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I finally decided to do it...make a web
page.
It's definately something that i've
never
seen myself
doing...but then again the 'net' has
completely changed the kind of person i
am...from the way i think, to my
feelings and
even having an affect on the kind of
person i
consider myself. I've
been online for a little over a year
now...so
much has happened to me in that short
amount
of time...i've gone to meet two women
from
the
'net'...both of which i love...very
much...one being my best
friend...literally
in the whole world...the other still a
wonderful friend...from my own personal
experiences of meeting someone from
the internet...it hurts like a mother
fucker
if
things don't work out...i've always said
to
myself...'what's life without
risks?'
questions/comments
A Feast of Friends
'if you don't risk
anything, you risk even
more'
'there
is
the risk you cannot afford to take,and
there
is the risk you cannot afford not to
take'
i know a few happy
couples
that have managed
to make things work...amazingly
defeating the
long
distance...not being able to hold each
other...not being able to look into each
other's eyes...that for me
is the hardest part of an internet
relationship...some people scoff at the
idea
of falling in love online...but the
disbelievers don't realise just how
close two
people can come to be...just by
exchanging
emails, talking in chat rooms and
eventually
talking on the phone...after you get to
know
the person you begin to know when
they're
down or feeling like shit...just by the
way
they type or little phrases they
use...in my
opinion this
happens because the people talking don't
see
each other...at first they just see each
other's respective 'handle'...this makes
it
easier to
share oneself...not really caring what
the
other person thinks...'they're just a
name.
i'll never have to talk to them again if
i
don't want to'...eventually opening
themselves up to the other
person...sharing
their ideas...their thoughts...their
feelings
on life...even those
of us that don't open up...myself
included...there are probably a total of
5
people that
know the 'real' me...know how i
think...know
what i think...and are close to me.
which as
one person put it...'scares me'...but i
scare
myself more than i'm willing to
admit...As
time goes by there develops a NEED to
meet to
see each other...to feel each
other...for me
it was something that i had to do...to
look
into her eyes and tell her how much i
love
her...then when
you do meet someone from online face to
face
for
the first time...sometimes having never
seen
each other before...the feeling it gives
you
is simply amazing...when you step off
that
plane, bus or get out of your car...your
heart is beating a million times per
second...then when your eyes meet for
the
first time...you touch...you hold each
other...there is NO feeling so
wonderful...so
beautiful...there are no words that can
describe all the emotions and thoughts
running through your heart and mind...
ENOUGH RAMBLING...i've made alot of
friends
from my time spent
online. I can usually be found chatting
in
the Hang 'Em High Saloon
under the name of Peacefrog...but
i've been known to use other
aliases...Mojo
Risin, Reverend Maynard and Disconnected
are
a few of the others that i'm also known
as...and while
on the subject of the saloon
please check out my friends link to see
my thoughts on a few of you...i promise
not
all of them are bad...well i think thats
enough about me...if you want to learn
more
just click on one of the following
links...i
think you'll find (at least those that
think
they know me) a few suprises...have fun
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