4.25.2001
someone finished her junior research paper! thank god. and now i have to finish ryan's which is giving me a headache. today was pajama day so pink plaid was rocked, and breigh and i went to starbucks afterwards....its a habit. its a habit. tonight's the fun ap psych review which scares me because....well because APs are scary. i got a 4 on my american one last year, and that was just from reading "crack the ap american" the night before. i have a feeling this will be different though. and i have 2 this year. but anyway. friday is mall day with breigh, and then dinner with my dad. saturday is party of helicopters and who knows what afterwards in nyc. sunday is pretend to do homework day and then dinner with dad. bleh. i need new flipflops.

4.21.2001
unfun saturday. humph. last night was fun though....andy matty and i went to folio and met up with kevin and ryan and matt c there. breigh was also there. fuck. everyone was there. so we stayed till matty and andy played, but they got cut off and it sucked that it happened. and then accidentally shot by hunters played for about 30 seconds. they spent 6 minutes setting up to play for maybe 15 seconds. it was beautiful. we went to the windsor diner then. it was kevin, ryan, me, matt c, breighann, lindsay, nicki and patty someone or other i dont know. we went to the park then and had so much fun playing at like, 11 o'clock at night it was great. but then i had to go home and JRP it. which is also what i've been doing all today (save going out to lunch with breigh, matt and ryan). hopefully i'll get josh to take me out to dinner tonight...and then i'll work on it all tomorow. 9 pages so far. boooyah. like, 12 to go. efffffff that shit. i want to throw a hissy fit for an extension!!!!! but i cant becuase i said i did the fucking rough draft before i left. which i didnt. but i wanted to sound uber resonsible. which i'm not.

4.18.2001
so i got back from spain yesterday. and i wanna go back. i really dont want to sit in school for more days and just like....be stagnant. ugh i also want to be european. i really cant even talk about spain right now....i just get sad and bleh. i just cant wait until i can go back though. damn. i'll write about that shit later. humph.

3.28.2001
everyday just gets weirder and weirder. breighann and i went on an underwear shopping extravaganza last night...and then hit up the gelateria. honestly, that'll probably be like, the highlight of my week. unless i go to panera for lunch tomorow. today kiera and i made a list of things that make me happy. it was quite long and involved glitter, peanut butter, boys from certain towns...this weekend i get to do a lot of homework, not go to shows cause i have to go shopping for spain(oh boo hoo), and sleep and pack. its gonna be sad going cause i wont be able to chill with this person i'm starting to like...yeah. and its almost 2 months till my birthday. sweet jesus. that'll scare me...and its kevin's birthday on saturday and we're supposed to be at this really weird age and i dont feel it i still feel like i'm about 4.

3.24.2001
its saturday night and today didn't quite turn out like i thought it would. yesterday was fun though....after school breighann and i hit up starbucks(SURPRISE!!!)and then matty picked ryan, matt, and i up to go see the assitant, neil perry and off minor. so it didn't take us 45 minutes like i thought...more like an hour and a half. but we stopped for frosties. so we get there, and i see annmarie and give her the zines and all that jazz, and i find ryan rocking out to a band playing a kiss song. not only did they play that song. but they ONLY played kiss songs. it made ryan's night, no joke. so then some other band came on, and they were pretty good. off minor was next, and they were really really good. kevin and max and laura came at that point, so we had a whole group there. kevin, laura and i went for chinese after offminor and it took us longer than we expected, cause we came back during the end of the neil perry set, which pissed me off cause i promised ryan i'd take pictures. the assistant was last, and they were amazing as usual. i did have to leave when they started talking about sexual abuse and the like, so i think i scared some kids outside. so afterwards, we head to the car, and i got groped by a guy who could barely stand up he was so drunk. yeeeah massive ammounts of alcohol. today i headed into the city to see yaphett kotto and volume 11. i got there a few minutes before the first band went on. the first band was pretty good, i wanted to pick up a split of their's but had no money. and then i remembered that it was andie's b-day party tonight, and fuck i had to head back for that. so i stayed for a few panthers songs, and didnt want to leave, but i had to. so then jeff picked me up in westfield and we got to andie's party JUST as it was being broken up by the cops. NICE!!! so it was all for nothing but whatever. and then jeff drove me home cause i was so tired. and i did JRP notecards for awhile. yeah. tomorow should suck.

3.22.2001
almost the weekend. i'm seriously like, counting down the minutes. my mom decided to be responsible this week and call all my teachers, cause i'm going to spain in a week or so, just to see how i was doing. big mistake. i'm dead. and its not my fault that starbucks is so tempting especially when i should be going to math....but anyway. this weekend is gonna be rad. my mom's going away tomorow night, so matty, matt, ryan and i are heading to see the assistant, neil perry and off minor. and then its sleepover time. saturday i head into the city to see yaphett kotto and volume 11 at abc. and then on sunday i have to stop pounding my head into my desk and do some secondary ansel adams research. eff me.

3.18.2001
so kevin's show was last night, and it went really well. i got there around 4-ish cause lindz and i were baking our hearts out. we are the stop and shop's favorite customers now. so we chill for awhile and i set up my table of yummy food. accidentally shot by hunters went on first. once again, i'm inspired. amazing preformance. and i've never seen matty b go off so hard. then fight our way out went on, and they were ok i guess, not quite my thing. the freakout went on after them and laura and i went to java to get some drinkage. then revolution summer went on and they were really good, they always are. ryan was upset that they wouldnt cover motley crue. purpose were after them and were amazing. stupid me was wearing flip flops because i have huge blisters, and now my toes and feet are all gross and bruised and in pain. i think i popped a vocal cord or something(i dont even know if one can do that) but half way through purpose, my voice just like, didnt work. but everything is well again. fast times went on last and were fun. i haven't seen them since this summer but they didnt play my favorite songs so i was kinda sad. apres the ordeal, we decided to go to the westfield diner where the mood was quasi-strange. and now i'm pretty tired since i was up at 7:30 yesterday morning cause i couldnt sleep. fuck that. not its out to lunch with breighann.

3.16.2001
its friday and thank god the week is over. lindz and i hit the city on wednesday and i spent like, $100 in a few minutes on two pairs of shoes, 2 necklaces, and bagels. hot hot hot. yeah so now i'm broke. and tonight lindz, elizabeth, martiario and i went to the windsor diner and i spilled everything cause i'm the super spazz. and we sang along to weezer in the car and it was fantabulous. i love shit like this and its so high school but i dont care cause it reminds me of stand by me but like, older and girlish and without dead people. yeah so it really doesnt. i dont even know. tomorow is kevin's show which means i have to bake but mad kids are coming over to help and i love them all. i'm gonna be sick from vegan peanut butter cookies no joke. and i had too much coffee tonight but thats ok. cause its all ok. and i'm wearing sequin sandals. you know its hot.

3.11.2001
this has been the most hectic weekend. friday after school i went to the city and chilled with rob. it was fun and cold. see...i dress like it will be warm out..hoping the weather will take a hint. it never does. saturday i had to get up quasi-early to go to the city with my dad. and then i went to a posh-bar and yeah i'm just not gonna talk about that. and i saw "the mexican" which was surprisingly good. not like, really wonderful. but i thought it was gonna suck hardcore and i was pleasantly surprised that it didnt. sunday....accidentally shot by hunters first show. i'm inspired. what can i say. so kevin made me film....but i was laughing pretty hard so it was shaky. best 8 minute set I'VE ever seen. i dont think everyone else appreciated it as much as me. and the guys in the band. oh well. as long as we had fun. and i havent done any homework. and dont plan on doing it....even though i am in demi-trouble with my mom for getting a horrible interim from my math teacher saying that i'm a horrible person. or maybe that i just need to start paying attention, working, doing better on quizzes, handing things in....you know the deal. i go to spain in less than a month. all will be well....and destiny's child has been on repeat. word.

3.8.2001
the brazilian hasn't called me. he said he'd call thursday, but its thursday and he hasn't called! i hope nyc hasn't swallowed him up. speaking of. i'm going in tomorow to finish putting together elizabeth's birthday present. and i'm gonna check out tattoo places for lindsay(yeah just for lindsay...)and yeah. and i'm sad because of how things are going with someone. i thought they were so well. and now they suck so hard. alsdjfalkfdjlad.

3.6.2001
i'm so tired. weezer was last night. i'm so happy tired. except everything leading up to weezer almost caused a coronary. so i was on the phone with ticketmaster from like, 10 am to about 3 pm. no joke. because i hadn't gotten my tickets. but my mom shmoozed somehow and got me on willcall. so we all went in but our lineup changed considerably because some people couldnt go because of the snow(i could've been one of those people). and we met a crazy brazilian on the subway! he had come up to florida from brazil to see weezer. so while he was there he was like, "hell. i may as well travel the US while i'm here" so he's been in NYC for a week or so, going to record labels and trying to get his band signed. he's like, super hardcore on the road. so we got in after like, 2 hours of waiting inside. we saw about 3 ozma songs and they were ok....then GUK came on. first of all, it was strange seeing them in front of like, 3,000 people, and then kevin had to break up like, 2 fights. its the get up kids. ?????. so then weezer went on. and the stage set up was like, a prom or a high school dance with the basketball hoops and streamers and a disco ball. and the flashing W. it was banging. when they got off-stage and hadn't played only in dreams i almost had a tantrum. but that and surfwax america were their encores. so then we had to dash to the subway then to the train station. and then home. thank god it was a snow day. its 2:38 and i'm exhausted. and i woke up like, 2 hours ago. the only bad parts of yesterday were: ticket master, waiting out in the sleet, seeing dave with his new skanky girlfriend making out during GUK(bleh bleh bleh), coming home and thinking i was going to have school. yeeeah.

3.4.2001
ah sunday. emily dickinson hated sundays. i hate sundays too. but i dont like emily dickinson either. so friday night elizabeth, martiario and i met sean and some of his friends for dinner at pantera, breighann met us there. i had to be home early because of the national spanish exam the next morning, but it was fun. saturday i was up bright and early for the national spanish exam(and to help earlier), and i wanted to kill someone. we were there at 8:15 like mrs. jacobus said to be. we didnt do anything until 9:15...and we still got yelled at. anyway. the exam was amusing, but i just have a fucked up sense of humor. then kevin, ryan and i had panic attacks (maybe just me) on getting to the assistant/purpose show that night. we all found rides, so kevin came over and we listened to purpose and kevin's bouncing around my room saying that he cant wait to see purpose. we were all psyched. nick comes at 7 to pick us up....and we get there at 8. right after purpose played. right after. the only bands we saw were shady view terrace and the assistant(who were amazing). ryan proceeded to drink an entire squeeze bottle of barbacue sauce, and i swear the entire place smelled like chicken. the show was over at 9:30. we all went to a diner and had fun yeah. eric mooned a lot of people on the way home. and he promised i could angry dragon him(dont get any ideas) when he was drinking milk. he has yet to fulfill that promise. so then kevin came over. til about 3:30...i drove him home...illegally. hehehe. yeah my mom had gone to the city ohhhh baby and left me with the car. yeah. now its stupid sunday. sob.