It’s Not You, It’s Me!

August 14, 1999

Have any of you ever heard that line......I am not ready for a serious realtionship, but please believe me it’s not you, it’s me. What exactly does that mean? The guy I said I would be writing about for a long time, well this is the last time. Let me explain, I told you how he said I made him a better person, but he said much more things that were just as wonderful as that. And then the other day he weirded out on me. He was begging me to please believe him that it was the way his life was not me. That I was a great person. It is just so strange to me.....I can’t really explain it all here......the only person I feel like I can talk to about it, it is me dear friend Goose. He is such a great listener, only after reading something he wrote I feel like now maybe I should have been a better listener, and for that Goose I am sorry. I know I go on and on about Jeff, Mark, Robert, Chip......(I’ll stop there) and I lately, have not been there for you. I know your thought wasn’t directed exactly towards me, but as I read it I felt guilty of it. So please know this I will try harder to listen to you and from the bottom of my heart......I do love you....perhaps more than I should admit........