" Say anything say anything", Joel closed his eyes tight as he held the mic and finnished his last song. His white wife beater stuck to him tightly. His gray dickies did too. The sweat poured from his face and the crowd cheered them on. It was their last show over seas and they were going back to MD for a while.
"Thank you!", Joel screamed as his brother and band mates touched the fans hands as they ran off the stage. Joel grabbed the white towel that was on a table behind stage and wiped his face off. Benji ran off to the couch which was right behind him.
"That was the best f*cking show we've ever done", Benji sprawled out on the green couch. He moved over a little to let his brother sit. Joel grabbed the two water bottles sitting next to the towels and threw one to Benji.
"Thanks bro", he told him. Joel sat down next to Benji.
"That show was our best I think, and now we get to go back home and I have to face my little b*tch", he stated as he leaned his head back against the couch. Benji was taking off his bandana and hat as he spoke his head was sweating.
"I thought we were done with name calling and on to just f*cking around again?", he questioned his brother about his girlfriend? xgirlfriend? friend? what have ya.
"Benji you know all we do when i come home is argue about f*cking non sense and s*it that never happend she hasn't changed since High School she's jelous of everything I do", he told him.
"Joel she's a great girl and you know it", he told him.
"I know", Joel put the towel around his neck and headed toward the dressing room to get his things so that they could catch their 1am flight to MD from Germany. ~*~
Joel took out his cd player head phones as him and his band were sitting in a 4 person seat on the plane. Joel put in MxPx and leaned his head back on the gray seats with red traingle shapes. They landed in MD they next morning and Billy and Paul went to their homes and Beji and Joel went home to their house. Joel opened the wooden door to his room. He looked around at the white walls with the posters of his good friends and some cars, and hot girls. He looked over by the window to see his bed with his dark blue comforter and sighed. He dropped his bags and layed down on his bed. Benji looked around his dark blue room and over at his bed with the sponge bob sheets and smiled. "I missed this", he thought. Joel woke up around 2:30pm that after noon he looked around his room realizing he was back home. He walked down the white walled hallway to the bathroom. The wall tile was green and the floor was as well. Joel took off his clothes and hopped into the shower. It was so much nicer then taking a shower in a hotel room.
Joel and Benji met up with Billy and Paul in the bowling alleythat night downtown. When ever they came home they loved to just hang out at the bowling alley and bowl play in the arcade etc. They all got a lane and decided to do some bowlinng.
"I missed doing this", Billy said his black hair up in spikes. He was wearing his level 27 shirt and some regular black pants. Paul had his hair black and white and was wearing basically just all black. Benji and Joel were just wearing some MADE stuff and some comfortable clothes.
"Yeah me too", Paul stated as he looked up at the computer to see it was his turn to bowl. Joel let his eyes wander into the arcade to see the girl that completely drove him crazy in a loving way and a f*cked up way. Her dark brown hair with red highlights fell on her face. She was wearing a black NFG tank top and red and black pladded pants with black converses. A boy with a little bit of black spiked hair and side burns who was wearing some dark clothing stood next to her watching her play the game.
"Joel you're up", Benji smacked his brothers arm as Joel snapped out of his trans.
"I am.. opps sorry I was just yeah", he stated getting up towards the lane. He walked up to the thing that holds the balls and grabbed a black one.
"STRIKE", he held his arms in the air and walked toward the guys looking up at his score.
"F*cker your beating me", Benji teased as he watched his brother sit down on the orange chair.
"Well it's becuase im better then......".
"Hi Joel", he heard a voice from behind him say. He shut his brownish eyes and turned his head to the lane behind him. Jina was leaning on a seat diagnal from him.
"Jina", he stated taking a gulp.
"You're back from tour?", she calmly asked looking into his eyes. He was intensley looking into her perfect hazel eyes.
"Yeah we just got back this morning", he informed her. He felt his buddies behind him watching him like a hawk.
"Who's the boy?", he questioned looking over at the young kid setting up the computer.
"Chris, he's a friend of mine we just met over at the bar about a month after you left to go on tour", she told him.
"Oh", Joel felt a little hurt but he was aloud to of course he may be in a rock band but that does't mean he doesn't have feelings. He hated when people thought of him as not sensitive.
"Well then you better get back to him", he told her.
"Yeah", she whispered. She turned away and he saw a tear roll down her cheek. Joel shook his head and came back to reality noticing his buddies were over listening.
"What?", he looked at his friends angrily.
"Sorry", Paul stated as he walked up to the lane to throw his ball. Joel had to bowl next to Jina just about every time he was up he knew she was trying to impress him she hardly even used her flirting on this kid Chris.
"Heiniken please", Joel stated as he walked up to some old man behind the counter at the food place.
"Hey again", he saw Jina's hand placed on the counter next to him. He didn't want to look at her.
"Hi, what do you want?", he questioned.
"I'm waiting for my food, is it a f*cking crime to wait for food in Maryland is there a law thats changed that I wasn't aware of?", she questioned getting a little snippy.
"Jina, God! you always f*cking jump to these conclusions that I'm being sarcastic to you and I'm not I can't stand that about you, I really can't", he told her.
"Here you go, sir, $3.00", the man said. Joel handed the guy $3.00 and walked away. Jina looked down at the orange counter and fought off the tears.
"Hey guys I had a f*cking wonderful time tonight", Joel stated as they were all leaving the bowling alley.
"Thats because you have alcohol in your system, do you really wanna turn out like somebody Joel or are you just f*cking around for fun?", Benji was concerned even tho he knew he was that way as well and that it was fun being drunk but he knew he didn't want to be like his father.
"Why is Dad always brought into our conversations, why can't he stay the f*ck out of them?", Joel questioned his brother stumbling off the side walk.
"Becuase look at you Joel you're a f*cking mess, I admit I love to drink and all that shit but you're turning into him", he said.
"F*ck off", Joel stated as he began walking down the street.
"Where do you think your off to?"
"I need to walk it off", he told him. Benji rolled his eyes.
"Alright boys see you tommorow for a show in MD I love playing here its so much fucking easier then a regular tour date", Benji moaned as he got into his old Thunderbird. Paul and Billy agreed and got into their cars and they all headed home. Benji lay in bed that night looking up at the ceiling waiting for Joel to come home. He heard the door shut. Joel quietly went upstairs and shut the door to his room. He stiped down to his boxers and lay on his bed. After Benji heard his brother come in he decided on falling asleep.
"Looking for the tylenol Joel? it's right here on the table. i unpacked it for ya", he told him. Joel nodded and took a glass and gulped down two tylenols.
"Listen bro Im sorry about last night I just Im looking out for you thats all you know what I mean", he told Joel.
"I know, Im sorry Im an asshole I know I just needed a night of some alcohol".
"You think Jina will be at the show tonight?", Joel questioned.
"I'll make sure that b*tch is there", Benji smiled. Joel laughed.
They were playing at a club down town that night it was where one of their first big shows were and the people who went were basically friends. There were a few new faces becuase they gained some fans as well. The crowd was very warming and welcoming and small. After they performed they kind of all just hung around the place like they used to. Joel sat at the bar drinking.
"She's here", Billy snuck up behind Joel. Billy was Jina's cousin most of the itme when they were younger she was over his house because of her parents.
"She is where?", he asked scanning the room for her.
"Over there by the bathrooms talking to Eddie...", he felt a little numb saying that name. Eddie was Jina's X-boyfriend from when Joel and her weren't talking for a month and a half in High School and he ended up being a drug dealer.
"Why would she be talking to Eddie?", Joel looked over to see the kid. He had long blonde hair and dark bags under his eyes. He handed Jina something and he noticed her giving him some money.
"Oh, that would be not good", Billy stated looking at Joel who was about to run over to them and pounce on Eddie. He got off the stool and headed towards the two of them. Taping Eddie on the shouldure he began his chat off with an attitude.
"What the f*ck are you doing around Jina, Eddie?", he questioned.
"What do you care? you were on tour and things happen and you just need to accept it", he stated flipping his blonde hair. Jina stood behind him.
"Joel stay out of my personal business", Jina stated.
"Your personal business is drugs?", he questioned her with a serious look.
"I thought you'd understand your a rock star now dont you do drugs on the road?", she questioned him.
"F*ck no! I drink yes but drugs not quite. I mean I have tried them just never got addicted. Why are you doing this Jina?", he asked.
"Joel we're over remember? I can do what ever I want stop getting f*cking sensitive on me, where's my old Joel who was cool with all this s*it?", she questioned.
"Hey I was never cool with that shit".
"F*ck yeah you were", she stated.
"Listen dude leave her alone", Eddie stated as he was zoneing out.
"Your coming with me Jina", Joel demanded as he punched Eddie in the face and left him bleeding and he grabbed her arm and took her away from him. He brought her outside in the parkinglot. The only light on was the light over the ramp leading out the back.
"What do you think your doing Joel huh?". Joel put his hands in her jacket pocket and pulled out a bag of marajuana.
"Marajuana great way to f*ck up your life".
"It's already f*cked up Joel you should know that. I thought you were all good with this shit?", she questioned once again. He could tell she had been doing some shit by the way she was acting.
"Jina, yeah for about a year Im over s*it like that you better fucking straighten your life out or else your gonna be the one with a more f*cked up life then you've ever had", he told her.
"You could give two s*its about me", she retorted.
"Actually Jina thats where your wrong I do f*cking care becuase I make a f*cking point to care", he told her as he began to walk back into the club. Joel opened the door to hear her sobbing he turned to see her sitting down in the parking lot with her face in her hands. Joel went inside.
"Jina you there hello who's on the phone?", Joel asked. He had called Jina and he didn't hear anything after someone had picked up.
"Guess your not if your listening I wouldn't mind talking", he asked in a calm voice. He sighed and hung the phone up. He put the phone back on his night table and layed down on the bed. Joel heard the phone ring about 10 minutes later and jumped right at it.
"Hello Jina?", he quickly answered.
"Yes Joel it's me", she hestitated. the voice on the other end sounded all choked up.
"Baby girl whats wrong?", he questioned. He got no answer.
"We can pull through this fight, we haven't spoken in 7 months Im sure we have both changed, if we talk we can make it through this i promise", Joel was getting back to his sensitive side. He hadn't felt this way since he left to go on tour.
"Joel?".
"Yes Baby?".
"im outside your house in my car", she cried.
"Baby stay right there im coming okay?", he caringly stated. Joel hung the phone up and ran outside to see Jina sitting there in her old volvo. He ran up to the car on her side and opened up the door. Jina was looking down at the steering wheel.
"Hey", Joel softley spoke as he kneeled down to her and touched her leg. Jina looked over at Joel which triggered more tears. Joel carefully took her out of the car and carried her into the house. She didn't try to get out of his arms. He was suprised. He brought her up to his room. He sat her down on his bed and he sat next to her holding her hands. Joel wasn't sure what to say or how to start this conversation.
"You know I ment what i said last night all the shit about how I do care about you and what you do, it's not made up im serious about it", he told her looking into her hazel eyes. She just sat there in silence looking up at him.
"Baby talk to me please, if we're gonna get through this you have to tell me how you feel", he told her as he put his hand on her face.
"Joel?"
"Yes?", he replied.
"just hold me please", she asked. Joel willingly took her into his arms and held her as she sobbed.
"Hey Joel", Benji stated walking into Joels room to observe the scene.
"Im sorry man", he stated as Billy came up from behind him. He walked past him and into Joels room and sat down next to them.
"Jina are you going to be okay, your roomate said you tried to kill yourself last night?", Billy was worried about her and needed to ask her that question. He lightly touched her shouldure.
"I need Joel, Billy, he's my life ive been selfish and o f*ck i dont know... I'll be fine as long as I have him", she sobbed.
"Baby im here for you as long as you need me i'll always be here you just need to tell me when your hurting so that I can help you and I promise I'll be here for you, I love you", he told her. Billy knew that was his sign to leave and he did so and got up and him and Benji left them. She wasn't exaclty sure what to say to that. I love you no one in her life has ever told her I love you before. She was scared she didn't want to run out of Joels arms but she didn't want to stay there.
"Thank you Joel thank you", she gave him a big hug.
"Anything for you", he told her. She pulled away from the hug and looked up at Joel. Joel looked caringly at her and took his hand and wiped her tears. She looked into his eyes and gave him a quick kiss on the lips. He followed by taking her into his arms and kissing her more deeply. Jina put her arms around Joel. He brought her down slowly onto the bed and gently. He didn't get on top of her just layed next to her and kissed her.
"Joel can I stay here tonight?", she question.
"Sure but why?", he asked her.
"I feel if I go home I might do something that i'll regret".