Caelan~
This is my newest addition. And is TRUELY going to be the terrorist Puppet like his daddy. Is not due for three more months, ( 10 / 24 / 01 ) and already raises hell.
Caelan is one of them babys that is REALLY a miracle. For staters, neither Bek nor I even thought we COULD make a baby. Then Becky is a very HIGH RISH pregnancey, and proved that from day one. Everything from bleeding daily for months, to premature labor contractions, and the little man is still where he belongs and strong as the next baby... maybe more.
IT is because of his art Scottish herritage, and his amazing strength that we named him Caelan. This is Scott for "Young Warrior" and he will fit this name and wear it well.
I am TRUELY excited to for the first time KNOW I will raise my own son and it will be from birth to death. Course I am nervous as hell too. Especially in that it is NOT LIKELY AT ALL that he will make it full term. The chance he will be premie is probably like 80%. That is scarey. I know it happens all the time, but its just not the same when it is YOUR kid.
Love ya Caelan. (AKA Little MeAt PuPpEt)
Jamol 7 / 18 / 87 (No picture available at this time)
My son Jamol I really never got to know. I knew him for the first year or so of his life, but even then I had not much time with him. I was a kid who had a kid, and out of fearI never even told my family about him until years later. His mother also was a kid too, and living with her mother at the time. Her mother moved them to California, and after a breif time of talking to her through the mail, I lost contact. And never heard from them again. Not knowing my son was the biggest mistake of my life. I had no help in the matter cause I hid it from my family and most of my friends out of shame and fear. By the time I was old enough to reallize what an idiot I was and how badly I wanted to know him, I decided it was too late to just JUMP back into his life knowing he had most likely no idea who I was. And probably had another "daddy" by then. I hope one day he will come looking for me. But until then I just wait. He will be 14 in a few days from now... maybe when he is 18 he will come find me. .... if his mother told him about me any way. IT is painful, and one of the bigest reasons kids should NOT have kids. Was not fair to my son or to myself. I love him no matter what. And will forever be sorry for my selfishness.
Christina 3 / 26 / 87
Christina is not REALLY MY daughtor. But for 8 years I reaised her like she was. I loved her very much. In 1998 due to a long bad history of drugs on both our part, I split with her mother after walking in on her and another man. I was able to see Chrissy and Lynnie, (her sister) for nearly a year after but one day their mom up and dissapeared on me, and I have not seen them since. Crissy is a talented, and beautiful girl, who is out going, and strong. She is a BEAUTIFUL singer. And REALLY good at argueing. Lol, some day I am sure she will be an attorney. I love and miss her and her as well as her sister, and my son, I hope will one day find me.
Lynnie 12 / 29 / 91
Lynnie is Chrissy's younger sister, and she is also a very beautiful girl, as well as talented. Lynn loves to sing, also, although I don't think she has the voice that Chrissy does. She has always LOVED babys, and I KNOW she will be a GREAT mommy some day, and LOVE it. She is VERY social, and easy for people to love and get along with. And the CUTEST little girl you EVER seen. Lynnie and I especially had a bond.. don't know how to explain it, but we were just VERY CLOSE. Our favorite things to do together were to watch Rug Rats EVERY MORNING without fail, and playing water fights. :-) She would also get up every morning when I did, and when every one else slept, we would make breakfast and eat together befor I went to work. She is SUCH a morning person. One of them types you want to knock acoss the room every morning. The second her eyes open she is this bubbling burst of energy. And so damn happy you wanna puke if you can't laugh. I miss her and love her.
