NEGATIVES:
1. Fat, feeling fat, and being told I'm fat
2. Not understanding the way people's minds work--and wondering if I'm the one on crack because I don't do or think or act the same...
3. Worrying for ___, cos when you don't sleep, you get sick.
4. Wondering if there's a peaceful place for the people I love, and feeling impotent knowing that I can only be a road sign along the way, and not an actual guide.
5. Getting fabulous new shoes...and then having said fabulous new shoes saw through my ankles!
6. Drama, and how in a close knit community, so many people take it upon themselves to stick their noses into things that are none of their business. Come to think of it, that happens outside the community too. Either way, it sucks!
7. having to do this show next week. I am just sick thinking about it
8. truth is, I don't know how I manage to get through each day....
9. oi, my house--dirty laundry, walls, dishes, floors, stuff fucking everywhere...and no strength to do anything about it.
10.my tits

POSITIVES:
1.New shoes!
2.the love of good friends
3.the box is fine
4.paying the phone bill--before a final notice, and with nothing left to pay after bartending
5.how much fun the show is going to be, even if I have to be in it
6.a spiritual epiphany...with visuals!
7.my new shorts!
8.Saturday's me day, and just roaming with nothing more in my head than a few dirty pictures, some story plots and some love
9.a break in the weather today
10.taping a season seven ep of Buffy.