of death.
~Amanda
To My Soul Mate
Now you are all I think about,
and I want you to be mine
My heart longs to belong to you.
Everytime I look into your eyes,
Kindness is all I see,
and yet I know its only friendship that
binds you to me.
How can I ever make you see,
Soulmates is what we are?
Oh, my love, I wish you would,
Just look into your heart and see me.
Love is what will hold us together
Love and eternity.
All my life I've been searching for you.
Don't leave me now.
Unless you promise to be mine forever.
Everytime I see you, my heart soars.
Every smile you give makes me feel alive.
Desperation is on my mind,
Now that I've found you.
Answer my prayers, my love,
Make me yours forever.
~Amanda (4/22/98)
I Smile
I stepped off the sidewalk
and ran through the green
My heart raced
and I threw out my arms.
Fly
I was going to fly
As high as the birds
As high as my heart soared
When I thought of him.
And the sky's arms reached out to me,
Pulling me up to it.
I could taste the wind.
I could feel it carrying me away.
Away to him.
Away
And I knew it was time.
I knew I belonged.
I was in his heart forever.
No stopping now.
No turning back.
The time had come for me to live.
To become.
Something I held deep inside
Something I hid deep inside.
Only he held the key
And he opened so many of my doors
Uncoved my secret world
The hidden truth of who I was
Who I am
Who I'm suppose to be.
Who I'll forever be.
And I feel.
I feel myself fall.
Dropping to the ground.
Laying in the daisies as I look up to the sky.
I smile.
~Amanda
Distant Desire
Words tell the tale of two lovers.
The words,
That their bodies desire to speak.
Their flesh,
Seperated by mountain and river,
But...
Their hearts and souls fused as one.
The yearning,
For true loves first kiss.
The thought alone...
Euphoria.
Dreams pass,
Leaving a gimps of the future.
Fingertips to fingertiops.
Lips to crimson lips.
Reality fades,
The dream remains,
Heart and soul...
Becomes the flesh,
Eternially.
~Amanda
Sitting Alone
I was sitting alone yesterday
thinking of the past
and all the things I've done wrong
and of the things I thought would last.
The things that I had meant to do
and the things I wish I hadn't...
when my thoughts faded to you.
Like a tornado you came into my life
and turned everything upside down.
Now I could never imagine my life
without you around.
I was sitting alone today
thinking of the many choices I've made
and of all the love gone wrong
and of the relationships I let just fade.
The things I had meant to do
and the things I wish I hadn't
when my thoughts faded to you.
Like a tornado you came into my life
and turned everything upside down.
Now I could never imagine my life
without you around.
I won't be sitting alone tomorrow.
I'll be sitting there with you.
Thinking of the future
and of all the things we'll do.
Of all the love we have for eachother
and of the life we will share.
So today while I'm thinking of you.
Thinking of being there,
and while my thoughts are fading to you
and it brings a smile to my face.
I know my love for you
I could nor would ever replace.
~Amanda
You
Death stalks me like the fox trapped in metal jaws.
Waiting for me to trip.
Waiting for me to slip.
Pushing me over the edge,
Only to watch me hang from my last thread of sanity.
Then snips it with the giant scissors of the world.
Watching me fall to shatter into tiny pieces below.
When is it my turn to fly?
My turn to soar?
To fly like the eagle?
Who will pick up the shattered pieces of my soul?
Who will I find waiting on the rocks below?
I hope I find you.
~Amanda
More to come....
