Dead on the Inside

Fear rises up inside me
I take a step back from you
But you pull me closer again
And in your eyes I see the anger
Not angry because of me
Or something I did
But you’ll take it out on me anyway
I know what’s coming
You’ll knock me down
You’ll call me a stupid bitch
And tell me I’m worthless
And the more I hear it
The more I believe it
I can’t leave you
I can’t walk away
Not only because you’d follow me
But for fear of what you may do
To me or those I love
So I stay and listen to you
Berating me over and over
I deal with the hits
I deal with the words
Or so I thought
You have destroyed me
I realize now that u affected me
In more ways than I imagined
Affected how I view myself
Affected how I view others
Affected my ability to trust
Affected my ability to love
I’m working on getting it back
But in the process
I have hurt those I care for most
I have pushed them away
And ruined precious relationships
That cannot be repaired
However, I regret nothing
Only because there is no time for regrets
In this life
My only wish is that someone
Does to you
What you have done to me:
Kills you on the inside

KARMA IS A BITCH!!

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