Do I ever want to quit harming myself? I am not sure to tell you the truth. It is my main coping mechanism. If I can't cry, what else am I to do? I hit people, I harm myself, and I write.

I have been SIing an awful lot the past few weeks. My cuts are getting deeper and I have had to use butterfly closures more. I used to cut this bad when I was 16 or 17. I am reverting back to it and it scares me.

I tend to my own wounds. I use butterfly closures (or I make my own) and I have medical tape handy. The tape can be used to close a wound quite well. I simply cut the tape (or an Elastoplast band aid) into strips and put it on the wound, closing it as I would with a steri strip or butterfly. I use Polysporin, Neosporin, or any other antibiotic cream/gel on it to keep infections at bay.