~Marie's POV~
~Present Time~
I can't help but sigh whenever I think of him. Ever have that feeling that God is playing a sick game on you? That feeling that everyone is against you, and that you have no true friends left? The only friends I have now are the ones that want things from me, things I don't wanna give up. They want the only thing I ever gave, and I gave it to Joel, my heart.
I mean the guys still love me. Will has to anyway, but I know he cares. Clutch and Josh still carry on with me, but I can see that vague look in their eyes, they love me, but they don't know anything about me, not anymore anyways.
Andrew, Andrew… He says he still loves me, but I don't know if it's the truth, he only says it to keep me safe. I get so frustrated, I'm sitting here only thinking about myself, when I should be thinking about my family, my friends, when I shouldn't be thinking of him, Joel.
They make me stay so I don't get hurt again, whether it's emotionally or physically. I just wish they would learn to trust me again. But then again, I still keep his number with me wherever I go, I always will. I just wish one day I could get the nerve to dial the number, be a woman about it, grow some balls. I still remember the look on his face when he saw Andrew and me.
~1 Year Earlier~Warped Tour~
~SC Set~
~Marie's POV~
Joel, Billy, Paul, Benji and I all sat in the back and watched the Something Corporate set, it was one of their better performances, I would have to say. I watched Andrew intensively as he jammed out on the piano with the various songs, he had always loved the piano.
The guys were giving odd looks when he had helped wheel out the piano, not much piano in rock these days, well there was Coldplay, but I'm getting off the subject…
"Is that a piano?" Joel ask looking at me
"Hell yeah, what would rock be without a piano?" I asked jokily
I watched the guys say thanks to the crowd and walk off stage, I ran up and gave Will a big hug, and the rest of the guys too. I hadn't noticed that the GC guys had followed me up. I walked over to Andrew, and gave him a bigger hug, and a more `meaningful' kiss. I could feel the hot stares on my back. It didn't bother me though, and my guys had already become use to our public shows of affection, I mean I'm 18, can't I decide what happens in my life anymore?
As Andrew released I introduced the guys.
"Guys this is Good Charlotte, Benji, Billy, Paul and Joel." I said, when I happened to say Joel's name he seemed to snap back into reality.
"Guys, this is Something Corporate, Will, Clutch, Josh, Brian and Andrew." I said
After talking for quite a bit, all the guys decided to hit the town. GC had already performed earlier that day, and everyone just wanted to have fun. I felt bad though, something was bothering Joel, I could tell.
We arrived at a local club called `Moon's Desire' at about 11:30, still plenty of time before final call. Even though I wasn't old enough to drink, Clutch would sneak me a beer or two.
Clutch and I had been best friends since he had formed a friendship with Will. He was like my carefree, cooler, older brother. Him and I were always jamming on our basses. He had taught me how to play when I was 15.
The guys and me all sat at a large table in the corner, far from the bar so I didn't get in trouble for drinking. The guys from GC found us and we all sat around talking and drinking. This was a year ago, so if I think correctly, Billy and I were the only ones who weren't aloud to drink `legally' but it didn't matter, we still had fun.
After about two beers I began looking around for Andrew, I wanted to dance. When I spotted him I wanted to hit him. He was over by the bar, talking and laughing with some random girl. I felt like my heart was gonna break, but that wasn't going to ruin my night. I looked over at Joel and saw he was looking at me.
"Mud Boy," I said using my newfound nickname for him, "Dance with me."
He grinned his beautiful little grin at me, we both got up from the table and went to the dance floor. I grinned as I heard the familiar sound of the Stones come over the speakers. I loved this song, "Sympathy For the Devil." Joel and I began to dance, I'll admit it, the theory proves right, white boy can't dance. But he tired and I loved him for it. After that KC and Jo Jo's `Crazy Crazy' (AN: I think that's what it's called…) song came on. Joel looked at me, pleading eyes crying to me. I got closer to him and put my arms on his shoulders, his arms around my waist. That was possibly the moment the sparks flew. In my moment of glory I made my one mistake, I looked back over at the bar, Andrew had his hand on the girl's leg. My guys hadn't noticed, and probably wouldn't. I let out a loud sigh, Joel pulled away a bit and looked at me.
"What's wrong?" he asked
I showed him the direction of Andrew. "My Knight in Shinning Armor got tarnished his suit." I said
Joel pulled me closer to him. I let his cologne intoxicate me, he smelled so good. He let his hands slip to my back, he rubbed the small of my back. That was when I made the leap, when I fell. Joel had slipped me into his world, where he gave me feelings I hadn't known in some time, wanting. Somebody wanted me. Somebody loved me for me.