Linda narrating

Hey here we are on uncle Sam's  lands.. hi hi hi.. Man I just gotta pinch myself sometimes to make sure I'm not dreaming. Anyway, Nick just left , the guys had a meeting, to get things ready for the american tour, that is gonna be so  wild.. yeah, but, where was I? oh yeah, me alone on this big ass house, you should see it, it's so beautiful, and the sea.. awwwww, yeah, but, it sucks to be alone, yeah Trish, went back home to Portugal, for some weeks so I guess I'll just make myself home, see what he has on the fridge *opens fridge* hmmm, ok, seems like he is not home for mealsvery much, oh well but yeah I could actually imagine that, but, oh yeah, found some ice-cream, hmm vanilla and chocolate crisps, nice, I wonder if this is still good? who cares? lol

Hmm.. first subject of the day : NICK..
oh Nick, Nick, Nick, can anyone be more perfect? if you are wondering, the answer is NO, I think I'm in love *giggles* but who wouldn't? hi hi
 

Second one:

Trish, ok I don't really think that girl has  realized the big shit she's into, and like me and Nick were talking earlier, it is just not right, just not right... For what I've known of my girl, sometimes she just gets into stuff, without really realizing, I'm sure she doesn't mean  bad, but  .. yeah i gotta have a talk with her. geeh like now I'm the one acting really mature and all, huh? what do you guys think? yeah i know, I don't buy it either.. but well you know I care for her like the sister I never had, and this kid...

Third :

The kid. ok can you actually imagine him? I can't help laughing, I know it's serious shit, but  picture him.. just picture him... well him or her, but let's imagine it is a he.. AJ+Trish=? hmmm .. . i just think I isn't fair for neither of them, and neither for Howie. She always tells me that the last thing she wants to do, its to hurt Howie, but she just doesn't get it, she isn't hurting him right now, but in the end he is the person who is gonna suffer the most, and just look at AJ,  yeah I personally think he is like a bit weird, never got what Trish saw in him, but anyway, there is like this huge shadow on his face, and I don't care what Trish thinks, but I'm pretty sure he just wants to be with her.

Geeh, why do things have to be so complicated?

Well  better just go outside and enjoy this beautiful Florida sun! jealous are you? hi hi hi

**********************

"I think we should just  do a couple of hits from the other albums, and focus more on the new one, what do you think J?" Kevin asked

"Whatever.."

"Whatever?  Hey I'm asking you an opinion, we are a team remember?"

"Yeah.. maybe not for long..."

"what?"

"Shit what do you mean Bone?" Nick asked

"I mean, just look at us, we've been around too long, I just think it's time.."

"Hey, we are still huge on europe" Brian said

"It's time? time for what?" Howie asked

"Time, for we to do our on stuff, I dunno, I'm tired, and who are we kidding? we aren't what we used to be"

"What the hell do you mean?"

"I mean, I'm thinking on going solo" AJ said as everyone gasped

"What's up wit that shit?? what the fuck?" Howie yelled

"Nick wen t  solo, but .." Brian said

"NO, I mean, I'm sorry guys buy I'm sick of being AJ, the backstreet boy"
 

Everyone just stood there staring at him without saying a word.
 

"AJ you aren't serious are you?" Howie asked

"Yeah D, I'm fucking serious"

"Man, where did this came from? I never imagined you felt that way.." Brian said

"Yeah but I do, I didn't expect on telling you this way"

"Hey, man , like we could just talk about it, tell us what is wrong.." Howie said

"D! Just stop, stop being the all nice, just stop that act I'm sick of it," he said as he got up and slammed the door behind him
 

"What the hell was that?" Kevin asked

"It's me, I know it's me, I just can't put a finger of what is bothering him, but I know I got  something to do with it" Howie said

"Nah, I don't think so"  Nick lied

"No i know it is, this meeting is over now isn't?" Howie asked

"Guess so"

"So I'll just get going"

"K, see you later Howie" Brian said as he watched him leave

"Is this the end?" Nick asked

"No way,  I just didn't gave a decade of my life to something, for it just to end this way, no way" Kevin said

*************************************

Trish narrating

I'm home... Strange the way it sounds, a couple of months ago all I dreamed of was to just get away from this place, go and search for myself, but  now I know that they are some things you just can't run of, and this little house with the green windows will always be MY Home, the place were I find confort and peace.

At first it was really hard for me, to just come home, to face my past ,to face that  ME that I had almost forgotten, and worst of all to face my mum, and actually tell her, twll her all that happened.

I know she has always been my confident, the one I trusted more than anything, but I felt like this time apart had like built a wall between us, but some things never change, right? and for the first minute I walked through that door, my mum knew something was just not right, and when she gave me that look, that *areyouhiddingsomethingfromme?* look, I just broke down and told her everything.
It  felt  just so nice to fell the confort  of  those arms, sweet childhood memories came running  back at me while I was on those arms, like the times I climbed the big trees down the street when she had expressly told me not to,  that time when José that guy from school kissed me for the first time, when my boyfriend broke out with me, when Snoopy died, oh yeah by the way Snoopy was my  first dog, he got hit by a car, all the times my heart felt the urge to just rest on those maternal arms.
And this time was  no exception. At first she was shocked, what mother wouldn't  when her daughter just tells you she is pregnant of some guy and marrying one of his best friends?  But, one more time, after confessing she couldn't help felling disappointed, she gave me the same old advice that works whether you need to pick a dress for a party, or to decide what the hell are you gonna do with your life "Just follow your heart!" and with that, and a kiss on my forehead she just asked me to help her in the kitchen coz she was baking some cookies for my little cousin's Baptism.  That's my family, typical portuguese one, everybody helps out.

Pregnant.. pregnant... when I look in my mum's eyes I just see her, my mum, not the woman, just the great mother she is and that she has always been, but what about me?  I don't think I can ever be as half as the mother she is. But it is just so strange, the way that even thought my life is upside down, this child, this baby that  is still growing inside of me, has become all that I can think of...  No AJ, no howie, just this child and what I can she means to me.
As I lay down here in my bed, I picture her, with her little red dresses, running away on the grass, dreaming, dreaming like I once used to dream...
 
 
 

"Letícia I just made some tea, do you want some? And I have chocolate cake, the way you like it" Teresa, Trish's mum called

"No thanks, I don't fell like eating" Trish said as she closed her diary and looked at her mum standing there by the door

"What? now listen, you are eating, you better be downstairs in 5 minutes or you'll get grounded missy, you have a child on there and I'm gonna do everything for it to be a healthy and beautiful child" Teresa said as she walked down the stairs

Trish laughed a little as she got out of the bed and followed her.

Home sweet home...