Fear is not the End
Author's Note: The fourth and final part of the series starting with "Not to
be Great." But don't worry, I'm not going away. It's too much fun to
torture Cameron. Be expecting a new series, in this universe. Soon. (Soon
being relative… It'll be here before the continents crash together again.
Definetely.)
Summary: Cameron and Daedalus meet again after the argument.
Rating: PG/PG-13 SLASH
Disclaimer: Not mine. Whimper, whimper. Whine, whine.
Cameron was halfway to the pier when he sensed the familiar presence
trailing behind him. It was a dismal day, even by the standards of San
Francisco. The sky was dark gray, scowling with the promise of rain. To
his left, the waves rolled, even blacker than the sky. A brisk wind whipped
them into their massive peaks, even as it cut through his light jacket and
slacks.
That was perfectly fine with Cameron. The nasty weather drove people
back into their houses, leaving him alone on the beach. He had been
stalking down the beach, thinking, in perfect solitude. Until now.
Footsteps crunched vaguely in the distance. At the edge of his hearing,
he could make out the faint rustle of a cloak. More reliably, his sensitive
nose could pick up the scent, a pungent mixture of paint and herbs, that
tinged the sea air. There was little doubt in his mind as to where the odor
originated.
He continued to pick his way down the shoreline, ignoring his companion.
It wasn't that he wanted to send the other packing with his silence.
Cameron had known Daedalus too long to believe in that particular tactic.
Rather, he was just so tired, he wasn't up to acknowledging the
Nosferatu's presence. Experience had also taught him that Daedalus
wouldn't make the first move. He'd follow Cameron into eternity, stalking
him more closely than the Brujah's own shadow, but he'd never force an
encounter, a fact for which, right now, Cameron was extremely grateful.
They walked across the damp sand in silence. Daedalus never came
closer, but neither did he fall behind. Cameron plodded steadily forward,
shoulder hunched against the wind. The pier rose up in front of him like a
monolith in the distance. Years of exposure had bleached the wood a
sickly gray. Barnacles and seaweed clustered around the bottoms of its
pillars. Aside from them, the only creatures occupying the pier were a
bent figure with a fishing rod and a seagull, plump with many discarded
lunches. Neither seemed to care about the two ragged figures closing in
on their perch.
For some reason, their presence made Cameron feel even more alone. He
was- obscurely, confusingly, desperately- glad that Daedalus was out
here as well. There was something comforting in his silent presence.
Unintentionally, he took a deep breath of the chill air, trying to distill more
of the other vampire's scent. His ears cocked of their own accord to pick
up the creak of his boots.
As they crested a slight rise, Cameron abruptly whirled around. A few
steps behind him stood Daedalus, characteristic blank expression firmly in
place. With a sigh, Cameron plopped down onto the gritty sand beneath
him. Having seen Daedalus, he couldn't pretend he didn't exist anymore.
For a moment, Daedalus froze in place, dark even against the black
waves. Cameron stared directly into the Nosferatu's eyes and shrugged.
Join me or don't, his expression said, it doesn't matter to me.
Daedalus gave him a slight nod and approached the sitting Brujah. In a
rustle of fabric, he had seated himself beside Cameron. Together, they
stared out over the ocean. Cameron could feel the tension bleeding out
of his shoulder. Even the damp soaking into his slacks didn't dispel the
strange feeling of peace that came over him. Beside him, Daedalus
exhaled slightly. He tipped his bare head back to look at the sky above
them. Cameron did the same. The clouds were too thick for him to see the
stars. Even the moon only lent a faint glow to air around it.
"All seems kinda pointless out here, don't it?" Cameron let the words slip
from his lips. He hated to break the spell, but he had to inject reality back
into the proceeding. Better to do the inevitable banishment now than
later, when the loss would hurt more.
Daedalus turned his head slowly to look at the Brujah. His eyes, usually
so sharp, were unfocused. "No, never pointless… " a small smile
appeared on his face, "but forgettable… at least for a time."
His words shocked Cameron fully back into reality. As much as he wanted
to, his eyes traced Daedulus's cloaked form, he couldn't allow himself to
forget the way things. Not even for a short time. Because if he allowed
himself to this one time, he shook his head, he might never want to
remember. He turned away from his companion. He couldn't forget his
grudge with Luna, not for anyone. To do so would be to betray everyone
the Ventrue Prince had killed at Manzanita, and they didn't deserve that.
He drew up his knees and buried his head in his arms. Some of the
awareness came back into Daedulus's eyes at his action. One thin brow
arched over his wrinkled forehead. Still, he kept the peace, content to
simply observe Cameron.
Finally, under the weight of unmitigated attention, Cameron turned back
around. His eyes traced the ground near his feet.
"What are you afraid of?" Despite Daedulus's gentle tone, Cameron's
head shot up.
"I'm not afraid of anything." His tone was defensive. He took a deep
breath and closed his eyes. "This isn't gonna work."
"This?"
Cameron opened his eyes and rubbed his left temple. "This. You know."
He made a universal gesture. "Us."
Daedalus cocked his head. On his face, curiosity warred with some other,
more complex emotion. "What is there about "us"?"
Cameron's stomach lurched. In the same instant, he realized his own
feelings and encountered the doubt that Daedalus might not share them.
His disgust at his own weakness and stupidity laced the already volatile
combination of emotions. It was a sobering mixture. All of his earlier calm
vanished.
"Us… we…", he cast about for an appropriate word, waving his hands
absently. "I don't think we can be friends."
The Nosferatu chuckled. "No, I don't think we will ever be friends." His lips
cocked up in a tiny grin. "But right now, we are very close enemies."
Cameron studied him closely. He knew what Daedalus had said, but he
wanted to be sure he got the right interpretation. What it sounded like-
to be perfectly honest- was a come-on. In fact, he hoped, despite himself,
that it was. But, if it wasn't, then Cameron didn't want to make expose
himself in that way. He would have to tread carefully.
"They say you should hold your friends close and your enemies closer…"
He kept his tone carefully light.
"That is not so difficult. I have few friends. Julian is quite taken with the
lovely Caitlin and Cash," he made a face of mock disgust," is not someone
I would want to hold too tightly to my body. He has a distinct odor." The
Nosferatu wrinkled his nose.
His comical expression was too much. Cameron laughed. Cash had a
thing for cheap, musky, aftershave. He splashed it liberally all over his
body. To the vampiric nose, it ranked somewhere in between rotting food
and room spray. Even Sasha complained about it sometimes. Usually in
high pitched, loud, tone of voice.
"That's no odor. That's a bloody legal dependent." Cameron grinned.
"Good to hear that I don't have competition."
Daedulus gave him an odd look. "I am not sure you want the prize…" his
voice trailed off, masked by the crashing of the waves.
"Depends on whether or not it's a good prize." Cameron struggled to
keep his voice steady. It wouldn't do to give away the game now. He had
to be sure before he took the leap of faith.
"Some would welcome it. Most I think," Daedalus turned his head away,"
would not." His shoulder slumped a little.
To his surprise, and chagrin, Cameron felt his throat tighten at the
Nosferatu's dejection. His emotion overcame his good sense. Before he
could think about he, he had his arm around Daedalus's shoulders. Under
the cloak, the Nosferatu was solid and muscular. A slight heat radiated
from him.
"In that case, it's a good thing that Brujah tend to be a little… different…
than most."
Daedalus turned to look at him. His face was tight until he glimpsed
Cameron's expression. Then the tension slowly faded away. Most of the
wrinkles disappeared and a smile twitched on the edges of his lips.
"Different, Cameron, does not begin to describe it." And with that, he
leaned in and laid his lips against Cameron's.
The Brujah started at the sudden contact, but then eased into the kiss.
You're crazy, he berated himself. It'll never work. You're just setting
yourself up for… he smacked himself mentally. Because right now, in the
moon light, holding Daedalus in his arms, it just didn't seem to matter.
Rori watched the Primogens embrace. Cash had been right. There was
something up with those two. As quietly as possible, he stowed his rod in
it's leather case. Then, he stood gracefully, movements honed by vampiric
blood and martial arts training. On silent feet, he glided off the peir, back
towards the Prince's manner. It had been an interesting evening. His
Primogen would think so too. And so would Prince Julian. Knowing that his
most trusted advisor was even now clenched in a lip lock with his most
hate enemy would interest the Prince very much indeed.
Finis
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