it was ok at the time. it was perfectly fine for you to turn around and walk away, out of my life, not giving a damn about how it would make me feel. when you told me, your eyes were cold and blank and you spoke in monotone, avoiding my eyes. i couldn't stop the tears, do you remember? i thought i might have seen a hint of the old you when our eyes met, but you looked away too quickly for me to be sure. then you turned around and left, and i was alone.
i was ok. time passed and i moved on, but once in awhile i'd see you across the lot, or at a party and our eyes would meet and i'd miss you more than ever. i couldn't show it though. i had to prove to myself and to you, that i was stronger then you thought. but then you came back in a flurry of smiles laughter and bright eyes, making my head spin. after the initial shock had worn off, i didn't know what to do. i had loved you..i still did love you, but my heart was weak and i couldn't stand to watch you walk away again. the promises you made seeped into my head, leaving me dizzy. i kept my distance from you, but you pushed yourself back into my life, heart and mind.
you were amazing - even though i tryed to stay away, you left me breathless. you're eyes haunted me whenever you wern't there. your smiles, your touch.. took my breath away, making my head spin out of control. you made promises, promises to stay, of real love and us being meant to be. once again i fell, believeing your convincing words. i needed you, you were the only thing that made me feel alive. you're promises wern't enough, you had to make it real. you already held my heart, but were too reluctant to give me yours. i waa scared you'd run away again.
inside me
