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march 2002

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~ friday | march 29th, 2002 | 10:38 pm ~

*sigh*. yea, i'm FINALLY updating my page. it's been what now? like a good week and a half or so since i put anything new here? so you probably already know that my penguins were defeated by the new jersey devils in the third period on march 27th, but that fact aside, i had a pretty awesome time. it was pretty cool to finally see "the igloo" in person, & watch my penguins play on home ice. plus, nothing like a nice 7 hour night time drive to make you fully realize just how screwed we all would be without caffiene. honestly, i'm still craving more sleep. i've just been so lifeless the past few days. well add in that i haven't been feeling all too great, & that i had to work over 11 hours today, & yea, you too would want more sleep. hopefully i can get at least 8 hours tonight, & then a nice nap tomorrow might do me some good. plus, i have easter sunday off, & just to give me a decent weekend for a change, i took off monday too (yay! which for me basically spells a jenny-free day).

okie, so they say there is nothing like the love & devotion of a dog. well, i can prove everyone wrong at this moment. for me, there is nothing like the devotion of my cat halie, who since i returned thursday has been hanging around my feet & following me everywhere i go just to make sure i don't leave her alone again. it's actually pretty cute. if i'm lounging on my bed, she comes over & curls up next to me...& now, sitting here at my desk, she's curled up on a blanket next to my feet. i guess she just wants to make sure that i don't get outta her sight for too long. i think i have the coolest cat. she has this cute, innocent kitten face & yes, she's a cat that actually listens about 75% of the time (wow, do you realize, that's like more then jenny, kenny, & mimi combined!).

~ sunday | march 24th, 2002 | 10:20 pm ~

first of all, i want to preapologize for any errors i may make today. i got that wonderful illness that seems to be going around, & well, i can't think all that well. so basically, typing without any errors is really gonna be a miracle. secondly, i just wanna say how happy i am at this moment knowing that my penguins defeated the washington capitals tonight 6-2. i would also like to thank espn2 for deciding about a week ago that they would rather show the kings-coyotes game instead of the pens-caps game like they were originally supposed to show. not only that, i like the amount of time that nhl 2night on espn2 gave to all the other games, but yet when it came to game highlights of my team, all they showed was the scoreboard. ummm, hello! you give like 5 minutes to the blues-blackhawks, but don't give shit to the penguins? dude, that's just wrong. here's a few interesting things from the espn.com website.

alright, it's pretty amazing that this is supposedly the "final", but hey, look, my team scored again. gotta love espn's constantly updated scores.

hmmm, if you manage to find out who m. sivek is, & if he really does play for the penguins, then please, let me know. as far as i know, he's number 22, which is randy robitaille's number. yeps, i got a lot of free time on my hands. but alas, i leave you know to argue with my islanders' fan friend who swears that nashville has a team called the nashville tennessians or something. *hits head*. where do i find these people?

~ thursday | march 21st, 2002 | 10:20 pm ~

yes, that's right, stranger things have happened. so, i had a day off today. kenny came over, with pink eye & all, so hopefully i won't get that. we went to the olive garden (mmm, yummers), then decided to drive on down to freehold raceway mall since we were already in the area. of course, it only takes about an hour til jen starts to cop an attitude cuz she desperately needed something to drink. *sigh*. so she finally decides on pink lemonade snapple after looking in like 4 different stores trying to find snapricot (& she played the poor act so kenny ended up buying it for her). then she was in a piercing pagoda store where she found these cute earrings that matched her belly ring perfectly, so she talked kenny into buying them for her (only $41 might i remind you). alright, so then, the rest of the time there she was all lovable & huggable towards kenny. we get back to my house, where about thirty minutes later jen's exboyfriend from about 3 years ago shows up. hmm, ex & kenny in the same house. bad idea there. so she answers the door, where he proceeds to hand me the video "the hunchback of notre dame" cuz supposedly he promised me this movie & it wasn't out on video yet when he had promised to buy it for me. wow, so all the sudden i'm getting this promised stuff? hmmm, what next? so, yea, that kinda boggled my mind a little. so jenny decides "hey, let me go outside & talk to my ex, while leaving eva & kenny in the kitchen". so i got to sit with kenny as he wondered what jenny was doing. anyways, to make a long boring story short, she ended up talking to her ex & completely pissing kenny off by ditching him. even i am aware of the number one rule...never ever EVER have your ex hang around when your boyfriend is at your house. i mean, c'mon jenny, are you really that naive that you really couldn't see this one coming? so basically, now she's wondering why kenny is pissed at her. if you can't figure this one out, i really dunno, i guess you are just about as clueless as jenny obviously is. plus, i don't think constantly dragging in the whole "i'm going to florida for a weekend & i'm gonna be staying at my ex's house all weekend" helped out the situation too much. i mean, hello! if a guy is crazy for you, & you constantly talk about staying in an apartment alone for a weekend with your ex, what kinda message do you think that's sending? so, for today, thursday, march 21st, jenny anna peterson, you are number one.

~ tuesday | march 19th, 2002 | 10:56 pm ~

alright, it's amazing i'm even conscious enough to take & type something here. i just had a nice 11 & a half hour work day (yes, yes, thank you victor) & honestly, i am really really outta it. but anyways, it was quite a surprise today to see that darius kasparitis was sent off to colorado & stephane richer went to the new jersey devils. ummm, hello here penguins. can i ask, what the hell are you doing? what next? we're just gonna trade everyone to get a whole new team? dude, i liked kasper. and now, thank you craig patrick, he's gone. *sigh*. what has become of this team?

so, yea, ummm, anyways...i haveta work another 8 hours tomorrow (wow, i feel like i'm on a regular work week, minus the weekends of course...i've been working since last saturday), so i don't think i am gonna be able to write much more (wow, my typing skills are really lacking...ugh!). so, more tomorrow!

p.s. yes, just for you mark i updated the hockey page. i think. i can't really rely on my mind too much right now for thinking.

~ sunday | march 17th, 2002 | 11:22 pm ~

okie, i'm sitting here, sunday night, bored outta my mind - not tired enough to sleep, but not enough energy to bother chatting with someone, so maybe i'll actually update this for the first time in like a week. yea. i'm lazy. that & i really haven't been in much of the mood to update. at the least temporarily the work situation is seeming to look a little better. i'm guessing that my manager has seen the light & realized that yes, eva & the cliff dude can't really get along. it's like when you were in 4th grade, trying desperately to mix the pretty blue colored water & oil together, & no matter how hard you tried, it just wouldn't work. go me with the analogies.

on another note, yea, i had a fun 9 hour workday today. it wasn't that busy...i actually had the time to give eric a call & talk about the pittsburgh happenings. *sigh*. i really need to talk to him more often. i think the last time we talked was about a month ago. sad news on the pittsburgh front...billy tibbetts, yeps, that's right, tibbetts, was acquired today by the philadelphia flyers in their trade. i can't really remember who we got in return. but you can probably guess that jenny is kinda upset over it, although if you think about it, he's only an hour & a half from her rather than six. that should make her happy. but then tibbetts would haveta fight ken, & that may end up getting him in more trouble with the law or some silly shit like that.

i learned today what my coworker tony does while he's at work. it's a mix of checking out miscellanious web pages, building his own screen saver, & downloading aim 4.8 something or another, which is actually pretty sweet considering it puts a cool little phone icon thing next to aim mobile users (so yes, you can now tell when eva is on her cell using aim). i have no clue where he found it, since all i could find was aim 4.7, but have no fear, i managed to redownload it with the little download accelerator thing we have. now, survey says it's only a few days before i get blamed for loading it on the computer, since after all, eva is the only one who likes to chat on aim. thanks tony.

oh, i have yet to update any of my hockey stuff, basically cuz i'm waiting for the penguins to get a win. lately that seems pretty few & far between, so updating with only losses can get kinda depressing. so if you hear of the penguins winning a game, then check back & yes, i will have updated everything hockey related.

~ friday | march 15th, 2002 | 9:04 pm ~

*sigh*. i haven't really been in the mood to update this the past few days, but since i really have nothing else to do tonight other than constantly reattempting a download on limewire, i guess i'll take a moment or two & type something.

my life has been hell the past few days. turns out the new guy they hired is a serious asshole & has major issues with women. i knew from the first second i met him that we were gonna clash. he has this kinda rude arrogance to him, & mimi, knowing full well that we weren't getting along, left me alone with the guy. so of course, we have problems. the guy purposely mispronounced my name, coped a major attitude with me, & proceeded to argue with me because, get this, i couldn't help him use adobe illustrator (which i haven't had the time to learn yet, but then again i *not* the one who claimed to have a degree in computer graphics & DTP). so basically, i called my manager Tom back to help him cuz he kept frickin' challenging me (there is only so much of, "well you've been here 5 years...& you don't know how to use this?" that i can take) while i went about finishing the other 10 jobs mimi took in...waiting til 3pm came. once the clock hit 3, i just got my stuff & left. now i'm gonna get a lecture because i don't know how to work with other associates. excuse me for one second, i don't know how to work with other associates? i'm not the one who had to keep starting arguements! i'm sorry, but if you aren't gonna give me respect, then why the hell should i give you respect? as far as i'm concerned, i haven't been given any reason why i should have to associate with this guy, & i am just not going to have anything to do with him.

~ tuesday | march 12th, 2002 | 11:20 pm ~

yeps, i get lazier & lazier each passing day. hence the reason i haven't updated this since sunday. oh well, not too much has happened since then, other than realizing the entire reason i love working retail is those nice 9 hour days where you don't get a break, working with a manager who is so wrapped up in his sales stuff he's oblivious to the fact that if you are sending someone IMs on your phone, you're no longer listening to him, finding out that my penguins were dealt a 4-2 loss at mellon arena last night by none other than the columbus blue jackets (see? i'm getting my thans & thens right now sweetie :p), ohhh, & yes, that you get a weekend of silence since your sister did buy that plane ticket to miami. yay! now my challenge for tomorrow? dealing with jenny making the ever difficult decision of which sexy outfit to buy. this could be fun.

i get yet another day of sitting around, being my lazy self. although i think tomorrow i'm actually gonna get out & do something. well, besides the mall thing with the sis. i honestly should really think about cleaning my room. it's not that messy, but ya know, the weekly cleaning thing. then it's back to work thursday, with victor & mimi (yippie! let the fun begin!). now, if i get to work with the new guy, there's even more fun. supposedly they hired this guy who is like awesome at everything, & i'm thinking that he's gonna screw over my hours cuz he only has day availability. *sigh* c'est le vie (did i get that right? did i?).

~ sunday | march 10th, 2002 | 7:50 pm ~

*sigh*. yes, it was a boring day at work today, hence the new little header thingy. besides, i was planning on changing the colors on this a little bit anyways. just because i can.

i got the luck of working with victor today. it's so nice to see someone with the title such as store manager showing us all why he has the job he does...i'd love to sit in the office for 6 straight hours, only emerging every 2 hours or so to make sure that yes, my little slaves are still working. if we only all had authority like that. my, what a screwed up world this would be. thank god i am just the little slave girl. i get to return to working with my favorite person again tomorrow...*sigh* mimi...gotta love her. ya know, until i started working with her i never realized how much people will bs just to make themselves look good, & how truly it comes back on them to make them look like the fool they are. i love it when mimi will stand there & tell all these customers how great she is with computer stuff, only to turn around when they ask a question to throw it at me. yay! go eva! oh well. i can look at the bright side of things & just think to myself that there's only 2 days with her...2 days. yay! positive thinking!

whew, thank god for the little clock on my monitor. here i am, typing away, listening to the devils game that is on foxsports net, almost missing the simpsons. can't miss that show! i don't think i can watch the devils game either...i watched it with mark on friday night & what do you know, the devils lost...hehe, that's the eva bad luck charm for ya. so in order to not jinx the devils anymore than i already have, i am just gonna add a "go devils!" here.

~ saturday | march 9th, 2002 | 10:31 pm ~

alright, so ya can't have everything. but i'll take an overtime win for my penguins anyday over a loss. that's right folks, my ever struggling penguins managed to gain a much needed two points today thanks to jan hrdina's game winning goal in overtime. you gotta kinda feel for the guys. lemieux is out because of his hip injury, lang has a broken left hand, & poor straka, this guy can't get catch a break for anything. first he's out for 4 months due to a broken leg from october, he finally returns only to leave in first period after being hit by the goalie's stick, & finally gets to return on thursday only to leave that game with an ankle injury. but they have heart, & they've been trying their hardest to do the best they possibly can. it's just not been a very good season for pittsburgh.

as for me, well i am happy to say i FINALLY got everything fixed with sprint pcs. after a very trying 2 weeks, i managed to get my new phone activated & get the long distance that i was supposed to have on my plan. but, alas, it never ends. i realized that my wireless web (*gasp* aol IM!) wouldn't connect up & kept giving me an error code. don't fear folks, after waiting on hold for about 45 minutes, & talking to countless service reps, i was handed over to tech support who knew the cause of the problem right off. seems that my security key wasn't initialized or something, so after 5 minutes of talking with the guy, eva was back on the wireless web & is now a very happy camper. i can't imagine being without aol IM at work...it's like my sanity in a very insane world. it's what keeps me from wanting to do harm to those idiots who surround me (mainly you know who).

yay! only two more days & i have my usual two day break. from work anyways. but do you think those few days of work would be easy? of course not. turns out this sunday is victor's sunday to close, so i get to spend a wonderful 6 hours with the guy. yippy skippy. let the fun begin!

~ thursday | march 7th, 2002 | 8:59 pm ~

so, what did you do yesterday? i got to hang out with not one, or two, but three awesome guys. after like 4 years, i finally got to meet my friends scott & ryan from michigan. i haveta say that they are two rockin' guys & it's pretty swell that we got to hang out for awhile, even if it meant trying to explain strange new jersey things to them (such as the wonders of full serve gas). for the most part it was a relatively jenny-free day; scott, ryan, mark, & i all got to do the bowling thing in which i won two outta the three games (go me! although my mom kinda teased me because i was supposed to let the guys win). jenny was a little upset cuz she got home late from class expecting me to be there, & my dad told her i was out with three guys (she got so jealous! hey, by the way, she happens to think that all three of you are hot looking. be afraid. be very afraid). i'll have some pictures up sometime, all depending on when i decide to try & download them from the digital camera (me lazy).

i don't even know how i am functioning mentally to even type this stuff. i'm going on 5 hours of sleep, & boy, am i feeling it. work wasn't too bad - well considering i got stuck with mimi (& we all know how that goes), plus i had this really bad headache all day (ummm, aren't headaches supposed to go away when you take advil or something? yea that's what i thought).

back to the jenny thing - i think her & kenny are dating again, since he got her a ring that she's wearing right now that stands for friendship, love, & loyalty. ah well, i guess if that's how it's gotta be, that's how it's gotta be.

~ tuesday | march 5th, 2002 | 11:12 pm ~

so, what can almost compare to getting a hug from a way awesome guy? finding out your team gained it's third victory in the past four games they've played since losing mario for the remainder of the season. so, go penguins!!! woooooo!!! i feared for a while that my penguins might lose tonight after giving up a 3 goal lead, but kovalev came back in overtime to give the pens a 6-5 victory against the florida panthers.

*sigh* at least one thing about tonight went right. i've basically had about as much as i can stand of sprint pcs. i'm so tired of trying to get answers & getting nothing, or just getting an attitude from someone who is supposed to be in customer service. excuse me, but if you can't deal with people, you don't deserve to be in customer service. that, & my dad keeps getting on my case about my benefits, that my wonderful company decided that i couldn't have because i didn't apply in the correct time frame or some crap like that. i can't try for them again til the middle-end of march, but yet my dad thinks that constantly fighting with me about it is gonna actually help the situation. ummm, well, maybe it will if you're just looking to frustrate me even more then i already am. i hate when people wanna argue about something that can't be changed. i hate arguing period...i'd rather try to solve something rationally, but evidently my dad doesn't like that method. oh well.

i think my sister's ex was just hitting on me somehow. he came online & IMed me with "hey sexy". umm, yea...can't you just say hi? then he starts IMing me with "kisses", "love ya" and other various stuff. what else can i reply with but "ummm, ok". dude, i don't like you. at least not in that way. or will i ever. in that way. ugh, just thinking about it. yuck!

~ tuesday | march 5th, 2002 | 9:28 am ~

wow, mike, i guess you're hanging your head in shame right now. what was it? just sunday night you were telling me that my team sucked? so what do ya think about my penguins now?

PENGUINS DOWN ISLANDERS 4-2!!!

yes, & i'd like to thank michael peca for helping out kaspariatis with that last goal. well, there was a happy eva for one day (hockey-wise that is). i guess it was an ok day yesterday...i got into work & found out that our esteemed store manager had once again called out (supposedly from dehydration or some crap like that), but that also the customer service girl decided to call out too. so that left 5 people in the store...i decided to help out on customer service cuz i felt bad for bruce, but i got nothing but major assholes. i actually had one guy who made me rering his sale 3 times cuz he swore i was adding stuff to his sale that he didn't want, & then still didn't believe me so he wanted my manager to ring it up. yea, score one for the girl who once again doesn't know what she's doing. then i had my cell & was checking my IMs when barry (ask about him later) took my phone cuz he wanted to use my wireless web to check his email. you would think no means no, but to him it meant, keep trying to take my phone. *sigh*. i'm gotten to the point where i wanna be just like everyone else...you know, call out & get away with it. say it i want a saturday or sunday off...just call out and take it off. everyone else does it. look at my store manager for instance. he calls out when he wants an extra day off, he shows up on average 2 or so hours late, & he has shown us all that when you don't wanna make yourself look bad, just put the blame on one of the innocent people to make them look bad. you can learn a lot from your manager.

~ sunday | march 3rd, 2002 | 9:19 pm ~

wow, what a difference a week makes. looking back on last week, i was not myself at all. having stuff piled upon you is one thing, but to be accountable for a whole department is quite another, & with all the shit mimi left me in charge of, it just was stress overload. it's kinda like not wanting to face your problems head on, so you make someone else your scapegoat so you still look good. but, wow. all i can say is i feel so much better; more like my normal self. i know that mimi is gonna nit pick over various things that she thinks i should have taken care of, but at least i won't have victor hanging over my shoulder waiting for me to screw up (which, i just wanna point out, i didn't...thank you very much). at least i can get back to my more normal self (as normal as i can get anyways :p)...i hate being in a pissy annoyed mood, & unfortunately stress just does that to me. so to all my friends, i'm sorry i was weird & stuff.

well. with that said, i get to go back to my "normal" schedule. as normal as that can be. i'm gonna get stuck with the weekend thing, but i'm gonna see how i can try to work out something where i get at least one weekend off a month. i need the break after all. since mimi's coming back, & we only get 85 hours to use in our department, everyone got their hours cut (well except mimi), so i've got 3 days off instead of my usual 2. eh, i guess it's not too bad having friday off, as long as it stays that way the next few weeks (i just found out victor is closing like the next 2 fridays, & there is no way in hell i'm working with him). can you blame me?

i'm a little upset since i found out the penguins-islanders game is being broadcast on metro tomorrow night, a channel that rcn doesn't carry. so i can see the flyers game, the devils game, or even the rangers game, but not the penguins game...what's up with that? i think it's a conspiracy! damn you rcn!

~ saturday | march 2nd, 2002 | 9:57 pm ~

it's amazing how something as petty as a hockey team can affect you in such a big way. i'm still really upset over the entire mario deal, partially because this doesn't send your team a very good message. that's right, sure you own the team, & you saved the team from moving outta pittsburgh, but by making the olympics your top priority, then coming back only to sit out the rest of the season doesn't show much team devotion. i guess i just feel bad for the guys. they've tried so hard all season, & yet here they are, sitting in 12th place.

mimi returns monday. i've more than proved this past week that it's not only mimi that drives the copy center. but yet, everything is still mimi this, mimi that. i guess it goes to show that it doesn't matter what you do, you constantly live in someone else's shadow. so once again, all i'm going to hear about is "why can't you do as much as mimi?". i guess it's just been a pretty interesting week. i've learned that yes, there are people out there that can screw others over (in the case of my store manager selling out another manager so he could look good), my penguins can lose a game against the kings, come back the next day to the blue jackets, who proceed to win against the kings on saturday, & that yes, this week jenny & kenny are a couple again (yea, they're on this strange love-hate relationship thing that no one can quite seem to undestand). i'm back to my sucky schedule again, but i guess it is nice having a weekend off once every 6 months or so. oh well. i guess i can grin & bear it knowing that i only haveta work with victor for about 2-3 hours, if that. yay!

oh well, next pens game is monday against the islanders. wow, look at that. a game that is most likely on tv & i get to miss it cuz i'm stuck at work. what are the odds? i also get to miss the game on saturday when the pens play the rangers. something tells me that this upcoming week just isn't gonna work out to be in my favor. *sigh*.