I know that I've made a mistake
I meant it as a joke
But the joke wasn't funny
I never thought
That it would destroy
All of what we had
I've never felt so awful in all my life
As I do now:
Knowing that I could have very well lost you
I guess now isn't the time
to say how much you mean to me
how much I care about you
Or maybe that I'll never forgive myself
for what has happened
I feel so awful
I wish I would have thought beforehand
About how you would percieve my comment
I think I gave you the hint
That I didn't want you to know
Not yet
But I should have realized
That I had given you enough hints before
And that I should have kept quiet
and waited to see where you went from there
I was too eager to tell you
That you were the one I needed
The one to make me feel alright
And well - you know now
I didn't want you to know this way
Especially not if I knew that it would ruin this
I'm so sorry
Please don't think of my stupid mistake
I know that probably can't happen
Because I will never forget
Especially not now
That I think I've lost you forever.
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