Welcome To My Layer Of Suffering
THIS IS MY PAIN AND SUFFERING POEMS PAGE
Bad Night
Waking up looking straight at the sun wondering
where is this love
i wake up beaten and bloody
lying on a road with no money
trying to get up i fall
lying down to calm down i think
how did i get in this
taking a wiff of my own smell i get the scent of piss
oh great i say
as on the road i lay
cars passing by
not even to stop on the side of the road to see what lies
this is my problem
broken jaw
snapped ribs
cut up knees
feeling like been cut by a saw
where is this respect
this loyalty
what did i do last night
did i get in a fight
where are my clothes
why would someone want those
standing up bare
nothing hiding my flesh except my hair
cars passing me as i walk to shelter
where is my love
my pride and joy
my heart and soul
beautiful like a white dove
why did i get in that fight
i guess it was a bad night
thoughts and hard times
every day i wake up
hopeing for death and life
though i don't know what will happen
i do know i want a eternal nappen
is there a god
is there a life worth living
thoughts and wishes
dreams and streams of tears
rolling down my face
i know i cannot hear
i have to much fear
screams and heavy breathing
shaking and trembling
crawling up my spine
pain to strong to handle
shaking and screaming
noone can hear
noone can help
the thoughts of hate and depression digging deeper
the guilt and suffering taking control
the tears of blood dripping out of the wrist of my body
the screaming of my wrist opens wider
the skin becoming pale
white as a famous whale
as i cry out all my blood
i know this is my time to go
why this life
why these thoughts
why this knife
i know i am dead already
my blood spreading steady
my clenching fist
as everything turns to looking like mist
die i tell myself
just die there you should have no more cries
as i drift off to sleep
i know i am still gonna weep
A Life Of Hatred
Fury flowing through my veins
a clenched fist ready to strike
my elbows tight ready to strike and looking like spikes
fire in my eyes
i need someone to die
eyes glow bloody red
my next victim shall be dead
i know i hate
and it is all in my head
my next victim shall be dead
my life of hatred inside of me
killing me
my only release will be to give it to someone else
my life of hatred
why the fuck did it have to be this way???
it is all in a day
that my victim shall be slayed
ill kill if it is my only escape
one death is nothing
two is better
three is almost there
four is even better
even more and ill be free
my hatred towards humanity is all i see
it fucking sucks it is happening to me
this hatred
this mind
my life is so fucking unkind
a hatred of life
i shall kill with a knife
they shall all be dead
it is all in my head
they shall all be dead
it is all in my head
DIE!!!
Hellfull Living
The light has gone away
The whole life in this world has gone astray
Fear lurks in all human hearts
Beast feast upon beast
The stench of decay has flooded the earth
No life worth living
Fear and dark hearts is all inside
Wherever on this earth you go
You cannot hide
The seas have turned to blood
The skies have all become black
Trees have rotted and leaves are crinkled and crumbled
The unbearable pain inside
The sorrowful tears and chittering teeth
All this lies beneath
The fire burning inside and out
No light
All dark
The high pitch screams
The low pitch howls
Nothing can save these mournful souls
Pray to a god who cannot hear
Pray to a god you fear
Pray now to hopefully be saved
Pray all you want he cannot hear your screams
WISHING FOR DEATH!
In my dungeon I rot,
Blink thine eyes as waterless tears fall to the ground
My eyes can no longer cry
I have been weeping for so long to die
I have been tortured till I have lost my voice
My screams are no longer screams
They are now silent
Blood drawn from my arms
A sizzling pain creeps up my veins
Like no other this is the greatest of pains
There is no end
For my torture is to live for eternity in a empty cell while tied to the ground
Horrifying flashbacks with unforgotten regrets
Fighting my own fears in my own mind
I never win
It I hope is soon my time to die
Scarred mind, raped, and fried
I shake constant in fear
I have no more feelings for life
Life has all come to an end
Now there is only me
A unknown shadow never to be seen
I struggle in constant hate
I am tired of weeping
My soul is now exhausted
My body is now of that figure of a skeleton without flesh
I crave blood
I feed upon my own skin to stay alive
Though I know I should let myself just die
I bash my head on the padded ground hoping to hit hard enough to fall unconscious
As always unsuccesful
I go into ceisures
Shaking rapidly
This is it I hope
Stuck so long and tied down
Now dying quickly
I see a light brighter then anything before
I look down and see my body
I am dead
I am free
So is the end of me
Email: necro@khaosad.com
