My love so undying
So pure and wonderful
Yet feeling alone and unreturned
The consequences of my deeds
Tainted the beautiful love
It wrenches at my heart
And pains me so
How do I fix, the damage I have done?
Is there a way?
Or is all hope gone?
My guilt and sorrow eats at my soul
Hopelessness and distraught
My heart is screaming
What do I do?
My foolish mind tells me
To pay it no mind
But how can I not!!
It screams so loud and pains my soul
The web that I weave
Has grown so large
I do not know how to untangle it
It keeps me from my love
And tears my heart in two
I cry for help, yet no one hears
I am drowning in my own sea of faults
Slowly drowning and no one to pull me out
Everything is slowly slipping away
I have come to a dead end
And I cannot find my way back
I want to get back though
But I cannot do it alone
My heart is still screaming
What do I do?
Time stands still
And pains my heart
I’m in my own world
A world that is standing still
Everything is meaningless and worthless
I push on
Yet time seems to stop me
I try to keep hope
And I push on
I try to be strong
But I find that I am not
I want to scream
Scream and cry
Why is everything wrong?
I look at my life
And fall into a deep depression
The cold air
Chills what is left of my soul
The pounding pain
In my chest
I lie on the cold smooth ground
My breath deep and calm
Looking up, so dizzy
I close my eyes
And feel a warm wetness on my cheeks
My whimpers gradually increase
Thoughts run wildly
The mind can not control
Why, Why?
My body falls limp
Nothing
I want you
I need you
Like I have never needed anyone before
Nothing can compare to you
You have filled my soul
With endless happiness
The thought of being without you
Kills me
I smile
Because of you
I strive
Because of you
I see the world
In a different light
And it makes me happy
No one can compare
To the love that I have found
My day has meaning
I have some thing to look forward to
No more mindless wandering
I miss you
I miss your gentle kiss
Your loving touch
The look you give
To let me know I’m loved
I miss the “I love you’s”
And the “forever, we’ll be together”
“You are beautiful”
you used to say
“You are the best”
“No one compares”
My heart misses all of that
And I want it back
I need it back
I need your love
I hate myself
For changing your sweet soul
I would give my life
To go back to yesterday
Live and learn
And I have
But no one told me
That I only had one chance
Without you
My life is over
I can’t let go
I can’t move on
You are my universe
I don’t know
If you meant all that you said
But I know I did