Tell me what you see

TELL ME WHAT YOU SEE

I am a diabetic
now tell me what you see
A junkie, a dependent
or just plain ole me

I didn't want to get sick
but so very sick I did get
I ended up in the hospital
and nearly died from this lick

I was so strong and healthy
and could never imagine thus
Started feeling weak and achey
but didn't want to make a fuss

Thought at first it was the flu
but then it dragged on and on
Was scared to find out the reason
but knew something must be wrong

The months they passed in confusion
I don't remember some
It got so bad I took to my bed
got much weaker and feeling numb

And then I just stopped eating
and much weaker still I got
Then sleep took my life over
and semi-coma was my rut

They took me to the hospital
that night is still a blurr
My brother had to carry me
walking I could no longer incur

The first few days are lost
I don't remember much
My mom she stayed there with me
I felt her love and tender touch

And then I had my baby Chaz
my bunny so precious and dear
He kept watch over me all the time
he helped chase away my fear

And then the weeks when I got home
trying to regain my strength
But then one day my sugar went low
and I started feeling faint

This scared me cause I didn't know
there would be times like this
The shaking and the confusion
another symptom to my list

And now I am adjusting
and somedays are just fine
But then there are the days
when my body is in a bind

Twice a day I shoot myself
my tummy is where I do it
And if I am late and almost forget
my body lets me know it

But I am the same person
with the same feelings and desires
I still love and feel and want a life
and my passions never tire

So now that I am a diabetic
please tell me what you see
A junkie, a dependent
or just plain ole me

By: Catherine M'ericier