you made it to my angst page, does that make you feel special? do you like to be the one to break the hearts then tell others i broke yours? i know you know what you're doing is wrong and right now you may not care but you will one day, when someone finally does it to you and you're in the position i'm in now, alone and running scared, not knowing what i did or what i said to turn you so cold so fast. knowing i didn't do anything, your just so full of bullshit it flows out your eyes. tell me to whine and tell me to cry, i will. you know i'll always do whatever you say, because you're the goddess, i was the one who didn't deserve you. you know who you are, i don't think we have to tell thwe world. do you lay awake at night and scheme ways to hert me? lies flow out of your mouth like the lyrics to your favorite song, you don't think before you speak. you hurt me deliberatly, and you turn it around, blame it on me, make me suffer while you run around and smile and laugh like theres no tomorrow. live it up right? its not like i'm a real human.
i'm real. you may not see me, or have anyway to know as of here, but i am real. i have feelings and they can be hurt. you used to trick me, playing the game where'd you turn it around and make me feel like i was in the wrong. i sure was the naive one there. thinking it was real no matter the distance. thinking you meant the words you swore over and over, believeing you when you told me it was true love. that we were meant to be, and you wanted to make us 'real'. that you wanted to be with me forever. do you tell that to everyone? or am i the lucky one. i feel sorry for anyone who loves you, they're bound to be paralyzed just as i was. they'll see the real you finally, but by then it'll be too late and they'll be stuck, just as i was. and let me tell you it took a swift kick in my ass to realize that you're a nobody, a fake. you're lifes built on fantasy, anyone can see that. you'll lie to anyones face, you've lied to mine more than i could count. anything to look like the leper.
i may be the weak one, i may be the one who can't handle reality. but i'm the one whos proved to be real. you may have your friends, and live in your fantasy world, but i can see right through you like a window now. who cares about her? you say. who cares about her heart? shes a nothing, thousands of miles away. i'm never gonna have to face her, i'll play with her when i'm bored. i cought onto your game. you just ran out of quarters baby.. game over.
