can knock it down
it hurts and swells
you feel like dieing yet instead you sit
wuiet with the fake mask of happiness
and the other comes along
eyes raging with hate yours with fear
and they look but do not speak
or just walk by not wanting to know or
letting the explanation out and
your fears seep deeper and deeper away
from your skin into your soul
but from afar you wait watch listen
as the other releases the poison from thier
tongue and you shrink back
not knowing what to do your
greatest fears achieved
you sit in your corner
waiting, watching, listening, hoping...