Brian and Stephiny were laying on Stephiny's bed, talking and crying.
" I want him so bad."
"I know."
"But I want to just be able to hold him, touch him, feel him."
"I know."
"Why doesn't Nick feel the same way about me as i feel about him?"
"I don't know. I wish I could make him feel that way."
"But he knows our secert. Why doesn't he feel that way?"
"We can't make him feel a way that he doesn't feel."
"Why not?"
"I don't know. I wish I could make him love you."
"So do I. But i know that is not possible."
"Why don't you just come out and tell the guy you love him?"
"Because. It just won't work and it will tear the group apart."
"True, But is it not worth it to try?"
"I don't want to jerpordize the friendship between the 2 of us."
"Tell him that you want to have your friendship moved to another level, but if it don't work out, that you want to remain friends."
"But then if he says no, he doesn't want to advance from friendship, I'll look like a fool for reading his signals wrong."
"But you will never know until you try."
"But, i don't want anything to go worng."
"Brian. Listen, you first told me you were gay 8 years ago. Nick found out 3 years ago, because you thought you trusted him enough to not tell any one else. As far as we know, he hasn't. Maybe if you tell him you think you're in love with him, he'll give romance a try with you."
"But i want him in a relationship only if he wants to be in one. My luck, he'll only want to be in a relationship for the sex, then he'll toss me away. "
"Listen to me Brian Thomas Littrell. You are a male sex symbol, and you're gay. None of the fans know. Heck, not even our own cousin who is in the groiup with you doesn't even know. AJ has no clue, and he and I were together when you started to accept the fact that you were. And he doesn't know. Nick found out and I am proud of you , for not pressuring him into a relationship, even though you have loved him so long. I admire you."
"Thanks Stephiny. I needed that." Brian smiled and gave her a tight hug.
"I know you did. Why don't we ask Nick if he wants to come over tomorrow to play some basketball? Then you can talk to him."
"Maybe he'll wear that white t-shirt." Brian grinned like a mad man and day dreamed about Nick pouring water over his head, while wearing a white t-shirt.
"Stop your fantaziing and go into your own room. I don't want you masturbating in here." Stephiny laughed nad Brian gave her a hug.
"Thank you so much for talking ot me again." Brian laughed,
"You're very welcome. now go to bed." Stephiny smiled. "Good night Brian."
"Night Stephy." Brian called back and then walked into his own room.