Don't Speak


Title: Don't Speak 1/1
Author: Lyndy [1/2 of the Goddesses of Daedalus]
Email: MonAmi989@juno.com
Summary: None
Spoilers: 'The rise and fall of Eddie Fiori' and 'Cabin in the woods'
Notes: Archon is not dead. The Brujah chair at the
Conclave table is still vacant.
Disclaimer: Not Mine. No copyright infringement intended. The characters belong to the Spelling entertainment group and White wolf, I make no money from them. The lyrics to 'Don't Speak' belong to No Doubt off their album 'Tragic Kingdom'. I make no money off that either. Feedback: Definitly. Please send it I love hearing what you listmates think :)

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In Cash's secret apartment

Sasha sat on the bed wishing she hadn't come here. *Why does he do this to me?.... Why does he push me away?* Sasha thought. *Damn Him!* Tears rolled down her face as she got up went to the CD player, and flipped it on, putting the No Doubt CD.

You and me
We used be together
Every day togerther always

Just at that moment she heard the door close. Getting up Sasha went to see who it was. It was Cash in all his glory. In his black leather jacket, hid olive green three button shirt, and black jeans.

"Sasha?.... what are you doing here?"

"Nothing, just leaving." Sasha answered suddenly angry that he asked such a question. Like it wasn't painfully obvious.

I really feel
I'm losing my best friend
I can't believe this
Could be the end.

Sasha grabbed her leather jacket, off the chair by the bed. Making a rush for the door, only to be stopped by Cash who grabbed her by the arm.

"Sasha, wait."

"Wait for what?.... for you to push me away. Wait fot you to hurt me?"

"Sasha I-"

"You what?.... you're sorry.... well that doesn't cut it any more Cash."

"Sasha, I know you've been crying." Cash said cradling he face in his hands.

"Gee, what gave you your first clue." replied Sasha who pulled away from him

It looks as though you're letting go
And if it's real,
Well I want to know.

"And I know it's cause of me, but Sasha you have to understand. If I don't push you away my Gangrels will raise against me, and I'll lose my role as primogen. I don't want that to happen."

"Do you think I care?.... I don't.... the only thing I care about is you..... and it hurts when you push me away, and then that love I have for you makes me want to kill you."

"I'm sorry."

"Damn it Cash!, why couldn't you be Brujah?"

"Sasha, we can't change what we are.... you know that..... I would've made you Gangrel....if those damn Brujah pigs hadn't gotten here-" Cash was suddenly cut off by a hard punch to the face. Cash rubbed his face for a short moment; then brought his fist up to back hand her, but stopped short; and addecd through gritted teeth and glowing eyes. "Get out! Get out now!!, or so help me."

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts

"Cash, I'm so sorry I didn't mean-"

"Yes you did Sasha. Don't speak to me I don't want to hear it, I don't need your reasons. Don't tell me 'cause it hurts, cause it hurts me too, now I said get out!" Cash fumed as he pushed her out the door. Now alone in his apartment did Cash cry. He didn't want to hurt her, didn't want to push her away but he had too, and they both knew it.

Our memories
They can be inviting
But some are altogether
Mighty frightening

*Well how right are those lyrics?* Cash thought. Some memories he never wanted to forget, like the first time he and Sasha kissed. And others he just wanted to forget. Like what just recently happened that he definitly wanted to forget.

As we die, both you and I
With my head in my hands
I sit and cry

*Cash you stupid ass, you love 'er and you know you do so go apologize* Cash said silently to himself. with that in mind he set out to find her.

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts

He made it all the way to Julian's compound, nearly killing himself and others in the process of drivng there. He sprinted up the front steps, and inside the Luna manison. He nearly knocked Archon to the floor rushing up the stairs to Sasha's room.

"I'm sorry Archon, I see didn't you."

"It's all right Cash, have you come to see Julian?"

"No, actually I came to see Sasha.... is she here?"

"I haven't seen her, you may want to check her room." Archon answered.

Cash nodded and continued to head up the stairs at a slower pace. Archon shook his head ruefully as he thought *Kids. Just like Roemo and Juliet.*

As Cash rounded the corner he noticed that her door was open a crack. Opening the door and stepping into the doorway.

"Sasha? Sasha, I came to-" Noticing the room was empty he entered.

Looking around the disheveled room he noticed a note picking and sitting down her bed read it:

Cash~

I'm sorry I didn't mean to hurt you. I love you..... you probably came to Uncle Julian's to apologize I would love to hear it. But you're right. We can't change what we are, I'm Brujah you're Gangrel.... No matter how much I want to change that I can't. You can't. And we both know it. Like the lyrics say

It's all ending
I gotta stop pretending who we are....
You and me
I can see us dying.... are we?

I love you Cash, that will never change. But I'm tired of fighting with you. Of fighting everything. I have to stop pretending, and be what I am. A Brujah. I'm sorry I know this hurts you. I never meant to. Cash this 'us' this thing that have we will never die in our hearts. But it is dead to the outside. I'm sorry.

Yours always,

~Sasha

When Cash was finished reading he folded the note and put it into his inside jacket pocket. he then left Sasha's room shutting the door queitly. Exiting the mansion Cash mounted his bike and rode off into the shadows.

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts

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I know this one's kinda short. But I didn't know how to end it. Hey Morag this one's to you babe, at your request for more.

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