It was July 30th a hot summer day. It was a Friday so my mom stayed home to be with Michelle and I. We all decided to go to Truro for the day, so Michelle and I could look for school stuff. We didn’t get anything because there wasn’t anything.
It was mid-afternoon and we all decided that we would leave and come home. When we got home there was a white car in the driveway. Just three weeks before hand Donavan went to the bank to get a loan for the car. The car was his dream car, which he had got himself. And proud that he owns it.
We walked in through the door and the dogs started jumping around so happy to see us home. I walked into the bedroom and Donavan was on his bed asleep or he looked asleep. He opened his eyes and told me that “some chick called.” I asked him if he had got who it was and he said he didn’t. I went online to check my e-mail. I didn’t have any so Donavan and I just talked.
While we were talking I was asking him questions of how it was like to do the Swiss Air plane crash. He told me that he would never do it again. He told me the things he had found, which really grossed me out. But then I was asking him how it was like working with the Refugees. He said it was cool and they were nice people.
My mom came in and asked if we wanted to go to Kennetcook with her. I said I didn’t want to, but Donavan said he would. When they left the house I was still in my bedroom. I called the person that I thought called me. It was my girlfriend that had called.
Ashley my girlfriend and I talked on the phone until Michelle, Donavan and mom got back. They had got pizza for supper so that is what we ate. After I was finished eating I called Ashley back. About 5:30-6, John had came up and asked Donavan if he wanted to go to a party. When there really was no party but we didn’t know that. Donavan had said he would go. Just before they left John had asked me if I wanted a job at the mill he was working at. I said yes.
Just as Donavan and John were walking out the door my dad said to have fun. I heard Donavan say “Yeah I well see you tonight.” Those were the last words that I heard him say.
I was still talking to Ashley and I told her that a guy was going to try to get me a job of where he worked for eight bucks an hour.
It was now about eight o’clock and I am now off the phone with Ashley. I now was online talking to some people. I got off at ten and went to bed.
It was four o’clock in the morning. I didn’t know what was going on but I heard my sister scream. That is what woke me up. I got half dressed and ran to Michelle’s room of where she was crying. I asked her what was wrong. She couldn’t tell me anything but she said “It’s Donavan.” I asked her what about him and she couldn’t tell me. I sat beside her on her bed and held her and let her cry. She used my shoulder and like five minutes later my mom walked into Michelle’s room crying. Michelle and I both looked at her when I know the hardest words came out of her mouth. The words that she said were “Donavan was killed.”
Those words really surprised me. I really didn’t know what to do. We all stood up and I started to cry. Mom, Michelle and I all hugged while we were crying. But by this time we were in my room. After about two minutes mom left Michelle and I alone. I went online and told all the people that I talk to that I wouldn’t be on for a couple of days and if I was I wouldn’t feel like talking.
Right after I sent that messages, I received one from my uncle who lives out in B.C asking me what happened and what was wrong. I kind a hesitated because I didn’t know if I should tell him or not. I asked my dad to tell him and he said yes because he would need to know. I told him that Donavan was killed in a car accident. It took him about two minutes to reply back. When he messaged back he I think thought I was joking. He told me that he would call in a couple of days. I told him to call now. It was five minutes later when the phone rang in the kitchen and it was my uncle.
After I told him and he called that was when the chain reaction all started. All of my aunt’s and uncle’s were calling to see if it was really true and if there was anything that they could do. It wasn’t even two hours after we found out that the family was there.
I had to work that day, but I called the guy at 5:30 and told him I couldn’t work. He didn’t ask me why but I know he could tell that there was something wrong just by my voice.
While my family was coming I really could not deal with anything. I left the house and went for a walk. I got back there were more cars in the driveway than there was when I had left. When I came into the house I went right to my room.
When I got to my room it was only about 6:30am and I called my friend’s house. He was not home because there was a fun fair in Maitland and he was at that. I was talking to him mother and she got him to call me. We only talked for a second because I was crying and couldn’t stop.
Donavan’s godmother lives on the Prairies and she was home a week before it happened. She called here and told dad that she was on the next flight home. It only took about two days for her to get here.
When my grandparents got here I was not crying or doing anything. My grandfather took me away from everyone and told me that it was all right to cry. I told him that I was all morning before he got there. After he told me this I left the house again and went for another walk so that I could cool down a little more.
On my way back, my father drove by and slowed down asking if I wanted a drive back to the house. I told him no and turned around and started walking back to the house. While all this was going on Michelle was still crying and shaking.
When I got back to the house I went to get a drink. Dad was sitting outside when the father of the driver of the car pulled into the driveway. When I seen him I went outside with dad. He sat down with dad while I was standing. He told dad that he was sorry and that John had taken the car. Dad said, “don’t worry about it because it could have been the other way around.”
After 12pm, half of my family is still at the house and I didn’t want to be around them so I went to my room and called my girlfriend. While I was talking she knew that there was something wrong, but she didn’t ask what. I told her that Donavan was killed. I was crying while I told her and I really couldn’t talk so I let her go.
About mid-afternoon Donavan’s girlfriend came down from Pugwash. Her and her parents both came. Michelle and I went outside. Melissa was crying when she seen us. Michelle hugged her than I went to hug her. We were standing on the front lawn for like five minutes. While standing there I was letting her cry on my shoulder.
We all went into the house. Melissa’s parents left and went to Truro so that Melissa could spend some time with us. I sat beside Melissa and let her hold my hand. She was really shaking so it wasn’t hard to tell she was upset. About an hour later one of Donavan’s ex-girlfriends came. She was crying and Michelle and I hugged her. Melissa and Holly really didn’t get along, but really from after that day, after they hugged they talked a little more.
About this time was when people started to come with food that no one wanted. I didn’t eat for a couple of days until Melissa came for a bit and she kind a made me.
People were still coming so I decided to go for another walk. Michelle went for on to but she had went a different way. I had just got back from my walk as it was getting dark. Michelle was still not back, but no one though of anything. I called Matthew and was talking to him for a bit. I was in better state of mind now than I was earlier that day. I was talking without breaking down. It was about 9:30 or later and Michelle was still not back.
Everyone started to worry about Michelle because they didn’t know where she was or anything. I was still talking to Matthew and he told me to go check the car and stuff just incase Michelle was there. She wasn’t in any of the places.
It was about 10 now and I called my girlfriend. She worked that day so she told me of what she heard. I started to cry a little more but I also made her cry by the things that I was saying and probably by the way that I was feeling also. Michelle was still not home and I was on the phone still while mom and dad were still out looking for Michelle. They could not find her so my mom came back and dad was still out looking.
It was about 11pm when the door opened and Michelle walked in. I was still on the phone with Ashley, when I heard mom ask Michelle where she was. Michelle told her that she had went to see John.
That really pissed mom off. Mom and Michelle started yelling back and forth as I told Ashley to hold on for a second. When I went out to the kitchen to see what was going on when mom was standing and it looked like she was going to hit Michelle. I hid gone in between them and told mom to sit down.
Michelle left the house and went next door for the night. I came back into my room and talked to Ashley more. I told her what had happened. After I told her she had to let me go because she had to work the next day.
That night I don’t think any of us slept all that great. Well I know that I didn’t and my mom didn’t. We were all up early. It was about 8 am when all the people and family members started to come to the house and staying all day.
The morning dad had went to see John. John told dad a different story than he told Michelle. Later on that day I called a friend of mine. He came out and spent the day with me. That evening my friend was still there and I went to see John. Matthew came with me. When john seen me he started to back down. I didn’t do anything. I just sat there and listened. I was there about two hours then I called for dad to come and get me. Dad came and got me and before I left the house John and I hugged then I went to the car. On the way home Matthew asked dad to drive him home.
When I got home I went right to my room. Mom came in my room and asked me what he said. I told her and said that he really wasn’t good. I started to cry when I told her. She left my room and about 15 minutes later she came back in my room and asked me if I wanted to go for a drive. I went for a drive with her and we went to John’s place. Mom didn’t want to even look at John, but something changed her mind. When we got there John was still in the basement. I went down with mom and then I left them alone and went to the living room with his family. Mom and his talked for about 20 minutes.
When we left and came home mom was crying again. I went right to my room and called Ashley. We talked for a bit and I told her that I had went to see John and so did mom. We talked for a bit and she started to cry. I think she was crying because I was asking questions that there are no answers for.
Michelle stayed the night again while dad. Mom and I stayed home. I still was not eating. I didn’t sleep good that night either.
The next day everything started to calm down. Donavan’s girlfriend came down and spent a few days. Melissa stayed until the day of the funeral.
It was the day of the funeral. August 4th. I really didn’t want to go because of all the people that were going to be there. When I got there the people were just looking at us. It wasn’t as bad when we got inside, but I didn’t look at anyone. I just looked at the floor the while time. Mom was sitting beside me crying and holding my hand. I still have not shown any emotions. After we left the funeral home, we went to the church. When we got there I still didn’t look at anyone. I just stared at the ground. At the end of the Military carried his hat and the Canadian Flag and handed it to my mom. When they did that one tear when down the side of my face. I don’t think anyone noticed but one person. Ashley was watching me and seen the tear.
While at the church, Melissa was standing on one side holding my hand and mom was on the other side and they both were crying. Melissa and mom both were holding my hands very tightly so my hands hurt a little after we left.
After the service we were standing and people were coming up and hugging Michelle, Melissa and I. Mom and dad left because they didn’t want to deal with it. One of my closest friend was there and she came up to me and gave me two cards and told me to keep in touch. Another person that came up to me and hugged me was Ashley. I told her that I would call her when I got home.
After we left the church Michelle, Melissa and I went to the military base where they were having a thing for the family. We went and stayed for about an hour than we wanted to leave. We left and came home. Melissa’s cousin came with us. Melissa was going to go home that night.
Everything was okay until October at school and at the back of some of my classes, I started to break down. Once day that I came home mom noticed that there was something wrong with me. She followed me into my bedroom and asked me what was wrong. I told her that I was starting to really break down and didn’t know how to handle it because I have never went through it before. She said it was expected because I didn’t really cry or anything when it all happened.
After that day I was fine until it hit November 17th when I really needed to talk to someone. My moods were really not that best so this teacher that I can talk to said that I could talk to him. He said I could so later on that day. Mr. Morrison came and got me out of class. We went to his office and asked me what he could help me with. I asked him if he could try to help my deal with what I was going through. He gave me as much advice as he could.
I was happy after that until the next day. I was on my break walking with Ashley and we were talking. I got a little sexiest, but she knew I was joking. She kept walking and I was going to my homeroom and turning around, then going back to the end of the hall. I was laughing and I hit the wall. I didn’t even know why I did it. I was laughing the whole time. Someone asked Ashley if she had broke up with me and she said no why. Then someone told her that I had hit the wall while I was walking back to the corner. Ashley turned and was walking away. I grabbed her arm and said I was sorry. I was shocking really bad because I was scared and didn’t know what was wrong with me. After break I went to my third class. While I was sitting there saying to myself of how fuckin’ stupid I was. I guess I said it kind a loud because everyone looked at me. L calmed right down and the bell rang for next class.
When I went to next class, Michelle had got ice for my hand. Then that was when I really broke down and everything hit me at once. I was crying and my teacher came over and asked me what was wrong when I said, “I couldn’t deal with it anymore.” He told me to go talk to Mr. Morrison so I did. I was still crying and everything when I went to his office. We talked more and he asked me what might of made me breakdown. We got it down to that it was because John had lied to me and I didn’t know how to deal with it.
After I was done talking to Mr. Morrison everyone was asking me if I was better. I told them yes and got them to tell Ashley that it wasn’t her.
When the next day came I went to talk to Mr. Morrison again, but this time I had got Ashley to go in with me so she had a better understanding of what I was going through.
After the days that I had talked to Mr. Morrison, I have been happier because I had got a lot off of my shoulder. But now I still have my days of when I think about Donavan and wish he was still here with us.
