Letter to God

Dear God, Why me? Why did you have to take my babies? I don't know what reason(s) you could possibly have for taking them. It seems so cruel. What did I do wrong? I feel like such a failure as a person, as a mother, as a wife, and as a daughter. It's a terrible feeling. You've shattered my hopes and dreams. My dreams of having a family have been completely destroyed. I have to carry the burden that I probably won't be giving my parents any living grandchildren. I keep telling myself that they're better of in Heaven with you (and in my heart I know that's true). I know that you're taking very good care of them. It may be selfish of me to want them here, but I just miss them so much. If your plans for me don't include having a family on earth, then why did you give me the babies and then take them so soon? Don't get me wrong. I mean I'm glad that I was able to experience being pregnant (I know that some people don't even get that), but it just hurts so much God, please continue to take good care of my babies. Give them hugs and kisses for me, and tell them that I love them (even though I know they hear tell them that all the time). Heather Written August 11, 1998 by Heather A. Koch-Mesmer In Loving Memory of Gerald Joseph Mesmer, born still on July 22, 1997 and My Second Angel, taken at approximately 7 weeks gestational age in July, 1998 "Home" "Without You" by Mariah Carey