September 24, 2003.
I can't stop crying because I miss you so much. I loved you with all my heart. You were my life from the time I got you. I miss your little paw caresses at night and the way you snuggled me with your little head.I miss falling asleep hearing your purr and feeling you licking my hand. I miss the way you bobbed your little head when I walked into the room. I just miss everything about you. I miss taking you outside to lay in the grass. I miss you coming into my computer room and meowing for me to pick you up. I so hoped that you would get better. That didn't happen. So now you are in heaven and I hope you are having a good time running and playing like you couldn't here. One day I will be there to see you. Just know that while you were with me that I loved you so much.

September 25, 2003.
My sweet little Rufus. I woke up this morning reaching for you and you weren't there. Then it hit me, you won't ever be there. Yes, I am missing you so much. The pain of losing you is almost unbearable. My heart aches so. Here I am again, wishing you were still with me. I ache to be able to touch you. You loved being touched, just knowing I was there. How I wanted to be able to cuddle you like you would have liked.
The only way I could do that was to get down on the floor with you and lay my head next to you. I loved giving you little kisses. You were so soft. You have the prettiest blue eyes and they were so trusting. I miss those blue eyes. I just miss you so much.

September 26, 2003.
I woke up thinking that I was hearing your little meow calling me. Oh how I wish that were true. Are you trying to tell me something? Are you trying to tell me to let you go? Am I keeping you from crossing the bridge? Cross it Rufus. I'll be there with you one day. You go be happy. Run and play like you couldn't do here. Be happy. I still miss you. Well, Ruf, I think I am coming to terms with you being gone. I only cried a couple of times today. Now don't get me wrong, I still miss you. I'll always miss you. I know it's time to let you go. You are happier now. I think Patches has missed you and so have Tippy and Abby. You'll see them one day too. Not too soon though I hope. I'm not ready for that. Now don't go waking me up in the morning with your little meows. Go play in the grass and run around all over. Go catch a butterfly. You use to watch them and I know you would have chased them if you could have. You can now. So go catch one. I love you little Ruf. I miss you.

September 27. 2003.
Good morning Ruf. Your brother woke me up nuzzling my face with his nose. I let him sleep with me last night. No, he isn't taking your place. No one could do that. He's just keeping me company. Anyway, so far I haven't cried yet. I know, the day is just starting. I still miss you so much. I would give anything to be able to hold you and love you. Wake up to your little kisses. I know that's not possible. Your brother is trying to help. I'm glad he don't do the things you use to do. I want to remember your cute little things and have them be only yours. Did you see that dad put the Rainbows Bridge letter in a frame and put it in front of the pet cemetery? Just remember to have fun and I will see you again some day. I love you my little Ruf-a-duf.

September 28, 2003.
 Well Ruf, it's getting better. I can now talk about you without crying. I still miss you lots. Your rotten brother woke me up again this morning. Too darn early too. Oh well, I don't mind. He's a pretty good kitty too. You were the sweetest though. I hope you are up there having fun and playing with all the other pets. Now don't you be eating all the grass. Save some for the rest of them. I love you Ruf.

September 29, 2003.
Another morning without you. Another morning woken by your ornery brother. This time since I was trying to ignore his nudges, he bit my armpit. Got my attention anyway. Yes, I still miss you. I think of you a lot and hope you are having fun up there. You were the sweetest little kitten I think I have ever had. Just so loving. I miss your little hand kisses and your soft purr. I miss looking into your little blue eyes and feeling the trust you had. There will never be another like you. God made only one, then he broke the mold. You were special. I love you little Ruf. Miss you too.

September 30, 2003.
Hi ya Ruf. How's it going up there? I picture you running around and having a ball chasing butterflies and just exploring everything. I still miss you something terrible. Everytime I go in the bedroom I expect to see you. I know, wishful thinking again. It is getting better. I know the time will come when I don't think of you every single day. That time seems a long ways off though. I love you little Ruf.

October 1, 2003.
Morning again Ruf. Your brother did it again. Woke me up. He insists I get up when he wants me up. Yep, I am still missing you. I think that Patches does too. I think he was looking for you. I'm always looking for you when I walk in the bedroom. Just seems like you should be there waiting for me. Maybe you are there and I just can't see you. You look out for your big brother when he's outside. Ok? I love you Ruf.

October 2, 2003.
Morning Ruf. You were on my mind a lot yesterday. Maybe because Karen sent me a card telling me how sorry she was for my loss. It was time to give you your freedom and in a dignified way. You gave me your friendship and unselfish love. For the short time I had you and I gave you the gift of peace by letting you go gracefully. You were a wonderful little friend. I miss you my little friend.

October 3, 2003.
Morning little Ruf. Your brother spent his first night outside last night. I warned him, he didn't listen. I was super tired and wasn't up to playing find Patches. He was ready to come in this morning though.  So, caught any of them butterflies yet? Or are you chasing rainbows? I miss you. I wonder if that miss will ever go away? I don't think so. I love you Ruf.