i need help can you help me, i need to know that everything will be ok. i need you o tell me you love me and that nothing can change between us even if things change outside of us. because you're in side me you knwo me you love me, at least thats what you say. and when you kiss me do you savor it or does it fly away like the bird you scare when your playing with that gun? I've given up so much for you and i don't think you realize that i'd give up more, because i love you and even if you won't admit it you love me too in your own unable-to-show-emotion kind of way. you laugh and cried with me and it was fine but then all this shit happened and your gone and i'm left here doing nothing but writing this sappy love shit about what could have been and should have been and i know it won't happen but i have to pretend it will anyway just too keep my sanity at above normal level. don't play these games with me please because i hurt and it aches to know that your not here anymore even when you lie and say you are. i'm not stupid i knwo your not. no matter what you tell me or where you touch me its a feeling not a real emotion and it comes and goes just like you come and go. when your with me you act liek everythings like it used to be but i know its not because you touch and go, not like before when we'd laugh and have fun and nothing else would happen until we both agreed now you don't care if i say yes or no you just do it then you run off to be with your friends and come back when you get bored or they ditch you. I hate it and i hate you but i love you and it hurts me and i wish i could tell you but you'd only laugh and say 'don't worry baby' and tell em to smoke some more ,it'll make me feel good and i always listen to you because i think you're always right even though i know you don't know shit. why do i have to be in love with you when i have someone else who i can't love because they love me. i always have to love someone who is this sadistic creep but doesn't know thats what they are, because deep inside i love you because i knwo the real you, i know the you that used to be before anything happened, the you that would hold me and tell me everythings ok even when it wasn't. thats the you i love, i just can't bring myself to get over that that you isn't there anymore.
Inside Me
Unearthly Behavior
