Chapter 30
Later That Night
Brian's View
It was about 11:30 at night and I was down in the studio like always trying to write these songs. I just got done writing the 6th song. Two more to go! I've been working my butt off for the past week trying to get these songs done for the new album. I've been working so hard because I'm worried about my family and about my career. The one main reason why I was so worried was because of Tiffany. I felt that she wasn't happy and that she wasn't getting what she deserves. She deserves so much more than what I am giving her and I'm trying my best to give her what she does deserve. Sure, she tells me she's happy and that she doesn't want anything else but I can't help but feel that what she has isn't enough. She's everything to me and she deserves the best.
I was hoping this album would make her much more happier. You might think how it would make her happier? Well, the guys and I have been discussing that this would be the last CD that we ever make. We're getting old and we have families that we would like to spend more time with and do normal things. Don't worry, we aren't sure if it'll be our last just yet but it's a thought that we discuss now and then.
Since this might be our last album I wanted to make it special...I mean REAL special. About two months ago the guys and I met with Jive to discuss our ideas for the next album. As you may know this is going to be a double CD so there was going to be a lot of songs to it so we need a lot of ideas. Surprisingly, none of us had any. We would suggest some ideas but none really appealed to all of us. We sat for about an hour and a half discussing what could be done but we could think of nothing. Finally, I got an idea that I knew everyone would love. We have always dedicated our albums to our fans and would always make love ballads or fast tempo songs but we never dedicated an album to our wives...
Great idea eh? I thought that we should give all of our wives something that would surprise and make them very happy to thank them for always being there for us through everything and supporting us over the years. It was also to tell them how much we loved and cared for them. I thought that we shouldn't tell any of them what the album was going to be about or to show them any of the songs written. I wanted it to be a complete surprise. I knew Tiffany would love it!
We then began to discuss who would produce and write the songs but I didn't want producers to write them. I wanted all of us to write the songs, every single song. I wanted to make the CD special so it was going to be special. We were all gonna write this whole album on our own. I'm writing the most songs, which would add up to 8. 5 of the songs are dedicated to Tiffany and the other 3 are just dedicated to all of the wives. The other guys are doing the same thing. They picked how many songs they wanted to do and then decided how many would be dedicated to their wife and how many would be dedicated to all of the wives.
I couldn't wait to get it all done. I couldn't wait to see Tiffany's face either. I knew she was going to be surprised and very happy. She deserves this so much.
I set down my pencil and looked over at a picture of me and Tiffany taken a couple of years ago at a dinner party. We were on the dance floor dancing to a slow song when Nick told us to turn our heads and smile. We did and he took the picture making a few copies of it afterwards. It was a really nice picture of the two of us. It was one of my favorites. She's so beautiful. I still ask myself everyday how someone like me could have someone like her love me.
I kissed my fingers and then pressed them lightly on her face. I smiled and then set the picture to the side. I turned the lamp off and then got up to leave the studio. I was done for the night. I needed to go see Tiffany.
I left the room and headed up the stairs. I stopped by the kitchen and made my way over to the refrigerator. I found some cherries and took them out. I ate a few and then stuck them back in. I then made my way up the stairs and to our room. The door was closed like always and I didn't see any sign of light coming from the room. I opened the door slowly and stuck my head in. The doors were open and the wind was blowing the curtains around lightly. I could see Tiffany's outline on the bed.
I walked in and closed the door softly behind me. I took my shirt off and threw it to the side and then went over to the bed. I went to Tiffany's side of the bed and kneeled down. What I saw made me frown deeply. Tiffany's hands were covering her face and she was shaking. She was...crying.
"Sweetie..." I said concerned reaching my hand out and touching her hands. She slightly jumped startled and looked at me with surprised tear filled eyes. I stood up and sat on the bed while she quickly wiped her tears away.
"I...I didn't hear you come in," she said softly.
"Baby, what's wrong?" I asked taking her hand. I was real worried.
"It's nothing," she said shaking her head and sniffling a little.
"No...you were crying. Why were you crying?" I asked. She looked up at me and then looked back down.
"Please tell me honey."
"It's just...it's that album..."
"That I'm working on?" I asked a little taken aback. She nodded her head and said, "I never get to see you anymore."
"Aw, honey you know how busy..."
"That's the thing Brian! You're too busy!" She cried. I wrapped my arms around her and kissed the top of her head.
"I just miss spending time with you and I'm worried that you'll put your career before all of us..."
I frowned when she said that and said, "You know I would never do that."
"I'm just scared that you might do it though," she said quietly.
I pulled away from her and put her head in my hands. "Tiffany, listen to me honey, you are everything to me. The kids are everything to me. You're my family and I love you more than anything in this universe and that will never change. My career will never come first. My family always does no matter what. You should know that."
She looked down and then back up at me, "I'm sorry."
"You shouldn't be sorry, I'm the one that should be sorry, and I am. I'm so sorry Sweetie," I said hugging her. She hugged me back tight and kissed my cheek.
"I love you," I said softly.
"I love you too," she said.
"Now, lets cuddle, I haven't for a while now," I grinned. She smiled at me and then nodded her head. I got into bed next to her and wrapped my arms around her pulling her close. She rested her head on my chest and sighed happily.
"We haven't done this in a while," she said.
"Yeah but once that album is done we'll have more time to do stuff like this."
"You'll have other albums though so you'll be busy with those when you start producing them..."
"No, that won't happen."
"Why?" she asked looking up at me puzzled.
"Because the guys and I are deciding that this will be our last album," I said. Her eyes got wide with surprise.
"Are you serious?" she asked. I just nodded my head.
"But you can't! What about the music? What about your career? What about the fans!?" She exclaimed sitting up. I sat up and took her hand, I thought she'd be happy.
"I thought you'd be happy..."
"Why would I be happy? I love your guys' music, it would be horrible for you to stop," she said.
"Baby, we've made so many albums already. We're all running out of ideas and we all want to spend more time with our families. We're getting too old for this, maybe someday we'll start making CDs again but for now we want to be with our families," I explained looking at her. She didn't say anything, she just frowned and looked down.
"That's what you want isn't it?" I asked.
"Well, yes, but I didn't think quitting your dream would have that happen..."
"Tiffany, listen to me, I've been fulfilling my dream for years now. I'm happy for what I have and what my singing career has given me. Singing not only gives me the thrill of making millions of girls happy or to do what I love but by me singing... I got to meet my wife and because of you I have 6 beautiful kids. Because of my singing career I have everything that I have ever wanted in life. I don't need to do it anymore."
She looked at me and smiled a little bit but then frowned, "Aren't you going to miss singing?"
"Of course I am, I'm not done for life. We're all gonna take a break, a rather big one. We'll be back," I assured her. She smiled at me and then flung her arms around my neck hugging me tight. I smiled and hugged her back.
"Now lets get to sleep OK? I need some," I said. She nodded her head, kissed my lips and then laid down. I laid next to her and wrapped my arms around her waist. I kissed her neck and said, "I love you baby. Good night."
"Night," she said putting her arms over mine. I closed my eyes and drifted off to a happy, peaceful sleep.
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