Alexis paced the small the corridor of the apartment building she was in. her skin was itchy, her eyes were watery, and she felt overwhelmingly nauseous. She just prayed she could talk her into it.
V came walking up rubbing her hand on her collarbone, her nose scrunched up. She looked almost as equally stressed out as Alexis. She gave her friend a small tired smile as she met her in front of her door. "I am sorry, I was late. Had a long interrogation with this kid who thinks he knows everything. Stole his neighbors car."
Alexis nodded. "I know the type."
"That is right, you defend them." V said with a friendly grin. "What was the emergency?"
"I am desperate, V." Alexis stated her voice full of drama.
V looked at her oddly, wondering if some cheesy dramatic music would come piping through the vents of her apartment as they walked in. "How do you mean?"
"Jax thinks he wants to get to back together with me, but he doesn’t. He is in love with his son. He is in love with an ideal….and I need you to distract him. It is very important to him that you two get back on track as friends. And I think, that if you and he spend enough time together, I can avoid him and his…" She trailed off giving V a knowing look. "Will you!" She asked a bit too loudly, after V just stared at her wide eyed.
V shook her head. "Alexis, I don’t see how re-establishing or friendship, and trying to rebuild it back to something close to before, will stop Jasper Jacks, from using his blue eyes, and cleft chin to charm is way into your heart. And its not like he ever left. Why are you so sure, he is deluded in his love for you?"
Alexis sighed. "I knew you would just say no. I knew it. Do you know of any available women who fit his type? I can set him up."
"Alexis!"
Alexis laughed. "I sound madly insane don’t I?"
V nodded a laughing smile curled on her lips.
"We don’t work."
"Why?"
"He is so family oriented. Family, Lover, Risks, Fun. Those are his by laws, the words he lives by, the way he lives. I can’t do Family! And it is the most vital thing to him. He loves combining it with Fun….he is totally in love with his son. He only loves the idea of me, JK and him. Not really me. I just don’t do family well…I am never around. Always working, I am an awful mother."
"You are not!" V said adamantly. "JK adores you. You are amazing with him, the two of you have beautiful mother and son connection."
Alexis shook her head, and muttered a thank you. "V….please help me keep him distracted from romancing me? Please…..hound him a lot about the murder."
V sighed. "I can not and will not hound him about the murder, unless I have too. And Alexis, I don’t think *I* can distract Jax from something he wants. I couldn’t before when we were best friends, how could I now!?"
"He loved you and needed you more than he knew then, and still does now." Alexis stated. "V, just help, doesn’t Alex have any female friends he could set Jax up with. Double date, maybe? You and Alex aren’t totally committed yet right? Date Jax maybe."
V blushed and looked away. "Alexis…it won’t work, and I will not do it. I will re-establish my friendship with Jax, but I am not going to keep him from charming you if that is what he wants."
"He deserves a woman who can do family."
"You do family!"
Alexis sighed. "He deserves better, V."
~~~~~
Alex Garcia smiled as he opened the door to V’s apartment, she made him giddy. He had never in his life felt such admiration and passion for one woman. He handed her the small bouquet of daisies he was holding and kissed her lightly on the lips. "You ready to talk."
V sighed, her shoulders tensing up again, her headache suddenly returning. "I don’t know."
"V?"
"I can’t move in with you Alex."
Garcia fought back his disappointment at her loud blurt. "Okay then why don’t we make a commitment to date only each other." He said his mouth dry, feeling lost and totally fearful he was about to be dumped.
V looked away. "I don’t date anyone else, anyway, Alex. I am a one man, woman. How I am cut out. Loyalty is what it is…I am just not sure where we are going? And if I learned anything from my experience with Simon is you can not force life to take you where you want to go. I feel more deeply about you than I ever did about Simon Prentiss, Alex, I truly do, but I have some things, some baggage I guess from that relationship, that I have to tell you."
Alex nodded, feeling hope rise up to his heart.
"I slept with Simon, way too fast. I thought I could make myself feel more for this truly wonderful man, I was out to sea with. If I fought my fears about intimacy. I really thought, that was the only reason I was balking inside about making love to him. But after I felt empty…and empty. The more I denied that something was missing with Simon, the emptier I felt. Simon, is a very astute man, Alex. He noticed. We parted as best friends. I just couldn’t love him, and I rushed into this committed total romance, for a lot of wrong reasons. Jax, Ned and Alexis were right. I needed to realize I was desirable, and could be loved and coveted. But it didn’t mean it had to be the first man who wanted to give me those gifts. Love has to be from your soul, and completely mutual. I know I feel more for you than any man I have ever met, Alex…I know you want to covet to me, live with me, make love with me and breakfast for me. But I don’t know yet what my heart feels completely. We can up the stakes of our connection, our dating can be made known at the precinct, like they don’t already know. But moving in with you and making love with you. I just am not ready yet. I know we have been dating awhile now. And if think I have had enough time…."
"So I will have to court you longer and bit more intensely. I’ll just have to romance the socks off of you Venus." Alex whispered to her pulling her into a tight hug. "I love you."
To be continued…..
