bekah'sheaven

    yea!  or not yea...back to working with mimi tomorrow.  have you ever had it were someone just drives you so crazy that you feel you're gonna lose your mind just being around them?  i feel that way around some of my coworkers.  i think it's everywhere though.  hmmm, dude, maybe i just need to be like one of these hockey coaches...i'll chew gum the whole time & just keep this very serious pissed off look on my face.  wow.  if i can succeed at that, i can do anything!  i don't think i can keep a serious face for more than 5 minutes.

    hmmm...okie, so the devils start winning, the penguins start losing.  damnit!  that can't happen!  alright, there is something seriously wrong going on here.  now how are we supposed to face new jersey again in the playoffs?  lol...sure, we suck when it comes down to it, but darnit, we try!  plus, we had that really awesome commercial last season...did you have that?  nopes!  GO PENGUINS!  WOOOOOOOO!!!

    *sigh* it was so nice outside today.  67 degree weather, beautiful sunshine.  yeps, i actually spent some time outside...playing a little basketball.  go me though.  i don't think there is one sport that i can't injure myself in.  i think i twisted my knee or something cuz it doesn't hurt really bad, but there is this kinda noticable pain there.  oh well, thank God for advil & ace wrap!  :p

    on a positive note, i think i am finally over whatever i had that has made me sick for the past 4 days.  i actually woke up this morning feeling more like my normal self (yea!  no foggy brain!).  plus, i get one more day to relax away from work...i only have a class on wednesday.  yea!  no mimi!

    1: I want to know how can u make a long distance relationship work and make it last with u,if u are looking   for one?

2: how honest respectful woman can u be in your life without doing nothing bad to hurt other people feeling?

3: how can u deal with someone when they get really mad at u because u doing something that he don't like for u to do?

4: how much time can u have for a person u try to get to know. when u with him or talking on the phone with this person?

5: when u try to get to know someone and u tell this person u are very interesting in him, are u going to try to get to know him or u going to ignore and keep talk to other male u being talking to before?

6: when u on the phone or u having a bad day with your family or anybody, and u tell the person u try to get to know u having a bad and he tell u can u call him. Are u going to take the anger out on this person u are trying to get know?

7: what kind off relationship are u looking for when u meet a new guy?

8: how do u want the person u trying to get to know to treat u when he with u?

9: what kind respect can u show the person u are trying to get to know so that he can trust u in any way?

10: are u very serious person when it be come a long distance relationship or any type of relationship u in?

11: how do u feel when a guy u are trying to get to know don't like the things that u are doing with your life?

12: do u like a guy controlling u in a caring way, with out u getting angry with him in any way?

    yea, in case you are wondering, this was actually an email that i got in my aol account from some love@aol thingy i placed online like 2 years ago.  honestly, i was really confused by what this dude was asking...i feel as though i actually haveta think to understand these.  ouch.  lol.  wow, i really do get the winners, don't i?  :p  do i like a guy controlling me?  ummm, hello!  what kind of question is that?

    *sigh*.  oh well, bed calls for eva.  i've been feeling sick off & on the past few days, & i've really been trying to get enough sleep so that i can hopefully get over whatever i have.  headaches, an icky stomach, & earaches really don't help out at work all that much.  so, more later...

    *sigh* things are very interesting with my family lately.  my mom is on this "diet" for some odd reason, & my sister swears she needs to lose weight, so she's been walking the dog every morning to try to get back in shape.  funny.  she only weighs 115#.  hmmm, should we be concerned here?  me?  darnit, i'm just always cold.  haha one of these days i'll be warm again. :p

    alright, new jersey drivers just drive me insane...why do they feel they need to try to merge into the side of your car just so you haveta slam on your brakes & pray the guy behind you doesn't plow into the rear of your car?  it's beyond me.  idiots...we are surrounded by IDIOTS!

    oh well...i think i need to get more sleep so i can hopefully fight off whatever illness i may be getting.  it's nothing major really, just a headache every now & then, an earache, & a slightly sore throat.  *sigh* hopefully the aspirin will help with it...time will tell...

    1.)  mimi.  enough said.  she's the only person i've met that can sit for 2.5 hours in a pointless meeting, come back to the store, go on break to sit another hour, wander around the store looking for stuff she wants to buy, b.s. for another 30 minutes, & finally return to the copy center a mere 15 minutes before i leave.  *sigh*.  ya gotta love that.

    2.)  hypocritical people - alright, so let me get this straight.  my store manager can be late whenever he damn well pleases, but i'm a tad bit late & i get the 5th degree?  is this fair?  also, *whew*, this clarifies a lot of things - my sister to my mom this morning "well you know me, mom.  i've never had any guys hang out in my room."  wow, so kenny is a woman & my sister is a lesbian...this really clarifies a lot of stuff for me.

    3.)  people who can't drive...literally.  okie, so some people can't seem to grasp the concept that the passing lane is just for that...passing.  so therefore it's perfectly ok for someone to just cruise along in the left hand lane in a 65 mph zone going 50 mph.  hello people!

    4.)  anything & everything sprint related.  it's like nelly says "like sprint & motorola no service outta your range".  *sigh* gotta love sprint pcs & earthlink.  i swear, earthlink must automatically know you're 95% done with a download & say "wow, i gotta disconnect her...NOW!".

    5.)   having to wake up at 7am.  this sucks!  i was so relaxed & comfy this morning that i just wanted to stay in bed & sleep.  darn work.  always seems that when i am really relaxed & have a good night's sleep that i haveta wake up early.  *sigh*.  ya know, i'm neither a night or morning person.  so what does that make me?  an afternoon person?  oh, & telling me my penguins suck.  (they tie)  okie, so my team isn't doing too well this season...dude, i know that...don't constantly point it out!  (especially islands & rangers fans...hmmm, so how are your teams doing?).

    wow, wow, my pens have now won 5 games back-to-back. tonight's game against the islanders was played without both team captain mario lemieux & goalie johan hedberg.  tonight's stars: alexsey morozov (1 goal, 2 assists), robert lang (1 goal, 1 assist), janne laukkanen (1 goal), randy robitaille (1 goal), kris beech (1 goal), & milan kraft (2 assists).  GO PENGUINS!!!  WOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

1/23/02

    you learn a lot of valuble things from work.  honestly.  if it weren't for mimi, i'd probably never even realize there was a february 31st.  damnit.  all these missed out february 31st's...all because i didn't even realize the day existed.  but, evidently to mimi such a day does exist, since she requested vacation time off from february 26th-31st.  score one for intelligence.

    somehow i think this isn't gonna help me much either, but it wasn't my doing.  tony left mimi a nice little note in the communication book, which read as such:

    "dear mimi,
        once again, we had to send eva out to east brunswick to fix another mess.  i'm pretty sure she doesn't like wasting her free time driving there, but she does it cuz our department needs her to.  thank god we have her in our department.  we should have more associates like her.  go teamwork...wooo!

    tony"

    i think mimi & i are already on the thin ice thing.  it's kinda like oil & water...no matter how much you shake up the damn bottle, the two liquids refuse to mix.  yea, that's me & mimi.  i think it's the whole backstabbing that gets to me.  why some people think it's cool to talk behind someone's back instead of telling them something to their face, i'll never understand.  aren't we just causing more problems this way?  *sigh*.

    penguins take on the tampa bay lightning at mellon arena wednesday night...hopefully the penguins will be able to pull off another win for 4 straight...especially after an amazing performance against the flyers monday night.  imagine that, we were 2 for 3 on the power plays that night.  i think the morozov-lemieux-kovalev line is one of the best things to happen to my team.  now, if we could only get some of the higher ranked teams in the conference to lose a few more...

    WOW.  alright, one win was good.  two back-to-back was amazing.  but a 5-2 win against the philadelphia flyers?  damn!  that one is just way beyond words.  three stars of the game: mario lemieux (4 assists), alexsey morozov (2 goals, 1 assist), & alexei kovalev (1 goal, 2 assists).  wooooo!  we're on a three game winning streak!  sure beats the heck outta saying 3 game losing streak!  lol.

    alright, may i just say one thing.  i think my job is absolutely pointless on a holiday or weekend.  do you even know how bored i was today?  jeez, if i wanted to, i think i could have taken one heck of a nap.  survey goes to show, yes, bad shit always happens when mimi's not there to take responsibility for her actions.  isn't there like a law against this or something?  if not, i definately think there should be.

    ever realize how no matter what, there isn't anything quite as relaxing as a winter snowfall?  i love to stand outside & watch the snow swirl around me.  put me in a snow storm, & i'd probably be the happiest person alive (well, as long as i had a way to keep warm...God only knows i'm always cold!  no comments from you, mark!).

    *sigh*.  you know you need sleep when you're laying in bed watching tv, & you end up passing out.  i guess i'm just not a good morning person...ugh, i hate waking up before the sun has even risen.  it's kinda a drag trying to get motivated to do much of anything.  thank God i have tomorrow & wednesday to get some extra sleep.  yay!  sleep=good :p

    ever realize how truly peaceful a nighttime snowfall is?  the way it covers the trees so perfectly...it's so awesome to just sit by the window & listen to the sound of falling snow.  there's nothing that can quite compare to the sound of falling snow.  granted, it's kinda cold, but i can't think of many other things that can relax you the way a winter snowfall can.  it's kinda sad though...all this snow, but no one to have a snowball fight or to simply enjoy the beautiful landscape with.

    i guess the snow was a pretty good ending to this week...i dunno, things just didn't go my way at all this week.  i started out the week sick, got a class cancelled already (which reminds me, i should pick another one), & had to deal with mimi's crap again.  i think the winter weather isn't helping me much right now though.  i have this pain in my back near my shoulders that just won't go away.  so that's kinda mentally distracting right now.  hmmm, i either need lots of advil or a good massage therapist...lol.  oh well, 12:30 am, which means 7.5 hours of sleep...yay!  sleep!  g'nite!

    wow, too bad i missed out on the bruins-senators game last night.  third period - 150 total penalty minutes, total brawl, goalies fighting.  that would have been something to see.  hmmm, i'm wondering what jen's co-worker ross thought about that one.  guess i'll haveta ask him if i run into him.

    alright, the easiest way to get jenny to stop whining about not having a date?  put a profile on match.com.  i finally had enough of the bitching and pity-party over valentines' day that i just gave up & put a profile there for her (oh, i eventually did tell her about it).  thus far she's gotten 6 replies.  if this doesn't work, i dunno what will.  maybe a nice kick in the ass?  so tempting.  eva as a ninja.  haha if only i could keep my balance!

    tomorrow, the penguins finish up their 3 game canadian road trip when they take on the edmonton oilers, devils take on the carolina hurricanes on home ice before setting out on a 5 game road trip, and the blues take on the bruins (yea!  the fighting team!).  remember...GO PENGUINS!  WOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!  (i think mark is the only person who truly gets this...everyone else is kinda clueless.  so here's the deal behind it.  remember last season when they had the powerade commercial where they made you think they were talking about mario lemieux coming back?  yea, that's where it's from).

    "the al queda were trying to kill the americans, so we captured them & put them in this kinda holding container, & they think we are gonna be stupid enough to let them out?  it's kinda like swatting at wasps in the summer & finally putting up one of those wasp traps to contain them.  now, imagine how angry those wasps are, buzzing around, frantically trying to find an escape...do you think anyone is dumb enough to let them outta that trap?"  thank you, dad.  nothing like a great analysis to really get ya thinking.

    *sigh*.  i just love the intelligence that evidently my copy center has been blessed with.  it's kinda sad to think you have a supervisor who can't tell the difference between a mac or a pc.  last time i checked, a dell was a pc.  evidently in mimi's eyes, this is a mac.  or a macpc.  or a pcmac.  whatever the heck she thinks it is.  too bad i just can't tell irate customers "it's not my fault my supervisor is so damn computer iliterate!".  i'm beginning to think i may be the only one who ever truly knows whats going on.  all in favor of eva becoming supervisor, please raise your hand.

    here's an added bonus.  when you're evidently really bored, you pick up on stuff that evidently others can't.  http://www.nhl.com/onthefly/news/divesrsity011502.html.  score one for nhl.com for spelling diversity wrong.  if you're gonna do an article, at least proofread for frickin errors!

    predictions can come true...third time is a charm.  the penguins managed to beat the flames to secure their 4th win in only 16 games.  isn't it ironic that both the devils & penguins ended in scores of 6-4?  stars of the game definately include lemieux (1 goal, 3 assists), morozov (3 goals), kovalev (3 assists), kasparatis (2 assists), & hedberg (27 shots, 23 saves).  granted, we still are at the very bottom of the atlantic standings, but it's so nice to win once in awhile...so, GO PENGUINS!!!  WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

    on the plus side (or minus side at that), i get to go back to work with mimi tomorrow.  yay!  this is more fun then (or is it than?) watching my penguins lose a game to the islanders.  *sigh*.  then (i'm pretty sure it's then) i get to look forward to friday, the day jen has her wisdom tooth removed (God, what i wouldn't give to be outta my house that day!).  it's gonna be hell.  what have i done to deserve this?!?!?

    alright, my penguins play at calgary tonight, so hopefully with mario back, we can win a game.  it kinda sucks when you realize your team has only won 3 games out of the past 15 they've played.  that's not a good record at all.  i keep looking at the atlantic conference standings...penguins 39; devils 46.  darn you, mark!  tell your team to start losing or something!  well, you may have 7 points more than we do (hold on a second... 46-39...yea, that's 7...oh shush, it's 12:30 am!), but do you have the cool powerade commercial we had last season?  i didn't think so!  so GO PENGUINS!  WOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!

    i know, that's hard to believe, but yes, she can honestly be bitchier than she already is.  we were out by hallmark tonight when she started whining that she wanted to stop in just to look at what they had for valentines' day.  why?  so she could take and depress herself since she has no one this year.  *sigh* i tried telling her there was always kenny, but do you think she liked that idea?  of course not!  it just wouldn't be valentines' day without a new guy!

    i'm beginning to think that between jenny, kenny, & mimi, that they are the cause of all my headaches.  seriously, no one gets this many headaches without a reason behind it, & i'm choosing those select few as my reason.  ya know, i have a thought.  if i put jen on blind date, how do you think she'd fare?  do you think she'd end up being a date from hell?  in case you are wondering, i feel that i can say whatever i want about my sis for others to see...after all, she did mention me in a journal she kept a year ago for class, & she really made me seem like a loser to her class.  thanks jen!

    life is good when ya call out sick from work...ya score yourself a nice 3 day vacation away from it all!  *sigh* no mimi, no mimi, & well, no mimi!  plus, it lets me enjoy a few days off before i go back to classes on thursday.  it's not too bad though.  i got a class on wednesday & one on thursday, so back-to-back days aren't too bad.  plus, i got evenings basically off, but officemax doesn't need to know.  & no one's gonna tell them, now are they?

   monday morning.  working with mimi.  let the fun begin.  i better watch what i say since i like to start gossip.  dude, i seriously don't even know how mimi & i work together without beating each other with hockey sticks & stuff.  hey i wonder if she got jealous cuz they mentioned my name a lot during the store meeting...lol...they were talking about the receiving area & how much stuff was back there, & the one guy mentioned that they couldn't fit the basketball hoop back there anymore (a joke, of course).  the store manager answered "of course not, we're gonna put a hockey rink back there for eva".  yay!  hockey!

    speaking of hockey, the pens better start winning some games.  i still can't believe we lost to the blues, of all people.  THE BLUES.  at least it's not the blue jackets.  *sigh*.  at least they won the other day (i think, like 5-4 or something).  wow, ouch, the penguins next few games look kinda like losing ones if ya ask me...maybe there will be a miracle or something...maybe.  GO PENGUINS!  WOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

    *sigh*, my day kinda just dragged today.  i felt like everything was in slow motion, like the day was never gonna end.  someone majorly screwed up the dell, so my manager & i spent the day trying to figure out how to get the thing to reboot normally.  i'm telling you, people who are computer impaired should never be allowed to go near a computer until they've had proper training.  so, i didn't have the computer, so that kinda killed everything i could have done.  why is it that when your computer evidently looks like it's frozen, that no one believes that you can't do anything?  i swear, everyone thought i was lying to them.  me?  lie?  never...i just fail to tell the truth sometimes.  just kidding :p.

    alright, here's the report on my baby mice - they finally can see.  their eyes opened yesterday, & since then  they've been running around going insane.  kinda like little, jumping, mice-like fleas.  yea, mice & fleas...that's a great analysis isn't it?

    i feel so sick to my stomach at the moment.  the past few days just haven't been good ones.  between finding out primeau's out for the season (i'm still mourning that one), to the headaches i keep getting occassionally, i dunno, it just leaves me wishing that it was next week already.  i hope i'm not getting the virus that seems to be going around officemax.  it's this weird stomach virus that has already made a few of my coworkers really sick (out for like a week).  who knows.

    oh well, blues @ penguins tomorrow...GO PENGUINS...i gotta go lay down...

    i gotta remember to register for my classes.  i dunno how many i'm gonna take this, but all depending on when they're offered, i may end up with one sucky schedule...i'll think about that friday.  i'll add that to the list of shit to do.

    my heart's really not in this, so i'm gonna end here.  g'night.

    devils won, 5-1; pens vs. sabres tomorrow...GO PENGUINS!  WOOOOOO!

    i am so tired...off to finish my mom's grades (*sigh*, i love doing the job she gets paid for).

    i have the worst headache...so typing this requires major thought, which kinda hurts (so be surprised if i have no typos).  oh, & rob, dude, i'll update the blues thing tomorrow.  i couldn't wait for the score.

    as for my penguins, yea, they lost to the bruins today, but only by one goal, which is kinda an improvement i guess.  we got ian moran back (he's been out 5 weeks with a broken foot), but lost wayne primeau for 7-10 days due to a knee injury that forced him to leave 5 minutes into the second when the pens took on the blackhawks sunday.  whoa, try saying that one five times fast!  the next big comeback should be mario lemieux on saturday when the pens take on the st. louis blues.  martin straka is looking towards a return after the olympics, so hopefully if that happens, we'll have all our guys back...*sigh*.  it may be a little late to improve our standings though.  this has just been one sucky season for the penguins.  too many injuries, too many weird things happening in the nhl altogether.  it's like the entire nhl has been flipped around or something.  the teams that should be doing good aren't, & the ones that were sucky last season are now on top.  it sucks!

    oh well, it's late, or early, or something, but whatever it is, i think it's time for me to end this...here.

    *sigh* i'm just having no luck finding a guy for jenny.  either they're really smart or just really weird.  this one guy keeps swearing that no women want him, or they'll leave him, or some messed up shit like that.  alright, if i based all men on my past relationships, then i hate to tell you this, but i'd probably hate all men.  you put your past in the past & don't base everyone in the future on those people.  i tried to explain this to him, but i guess it just wasn't sinking in or something.  c'est le vie.

    man, i hope my penguins improve one of these days, & hopefully pretty darn soon.  ian moran is supposed to return tomorrow when the pens take on the boston bruins, & hopefully wayne primeau wasn't seriously injured on sunday.  he ended up leaving 5 minutes into the second period with an injury to his left knee.  mario lemieux has pushed his return date to possibly saturday when the pens play the blues.  eh, as long as we kick some blue ass!  i think my team just needs to seriously get their game together...they always try so hard in the third period...now if they can do that in the first & second, we may have some luck.  anyone who wants to keep me updated on the game tomorrow (tuesday), i'll greatly appreciate it.  alas, i'll be out at a bowling alley...although, i guess i could always throw the ball...if you wanna know, ask, i'll tell ;).

    *sigh*.  kenny came into omax again today.  i think he's obssessed with jenny.  or something like that.  isn't there like a law that makes stalking in all shapes & forms illegal?  i think harrassment is illegal too there kenny boy.  definately giving someone unwanted hugs could be viewed as harrassment.  too bad jenny has absolutely no guts whatsoever to stand up to him.  i think the whole "i don't want to be without a boyfriend" thing stands in her way.  why is it that some girls can't stand to be without a guy?  my sis literally has to always be dating someone or she is major cranky (if you've met her, you know this).  i guess i had enough of the drama queen thing she did this weekend.  that's the only reason i'm complaining.  hey, she's just like mimi! she likes being the center of attention no matter how she gets it.  some people...

    yea, my pens lost tonight to the blackhawks.  i'm not too happy about it.  i guess that makes it only 2 wins in the past 12 games?  plus, add in the fact that we have the worst power play in the nhl, & whoa, even the thrashers & blue jackets start looking great!  dude, we keep this up & we're gonna be #30 in the espn power rankings!  *sigh*, i guess i could see this coming the game straka broke his leg...with lemieux out too we're lacking our major scorers, which makes my team truly shit outta luck (unless there's a miracle).  thanks to jen for putting that phrase in my head.

    yummy, valentines day candy is in the stores now.  i absolutely love the sweettarts brand of conversation hearts.  although, i can't honestly think of too many guys i'd actually give them to.  i'm kinda afraid to get kenny anywhere near them...i mean, imagine if he get's a "kiss me" one...do i haveta kiss him?  blech!  just the thought makes me nausea!  (i think that's the word...of course, i'm kinda missing mr. english, bka mark, right now).

    GO PENGUINS!!!  WOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

    dude, i'm just gonna leave that there...maybe it'll bring my poor little struggling birds some luck (then they can win more games, just like they did today).  stars of the game - johan hedberg (36 shots, 35 saves), alexei kovalev (3 goals, including 1 hat trick), wayne primeau (*sigh* 1 goal...had to mention him ya know), jan hrdina & dan lacouture (3 assists each) & robert lang & dan lacouture (they collided in the second, giving the game a comical moment).

 GO PENGUINS!!!  WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

  don't understand?  ask me later...

    wow, it's awesome.  3 days of no mimi whatsoever.  i can't stand it when a person bitches about something that evidently has no interest to you at all.  she got some high charge from aetna on some doctor's bill & she complained to me about it for 10 minutes.  you'd think she'd get the hint considering i was standing there chatting with this really hot guy on my cell phone.  darn you, mimi...

    again, i was the one who got to lie to kenny about jenny's whereabouts.  i just love it when people put me in the center of everything.  why do i get volunteered for this stuff?  honestly, when it comes to lying, i suck!  i can't keep a straight face & heaven only knows i avoid eye contact...i mean, isn't this obvious?  then i'm expected by kenny to understand the inner workings of jen's mind?  whoa, that is just way too much...it's one thing to ask me to lie, but really know, to try to think like her?  that's just torture!

    whoa, okie, i'm missing my game...back to the penguins!  or as the well-known powerade commercial from last season goes...

   GO PENGUINS!!!  WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

  don't understand?  ask me later...

    *sigh*, yet another fun filled mimi day tomorrow.  thank god i only have two of those this week.  well, considering it is a thursday though, she'll be in around 11...yuck, the tom green show.  he's almost as annoying as mimi...& ya know that's pretty annoying.

    oh yea, watch the pens-isles game thursday night on either espn2 or foxsportsnet.  my pens need all the help they can get!  we've only got two games this week, isles tomorrow & rangers on saturday at 2.  both on tv...does it get any better than this?  i guess a win would work.  if i'm not asking too much guys.  GO PENGUINS!

    oh well, it's off to bed for me.  i got one of those yucky 7am wake-ups for work...than i get a friday off.  so i guess it's worth it.

    i felt kinda bored, so that's why i kinda changed a few things about this page.  all the hockey related stuff i moved to the hockey link below.  ha!  i make ya look for the stuff now...kinda a strange eva game.  wow, just because i know a blues' fan & a devils' fan, i am gonna mention this...the blues are getting their asses kicked 1-2 by the devils.  bet you're kinda pissed about that aren't ya rob?  i guess it really doesn't matter who wins (hopefully not the blues though!  lol)...not that i care too much, since the pens are already toast.  frickin' number 27 outta 30 this week...can we say, hello blue jackets?

    yuck, i got a hug from kenny yesterday.  now, normally i love hugs.  however, this is a kenny hug.  a "hi, i'm a sleeze who thinks i can have any woman out there" hug.  yea, my manager agrees that it's kinda pathetic to make the moves on your ex-fiance's sister.  dude, you were a jerk to jen...i don't want that...plus, he's not even my type.  *sigh*

    oh, an update on my babies (for anyone who doesn't know, i got a nice little bonus buy from petco...buy one pet mouse, get 10 free).  my nice little mouse gave me a belated chritmas present...& thus far they are all doing fine.  sorry though rob, i'm not gonna name them after reindeer or jellybeans.